Traveling Girl

Glenwood Canyon

I have been feeling off for a bit because we have been traveling SO MUCH!  Last weekend in February, the  first weekend in March and then every other week until last week - we have been out of town.  I feel like we have been living out a suitcase. Honestly we come home I do laundry and then just leave the suitcase out instead of stowing it away because I know it will be out again soon.

We have had some really good times though in our times out.  One trip, I was able to meet up with an old friend I met on LJ almost 10 years ago.  In the same trip we met a new lifestyle friend and she was just so nice to meet.  

Master and I have had poetry dates out while traveling, taken LOTS of photos and just had time to enjoy each others company.  It is one of the things I love about traveling - road trips give you so much amazing time to talk and be together without distractions. Master and I have these conversations that are fun, serious, deep and complex, light and easy and just full of us.  It is fantastic so I really enjoy that time and cherish it. 

I have had some quality time doing art.  Not a lot of course since we have been out of town a lot, but some pieces that really mean something to me. 

Shiprock

Master did have some health problems, but he is mending. I am having some health problems too, but the same ones that have been going on for years.  My sciatica really kicked into high gear when we got home from our last trip.  I do have an appointment coming up with my Doctor about my sciatica so hopefully things will get better on that end soon.  

But overall - life is good. Master is busy with his business. We have a lot of great things in our life and I am really completely grateful for this life we are living.

Rainbow in Idaho

30 Days - Day 20

Day 20:  Talk about something within kink/bdsm that you’re curious about/don’t understand.

I am sure there are ton of things I don't understand in the lifestyle.  I have been involved with BDSM since I was 16 really and I am now 45 years old.  I have lived 24/7  -  Ten years with Master and three years with Kam.  So I have been doing this a long time, but it doesn't make me know everything. 

There are things I would like to try and do that I haven't, but I do have information on them. I have tried some things that haven't been successful,  but still desire - such as fisting. I have had a couple people try to fist me and it just hasn't worked. 

Another kinky thing I am curious about, but have done and would like to do again is gangbangs. But I know that won't happen as Master has no interest in it. I have already been involved with one, but not since I was very young and it is something I fantasize about still today.   

Most of the things I enjoy - I want over and over though are things I have done.  Some things sound interesting, but really don't spark that thing inside me that makes me crave it and makes me think about it over and over - obsessing.  But fisting and gang bang although I have tried, I am still curious about them and desire them.  

I have tried lots of things over the years and enjoy kink, but I am sure there will always be areas that peek my interest and others that make me go - no thanks. There are always things I am learning and I love growing through that learning.  

The previous 30 Days of Kink entries.

30 Days - Day 19

Day 19: Any unexpected ways kink has improved your life?  If so, what are they?

I am not sure there were unexpected ways. I think mostly I knew from the process that this was right and felt like the right path for me.  Made me feel more like myself. 

One unexpected thing that was a positive is gaining so many amazing like minded friends. I went in seeking an owner, but have met and made many friends that have touched my life in countless ways.  I think of my friends in Ohio who kept me going forward during such a dark time in my life. 

Feel extremely blessed for the friends I have made over the years. 

The previous 30 Days of Kink entries.

30 Days - Day 18

Day 18: Any kinky/BDSM pet peeves?  If so, what are they?

Master could tell you that I have pet peeves as he is the one that gets to hear about them, but really over the years I have just let a lot of them go. They aren't worth my time. But the thing that still gets me is the people that write me and aren't using common sense....such as asking me if it is okay to cheat on their husband because they want to explore kink instead of talking to him about it.  Or that have such unrealistic views of M/s.....such as they think I am beaten all day, kept naked and such.  I do get many emails that are genuine and sincere in wanting to know more too.  

Here are some things that have annoyed me over the years though....and for the most part still annoy me, but I move on from them really quickly. 

• submission is a gift
• slave heart - because often it seems people who believe this come across that they are better than everyone else
• slashy writing such as W/we 
• writing in third person when responding to public threads and forums - your own blog so be it, but in a forum it just seems like it would be common courtesy not to make it hard on people reading it. 
• the thinking that just because we are into BDSM we are better than anyone - else - such as you will hear "my relationship is so much deeper than a vanilla relationship." Vanilla relationships can be just as deep...it is the people involved and what they put into the relationship that makes it deep not just being into BDSM.
• those that assume everyone into BDSM is into poly
• those that think just because we are poly that means Master will be happy to fuck or play with them.  
• the safety police
• those think their kink better - or how they do this thing we do is better or that everyone else is doing it wrong

I am sure there are others - those are just the main ones off the top of my head. 

The previous 30 Days of Kink entries.

Painted Girl

I mentioned that I am writing poetry. I am not sure if it is good and really that doesn't matter to me. It is more about really expressing myself in different way.  Poetry before always intimidated me and now it doesn't.  I even got Master hooked on writing poetry. It has been something really fun that we do together. He has such amazing sense of humor and it comes out with how he sees the world and what he writes. I love how he sees the world.

One poem I wrote is about being an escort...so thought I would share it here as I can't really share it with my family as I think it is pretty provocative for them.

Good Relationship

From TinyBuddha's FB status today:
"Good relationships don't just happen. They take time, patience, and two people who truly want to be together." ~Unknown

A good life lesson and one I have learned over the years - good relationships just don't happen. I think we like to think that when you love someone - the relationship will just be magically connected together by love and make it a good relationship, but it takes more than love. It does need love - a lot of it, but being compatible on more than just kinky stuff is key to me though.

I love spending time with Master and not just because of the sex and kinky things - although that is delicious! But we mesh on so many levels that with time, patience and wanting to be together - we work hard to keep our relationship strong and keep moving forward.