Chocolate Chip Cookies!

I totally forgot that I wanted to post this...

A few weeks ago I made chocolate chip cookies and they turned out! I live here in the altitude and so getting cookies to work has been a challenge. Especially chocolate chip cookies...there is too much sugar in them for the altitude which makes them get flat, crispy and crumbly. So crumbly that I can't get them off the pan.

So I took a picture to mark the occasion that they WORKED! I finally found a recipe that works! Yay!

Masturbation Survey

I think I am boring now...I think about if I would have answered this survey 2/3 years ago it would have been much more exciting. I love being owned but my sexual side and sex life has changed since being single (and an escort) not for the worse just changed.

Are you male or female? female
How old are you? 37
At what age did you start masturbating? 4
How many times a week do you masturbate? 7 to 20
How many times do you orgasm each time you play? 1 to 2 average

Where do you masturbate:
In bed? yes most of the time
In the shower? sometimes
In the bath? very occasionally
At the computer? I have in the past
Outdoors? yes I have before
At work? don't work but in the past yes I have
Every room in the house? no not this house but in past yes I have

What do you fantasize about when you play:
*** Most of the time I don't fantasize I just feel the sensations

A significant other? yes most of the time
A stranger? very rarely
A student? no
A co-worker? no
A member of the same sex? occasionally
A past lover? yes

What position do you play in:
On your back? yes mostly
On your tummy? occasionally
Sitting? sometimes
Standing? I have but don't prefer it
Kneeling? I have but don't prefer it
On all fours? I have but don't prefer it

How do you play:
With fingers and hands? yes most of the time
With feet, heel of foot? no
By humping something? yes I have done this at times
With a toy? yes always
With water from bath, Jacuzzi or shower? yes at times

What porn do you use to masturbate:
Written erotica? no - but I used too use it
Pictures? very rarely
Movie clips online? very rarely
Videos? very rarely
Something on TV? very rarely

What is your favorite porn:
Straight sex between man and woman? yes watched but enjoy others more
Gay or lesbian sex? if going to watch porn I do prefer lesbians in the porn
Group sex or orgies? yes sometimes
Blow jobs/oral sex? rarely because it is so available in porn it becomes boring to me -- rather give then watch
Cumshots? rarely
Anal? yes sometimes
Interracial? yes sometimes
AgePlay? I have never seen many pictures/movies of age play but I can't see it doing it for me even though I do like age play myself...but who knows
S&M? yes mostly
Roleplaying? yes sometimes
Kinky? yes sometimes

Have you ever masturbated to:
Email messages? yes I have in the past before I moved to be with Master
In chat? yes I have yes before I moved to be with Master
Exchanged stories or pictures? yes I have and again....before I moved to be with Master

Have you ever:
Been caught masturbating? yes while in relationships by lover, once by my ex-sister-in-law, once by my Mom but she did not get what I had been doing
Masturbated for a man/woman? yes
Masturbated for the same sex? yes
Masturbated in a group? yes
Masturbated for a photo? yes
Masturbated for a webcam? yes
Masturbated for a video? yes

Do you ever:
Play with nipples/breasts when masturbating? yes at times
Insert something or play with your ass? yes at times
Insert something in mouth when masturbating? not when alone but if Master is watching yes sometimes :)
Use pain as a method of playing? sometimes

For men and women:
Do you taste your cum? yes I have
When was the last time you masturbated? today
Are you wet or hard now? yes
Are you going to masturbate now? no
Are you a masturbation addict? I guess I could say I used to be but not anymore. I used to play about 10 times a day
What is the most you have played in one day? 20 times I think

Quote

Buddha had an analogy.
Milk is milk. Then it gets churned into butter.
Butter is butter. Then it gets processed into ghee.
We reach points at where
the way we have been for a while no longer fits,
it becomes unstable and unable to continue.
Then we reach out into the unknown
and discover the next way we are to be.
Like a caterpiller becoming a butterfly.
Like a little girl growning up and becoming a mom.
Like a busy executive retiring to a beach.
Never fear the dance of change.

