danae

Sunday....is here and I am so thankful that Master has tomorrow off too. An extra day with Him is grand :)

Update on life...

Friday I had a migraine. Which was so irritating because I had so many plans for Friday....some surprises for Master for Valentine's. But I did not get to do those - so they will have to wait until next year. :) By the evening I was feeling better and Master took me to dinner....and we then we went on our weekly shopping trip. There was a rug I saw when we ran in there early during the week. But when I actually got to looking at it when we went back, it had little palm tree embroidered on the edge of it that I did not like. But it had all the colors that go in our kitchen. :(

When we got home, we relaxed a while and then had sex. It was very nice. It was the first orgasm I have had in months and it was really hard on me - even though I am very grateful for it. I was very emotional from it.

On Saturday morning, Master woke up before me and brought me in a card and candy for Valentine's :) It was a relaxing day spent in bed - sleeping (catching up on sleep),playing and having sex. We then decided we would go grab an early dinner to bet the rush - and of course all of Grand Junction decided to do the same thing. And so Master's streak has been broken....and we had to wait for table at our favorite restaurant. Usually when we go out we don't have to wait -no matter what time, what night or where we go - we just get in. It has been an amazing streak that lasted a year! It was not a bad wait though and well worth it. It was so good! After dinner we ran an errand and then came home and relaxed finally getting back into bed to play more and have more sex! :)

It was a very good Valentine's!

Some other highlights of yesterday....
~ Master having an orgasm on my back. I even got dressed up with the dried cum on my back and went out to eat with it there. I felt so naughty! :)
~ Master shaved my pussy while I was in the leatherhood. It is a very hmm intimate thing...not sure that is the word I want but more close then I like. I have a problem when my cunt is that focused on - it is hard for me.
~ Master gave me an enema. We had not done that in a while and it was....*blushing*

So today Master made me breakfast. It was nice. I called j today - as I was missing her. We had a short chat as she had been up all night, but it was so good to hear her voice. She seemed to be doing well and I am glad. I just want her to be happy.

We then went to run some errands today - just taking our time. It has been another very relaxing day. :) I know tomorrow Master needs to work on tax stuff, but I hope He also has time for us to work on our website.

Housecleaning and Cooking good for my health

When I first got married, I was a horrible cook and housekeeper. My Mom is this great cook. She did not teach her daughters how to cook though as I think it frustrated her to have others in "her" kitchen. And she did teach us to clean. I just hated it LOL

So when I was first married I had to learn to cook and to clean a bigger space. Luckily Jim did like to cook so that was kind of a 50/50 thing. But the housecleaning we both kind of hated. After we moved from Nebraska to Kansas, I started to become more and more of a "housewife." I did not mind cleaning. I liked things to have their place. I also learned to cook although it was not something I enjoyed unless I was entertaining or doing something special. But yet that is a double edge sword for me then and now - as I love to do it but I hate to at the same time. I love it because I love to make people feel good through food. I like when they take eat and enjoy it and feel the warmth and care that goes into cooking for them. I put time and love into the food I make and want them to feel pleasure through it. I hate cooking because I add a lot of unnecessary stress and worry on myself with it. I worry about things that I should not worry about...I do a lot of what if the sauce does not turn out, or whatif not everyone likes garlic, or whatif I spill it while I serve, whatif things burn and so on and so forth.

In my happiest time with Jim, I was really into being a housewife (lot more contributed to me being happy - but this was one). We had just moved into our house and I was getting everything organized and painting and decorating. We had a bigger place to entertain, so we had family and friends over more and more. It was so much fun.

When I moved to Ohio and the poly household, I tried to enjoy that part of me there. And at first I was able too. But then - the more and more unhappy I became the more and more I was not able too. And that depressed me further. Also cleaning up after - as many people as we had in our household at times was very annoying.

One of the girls that lived in the household had no concept of clean. It was down-right disgusting. The stories I could tell, but then that might gross people out....REALLY I am serious. There were also other people in the household that were not clean to me. Their acceptable level of clean was not "most" peoples acceptable level. And cleaning up after people like that.....was very frustrating. (Put most in quotes as I hate using most but I can't think of another suitable word.)

And so I gave up cleaning. I let the level that was acceptable to others in the household be acceptable. I kept my room neat (when I got my own room), one of the bathroom clean, and the kitchen clean. But then....when I stopped cooking. I just stopped that too.

Mentioning cooking...I cooked and as I said I am person that likes to cook and know that it is pleasing. And much of what I cooked ever got a mention of whether it was good or not. And so I never knew and it became frustrating for me as well. I felt like I was failing or doing something wrong. After I asked for release, but still lived in the household, I stopped cooking. It was a very rare occasion when I did.

So now....I am here with Master...

And He wanted me to stay home. I felt at first a little scared that I would not "desire" it like I did once upon a time. And doing it fulltime also I worried about being bored. As I never was a "housewife" fulltime. I always had a job along with cleaning and cooking, but some of those responsibilities were shared with me by Jim when I was married. But I really like it. I am enjoying it. :)

I like the type of house where no matter when it was....someone could drop in and I would not be embarrassed. That was not ever possible when I lived Ohio (other then when I lived with Bill and Lisa). And I hated living like that.

When I live in a mess it creates a chaos in my life. It becomes a vicious circle. Because when house is chaotic my life is more chaotic and then go home to chaos and it starts all over again. There is not a time for peace, calm and recentering. A cluttered and messy environment keeps energy from flowing properly...making things chaotic. And I don't like chaos.

And now...my life...is not chaotic and Master's home is kept organized, clean and neat. It feels good to have a clean home for Master as well as myself.

So many things have changed and I know environment - living space has so much to do with mental, physical, emotional well being. If you read back in my journal, I was having a lot of woman problems in Ohio. Where I was spotting almost everyday or having periods for 15 days out of 30. I don't now. I was sick with migraines far more then I am now. I was sick - like colds and flu much more then I am now. I was always tired mentally, physically and emotionally. I was overwhelmed by my feelings and crying much more then I cry now.

I feel just so much better about everything now. There is lots more that factor into it. But because I have a clean living space has helped my health so much.

Sunday Brunch

1. Are you a morning person or night owl? I would say I am a night owl but I am not as much of a night owl as I used to be.

2. What is the last thing you do before bed? go to the bathroom

3. What time do you usually wake up? between 7:30 and 8:30am

4. Do you eat breakfast regularly? yes

5. What is your favorite breakfast food? hmmm favorite...French Toast I think I would have to say. But I do like Biscuits and Gravy too. We like breakfast foods here!