This past weekend we were at a local event and I just briefly mentioned something that happened to me years ago. I went to look in my blog to see if I could find mention of it and I couldn't find it. I thought it happened in 2001 with a play partner, but couldn't find it so thought I would share.
I had been in the scene for about 7 years when this happened. I had played before and not ate all day so really didn't think anything of doing it again. I mean I knew that it was a risk and had heard that you should eat, but I never had a bad reaction - except one time.
My play partner put cuffs on me and attached me to a St. Andrew's cross. He was flogging me for a bit and then I started feeling clammy and dizzy. I called to him and he came up to me and I said, "I think I am going to faint..." - and I fainted. I slumped and he grabbed me. Luckily I was attached to the St. Andrews because I could have fell on the hard floor near several pieces of equipment and possibly hit my head. He called a friend over and just as he was going to have her undo a cuff, I came right back. He got me out the restraints and sat me down.
After we talked to try to figure out what it could have been - running down a list of usual suspects in these kind of cases - locking knees, meds, illness, fatigue, not eating and so on. I realized at that moment - I hadn't ate. We still don't know if that is the case, because as I said above I had played without eating all day before and never had a bad reaction. But this time I did. My play partner was fairly new to the scene so he actually was happy to have a learning experience from the situation. Upset I fainted, but glad to see what happens and what to take away from it. From that scene on - I made sure I ate before hand so I learned too. I have never fainted again.
I have a good friend that faints from playing quite often - just because her body goes into shock with pain play. Her body just doesn't know how to handle the assault of the sensations and goes into shock. So she has to negotiate and really educate her top before playing.
My point of telling this story is....things happen. Sometimes we can prepare for them. Sometimes we can't. Sometimes things happen and there is no explanation of why. It is okay. Do your best to learn from it and move forward.
Here are two links to learn more about illness and fainting during play:
Facing Sudden Illness During Play
Assessment and Treatment of "Fainting" During BDSM Play
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