~ Thomas Ragland

Help Annissa Support PFLAG...Pretty Please

The wonderful beautiful annissa of Life as His is doing blogothon and so....I just wanted to give her a plug so that maybe some of you fine kinky folks would be willing to help her out...

Click on the button below to find her entry that tells you all about it...

Rules and Punishment

This is a response to an egroup post where someone asked what rules were the slaves required to follow and if there was a punishment for not following those rules. And what are some of the rules that slaves have in their relationship.

In the relationship I am in....I don't really have rules....

I have protocols and rituals I follow. But nothing that is listed out saying "you must..or else."

One reason Master does not like rules is because most rules can't be followed in every setting usually. He wants what we do to be flexible enough to use in all settings so even when I am around vanilla people I have protocols that no one notices but us. But they are there and have meaning to us.

Also because he does not see the need for rules -- as the things I need to do...fall under common sense, service and obedience. I know what he likes and doesn't so I can kind of common sense it out. If I am really unsure of what to do - I ask. Otherwise I am to obey and serve - which are pretty straight-forward also.

Master does not really believe in using punishment in our relationship because of how the structure is set - if I were to blatantly disobey it would mean there is something seriously wrong in our relationship and he would be looking at to see what want wrong and if it is worth it for him to repair it.

Meaning - if I were to out and out violate his trust or disobey blatantly then something is wrong with our relationship. Something so serious that it might not be repairable. So when I say it might not be worth it - I don't mean if I say something with attitude he will release me. No it does not mean that at all...if I were to give attitude that would get discipline...either a look, lecture or physical discipline.

For Master punishment means I have blatantly disobeyed and he can't see that happening so no need for punishment.

Vent....

Did you know that because Master can do what he wants me to me and I am not in control...that he will one day cut off limbs?

I get very annoyed by those type of remarks. They get tiring just to answer a million times too -- because you would think out in this big umbrella of BDSM we would get by now that EVERYONE does it DIFFERENTLY!

Sorry just a little annoyed that some people just don't seem to get it.

Maybe more on this later...

Marking the Day....

Well tonight marks an ending....I already wrote my tribute to them in SMART's Newsletter...

But I just wanted mark the day. A group that my best friend in Ohio started is having their last meeting tonight. I was hoping to be there with them but it was not possible.

Anyway, I have been thinking of her and the group all day.

Sad to see such a wonderful group end but thankful for meeting many wonderful people through their group!

Sending hugs and good thoughts to Moni and all of Carpe Diem!

quick life update plus a lot of links

Master is leaving to go out of town without me....

This week has been a really bad health week for me so Master made the decision that I am staying home. He will go over do a couple of the things we had scheduled and then come back in a couple days. I am really bummed about it as we would have had some good quality time with like minded friends and I miss that.

Plus I just don't like the idea of being home alone without Master. But I do hope to catch up on some things that were neglected this week because of my health issues.

So on to the links....

News article...Attorneys find Dykes on Bikes patently offensive, reject name

Hartford Advocate has this article... Slaves and Masters
Could sex play that involves pain and submission be, for some, a path to liberation?

Because I am obsessed with Coldplay....Coldplay Code

Because I am also a big Kevin Smith fan....his online diary

Button Maker - to make buttons like the ones on the side panel for Kindlings, Under My Skirt, TPE Forum

URL Text Tree

Online Generators...pages and pages of silly things to play with

MythBusters and Fisting?

Okay so Master and I being the geeks we are....pvr'd Myth Busters special for Shark Week on Discovery Channel.

They were trying to bust myths from the Jaws movies. The one that caught my attention was the one where they were going to see if punching a shark would help fight it off if attacking. So they were rigging their dummy to have moving arms to punch. But they wanted already made rubbery fists that they could modify to rig onto the dummy. Well, they stated that anything can be fond in San Francisco. Master paused it as Kari (one of the cast members) entered a store. The name on the store....Mr. S Leather. Kari goes in and talks to a sales person. She says something to the sales person such as, "I bet most people don't by these for punching sharks." They never stated what they were actually used for but they bought two fists - one with a closed balled fist and the other that was kind of fist with fingers cupped in. Both are of course sex toys! And so every time they were showing them...all I could see is them fisting someone.

