Wednesday, October 27, 2010

10 Years of Blogging



I have had my blog open all day rereading old entries. I remember clearly the night I set the blog up. I was living in Cleveland at the time. The main computer was in my Sir's bedroom. He was sleeping so I just had the light of the monitor shining. But I had been reading several blogs that evening. And I thought why not. I thought about how putting it all out there would keep me true to myself. And I admit it - it was a hope for some validation....that I wasn't the only one out there feeling the things I felt, thinking the thoughts I did and just struggling with where to be going in this life.

My life wasn't in a place I liked. My primary relationship was tearing me apart. The only thing I was enjoying was my work as an escort. My life was in a place of transition. So what was the perfect way to figure things out? Writing was the answer for me. And so I started this blog 10 years ago.

It has been a quite a journey - struggles, being neurotic, many different relationships, searching for someone who could enslave me, sharing things I shouldn't have, sharing in anger, joy, sadness and every emotion under the sun. I have exposed myself through my words and some pictures too.

I am glad I have kept it around this long. I hope to continue to blog for a very long time. I am thankful that I have met many people face to face as well as online because of this blog. I am thankful for everyone that reads, sends emails, comments and such. Thank you for sticking with me all this time!

And I am going to end with my traditional piece from The Velveteen Rabbit:
"Real isn't how you are made," said the Skin Horse. "It's a thing that happens to you..."

"Does it hurt?" asked the Rabbit.

"Sometimes," said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful.

"When you are Real, you don't mind being hurt...It doesn't happen all at once," said the Skin Horse. "You become. It takes a long time. That's why it doesn't often happen to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand."

10 comments:

  1. Danae, congrats on 10 years. I wasn't able to do it, and even if I had kept mine, it would have only been only 7 years. :)

    You blogged back when it was really hard! You had to know HTML! I remember! :D :D

    Great congrats! You may be the only blogger other than Sarah whom I remember from back then who still blogs these days. :)

    And you've been honest and straightforward and kind and open all these years. :)

    Your Velveteen Rabbit quote made me cry. In a good way. :)

    Thank you.

    ~~Amber

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  2. Congrats on your blogging anniversary danae. I've been reading your blog for a few years now and always enjoyed your posts. I hope you continue to blog for a long time to come. :D
    Hugs,
    padme

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  3. Wow 10 years! You're such an inspiration to many of us!

    I have seldom days I just don't want to do it anymore and reading this helps encourage me.

    Thank you!

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  4. Dear Danae,
    Congratulations on your blogging milestone. It's quite a feat and you should be proud of your accomplishment.

    Your wisdom and dedication to blogging has helped many of us to accept who and what we are.

    Keep up the good work.

    slave freya

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  5. WOW 10 years. Happy Blogaversary. I adore your blog and your spirit. I hope you blog for many more years to come.


    His mija

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  6. Many, many congratulations ... we all look forward to the next ten years :)

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  7. Don't you mean 10 years of bullshit and lies?

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  8. Why are all the really mean comments from Anonymous? Coincidence? Nope. Cowardace. At least put your online, but still anonymous nickname on your meanness! Sorry. Pet peeve.

    Congrats on 10 years of writing. I haven't read it all by any means but I have gone back and read bits and pieces on several occaisions. Good for you for sticking with it.

    sin

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  9. @Amber thank you so much for your thoughtful comment...it means a lot coming from you as I have always admired you. The quote has always been one of my favorites and makes me cry in a good way too.

    @padme - thank you so much! I am glad you have hung in reading my blog. :)

    @viemoira thank you for your kind words! They mean so much!

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  10. @freya thank you for your words - it is always nice to hear that my words have helped others.

    @mija Thank you sweetie! Appreciate the kind words!

    @Mistress160 Thank you so much!

    @sin Thank you Thank you!

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