Okay so yesterday I had a gynecological appointment and was seeing what I thought was suppose to be a female doctor. My normal doctor has left this office and went back to the old office (which I switched from when she did that). And that office is so much more busy so I knew if I wanted to get this done now - I might as well stay at my current office. So I said fine I'll just start seeing a new doctor. I made appointment they told me who I was seeing and I was like good - a female doctor. Well...it ended up being with her physician assistant - who is a male. I am so thankful they took my blood pressure before he walked in. Now he was nice...very nice but it did freak me. I have past medical issues with male doctors. And I also have white coat syndrome on top of that so internally I was freaking. I think he sensed my apprehension.
I came home from the appointment feeling just very upset - invaded and exposed. Now today I am fine. I feel fine about it. He was a nice guy. He was really trying SO HARD to make me feel comfortable with him. Really hard. And I can go to the point of saying he was trying too hard. And laugh about it. Really it was amusing.
The nurse and him were waiting outside my door - they knocked before I was completely undressed. So they were waiting. And I could hear them but I don't think they knew that I could hear what they were saying. And she says kind of softly to him "wait until you go in here this lady smells so good." And so they walked in and she took a whiff and says, "You smell so good" and turns him like see I told you. And he said it does. He then starts asking me normal questions and age was one of them. I say 41 and he says really? He has a look of disbelief on his face. HE then says he can't believe I am 41. The nurse agrees. And explained she had asked me how old I was 3 times because she just couldn't believe it and kept having 31 in her head so kept writing 31 on the chart. And he agreed that he thought I was in my early 30's too. So he started off good.
He eventually gets to the task at hand and says I have a little discharge. I said I normally have discharge right before my period and I am going to start any day. And then he....instead of just saying okay he goes into that all women have discharge and are "moist" it is just part of being a woman. But he mentions the word "moist" about 4 times. Now just reading that back - it might sound like he is a pervert...that is maybe getting off down there. But really truly when you hear this guy talk he is totally sincere and you can tell he loves his job and helping people. He just is that type that really wants to help heal people. Really he was just trying to make me relax and not feel self-conscious which really worked because I almost got the giggles. I couldn't see my nurses face but I so think she had to be near giggles too.
We had to do multiple tries to get the speculum in the right angle. Which really for me was the part that made me feel very invaded and exposed. But once he did he said, "Oh yes there is your cervix. It looks very good. It looks like a happy cervix." I kid you not he said I have a happy cervix. He said it several times.
After I got dressed, he came back and really spent a lot of time talking with me. And if I stay there I am sure he will be the one I see more then the regular doctor. So now I have to decide if he made me feel comfortable enough that I can get past the male medical issues I have or switch back to the old office and know it will be a month waiting to get in and see my old doctor. Where this clinic I can call and they can often get me in the next day or at least in the same week.
Although I came home and wanted a good cry, today thoughts of the appointment made me laugh. I mean how could I not...I have a happy cervix.