I was a little surprised they actually showed the name of the store -- but actually I would not have noticed it I am sure if Master had not pointed it out. I wonder if there were any other kinky people that noticed it out there.

Alive....Art....

I am alive....

I am just going through quite a bit due to my health and so kind of depressed....thus have not been in a writing mood. We will be leaving to go out of town again on Thursday....so there will probably not be much of an update until next week.

So I will at least post some art....

Play

Together Forever

Random: TV, Trip, Food, Mail, Email, To Do

I can't sleep so some randomness...

TV

Sci-Fi is going to start running Firefly! I can't wait to watch them all again. I am such a Joss Whedon whore!

I am a sucker for Extreme Makeover Home Edition with Ty Pennington. As strange as this sounds it is the ONLY time we have local TV on.....and it just happened today because we got home around the time the TV timer came on to that show. I just cry and cry during it always. Tonight's was especially heart warming to me and so I went through almost 10 Kleenex!

I just saw an advertisement for The Closer which I know quite a few people are watching....and it looks like it will have an SM theme going on tomorrow night.

TRIP

Missed our kitty cats while gone

It went past fast but we accomplished the things needed too. It went better then I thought it would.

Even got some art done that I hope to finish it off with a shadow box frame. I altered a CD - covering it with strips of cloth and then sewing beads on it. I need to find one that is relatively cheap though - so if anyone has any ideas where I can find one please let me know. (6x6 or 8x8)

We leave again -- on Thursday to go out of town for the weekend again...that takes a lot out of me and I am sure when we get back I will be going into hibernation for a bit.

FOOD

We had really good pizza on Friday night. I want to look for the recipe for the dough online it was so good.

I am stuffed and we ate hours ago

Not food but I have went through 3 bottles of water within about 2 1/2 hours and I think I will be up urinating all night long

EMAIL/ONLINE

I got an email from someone living the area....and I have come to think I am a snob. I will explain this more I am sure later. It is a rant I do often of wanting to find M/s couples to form friendships with but not finding them.

Then the young college boy that wrote recently annoyed me too -- writing under the guise of learning more about BDSM, but also wanting pictures. Then sends me an invitation to join a picture sharing site -- where I basically I join and have a folder for pictures for him.

MAIL

Need to send out ATC's to several people....one was sent out Friday before we left as it was long over due. The rest are all ready to go...just need to get them mailed. Two are going over seas so I need to bring those to the post office. And I think the third might be a bit heavier then a 37 cent stamp so that will probably make a trip to the post office also.

I have a little package started for DM that I need to finish getting together and mailed out

I have a little something for Jessica, but need her new address - so if you read this could you email me that pretty please

I need to drop Lauren an email (which I will do right now) so that I can make sure I have her snail mail right to send her some art

Need to discuss with Master sending something else off that has been on my mind lately.

Need to email my best friend from high school as I owe her an email big time as she wrote me a really really long one a while back and I never answered it.

MONDAY TASKS TO REMEMBER

Need to wash the floor in the kitchen as it is a mess even though I washed it 2 times last week

Need to get packages together so we can take to mail before we go out of town again

Start on the themed ATC swap that I joined and hopefully get those sent out before we leave also

Unpack and do wash

then start a new pile to pack

Regular chores of course too

Neat Link....from Flickr

We just got home a little while ago from being away for the weekend....so I am kind of just relaxing catching up with email and blogs. I will post more later or tomorrow hopefully.

A fellow artist friend posted this link. I thought it was cool!

Thunder in the Mountain Memories

So have seen random posts on elists and in the blogworld talking about Thunder in the Mountains that is next weekend (July 22-24). And it was making me think of past Thunders as this year we are not going.

So here are the links to recaps of the weekend for 2003 and 2004:
Thunder 2003
Mini-Review Thunder 2004
Thunder Part 1 2004
Thunder Part 2 2004
Thunder Part 3 2004

Interesting Link.....

Good post on "The Origins of Modern Monogamy"

New Forum

There is a new forum out there....that I want to let everyone know about...

From the website: "A community for those interested in frank, honest discussion about TPE relationships and the many dynamics they form."