Monday, May 29, 2006

Positive Monday

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5 Positive Things in my life...
1. That I had a long weekend with Master although we did work hard it was good.
2. Yummy brunch that Master made! Oh so good!
3. Yummy dinner of burgers, corn on the cob, and oven fries. The burgers had sun-dried tomato mayo on them and roasted red peppers. Teriyaki sauce, green onions, black coarse pepper, and garlic in the burgers.
4. That there has been no insomnia for 3 or 4 days and no migraine either!
5. That I have wonderful friends in my life who are so good to me.

Sunday, May 28, 2006


So just a quick entry...

I am online now Yay!

Master has gotten a little frustrated with it. But he did it! I knew he would figure it out. I am going back to unpacking my room. I still have several boxes to unpack and then pictures to hang up. It is looking pretty good though. Master's office though is going to need work next. But he got his computer equipment moved to my old desk and set up through the network also.

I am feeling even more exhausted today so I hope to make it through to get everything done I wanted too today. I want the majority of it done today so Master can just have Memorial day to relax.

Saturday, May 27, 2006

Voice Post

So I just made a voice post over on LiveJournal and decided to make it public at least for al ittle bit....

Go check it out if you want to hear my voice.

(of course I think I sound terrible but I am also really exhausted)

Friday, May 26, 2006

Big Love in Colorado.....??

Master is so silly sometimes....but again those moments that make me laugh and smile are the moments I cherish so much.

He asked me the date of Big Love's season finale. I told him (it is June 4th for those that are wondering). And he stood there looking like he was deep in thought. I was in the middle of something so I kept on doing that and finally he said in a very serious tone - "I have to tell you something and I don't want you to get upset." I was very nervous and I said, "okay shoot."

He said, "you and the cats are the 3 sister wives."

"ummm okay....???"

He went on to tell me why I was Barb and our little girl cat is Margene and our male cat (yes male) is Nicki. It was so funny! I tried to keep a serious face as he was doing it so seriously. But then I started to laugh and so did he.

It was quite funny and I am sure you had to be there. LOL

Thursday, May 25, 2006


Accent: a northern one especially when I say bag, and sorry

Booze: no booze per se but wine

Chore I Hate: laundry

Dogs/Cats: cats

Essential Electronics: computer

Favorite Perfume/Cologne: I don't wear perfume because they usually give me a migraine but I will wear body spray right now I have pearberry and country apple

Gold/Silver: silver

Insomnia: yeppers going through that lately

Job Title: umm artist....slave...His

Kids: no

Living Arrangements: living with Master in His house

Most Admired Trait: hmm I am fiercly loyal

Number of Sexual Partners: umm way to many to count

Overnight Hospital Stays: 1

Phobia: Mice!

Quote: "Everything is blooming most recklessly; if it were voices instead of colors, there would be an unbelievable shrieking into the heart of the night." ~ Rainer Maria Rilke

Religion: kind of a mixture of many religons

Siblings: 2 younger sisters

Time I usually wake up: 8:30am

Unusual talents: hmm I can't think of anything unsual at the moment

Vegetable I refuse to eat: ummm a lot....Brussel sprouts probably number one on the list though

Worst Habit: comfort eating, nail biting

X-Rays: dental, sinus cavities, lungs, back

Yummy Foods I Make: I think I make quite a few yummy dishes

Zodiac Sign: Libra

News Article

Saw on several LJ's today...

An article in the Guardian....Gor blimey! Subservient cult is unleashed on Darlington

A Favorite Client....

So I watched a movie this afternoon while doing other things and it made me think of one of my favorite clients.

For those of you that don't know...I was an escort. Yes, it was sex. And yes I enjoyed it.

There was a whole community - just like the BDSM community - there was a sex industry community. We had forums, parties, socializing and such. There was a man that kind of rallied the community. And he did interviews and a "date" with the escorts and then after he would basically write up a review along with the interview and post it to the escort forums. When he would do this the girl would get a lot of good advertising. Well this man did one of me with a little bit of a BDSM twist. I was out about my BDSM interests but it was also known I didn't really engage in it unless I got to know the person really well. And even then I really was selective. I did some rough sex type of things and light spanking but that was about it.

So after the interview I got quite a few gentlemen that would see me several times and then mention the BDSM and their interest in it. Some from the bottom and others from the top. I had one gentleman that talked about the interview in his initial email to me...and that was usual as they usually were to shy to bring it up. He had a reference for me and he gave me all of his info that I required and so I checked him out and set a date.

Our first date he showed up at my hotel room with a couple of diet cokes and said he wanted to talk first. Again not something that was really a usual thing. So we sat down and he proceeded to tell me he wanted something specific and that if I could provide it he would be seeing me very regularly.

He was an older man...almost 70. He wasn't from the states although he had lived here a very long time but still had his accent. Oh so nice...shiver! He told me that he hadn't really been able to find the type of date he wanted from anyone. Basically he didn't want to talk. He said his wife, his girlfriends over the years and the escorts he hired all wanted to talk before, during and after and he just wanted to come in get down to business and have fun without talking and all the emotional things women do. He said he liked noise or talking dirty during sex but he didn't want to talk before or after. He also liked it a bit rougher. I felt very comfortable with him. And after a little more conversation about what he wanted I told him that I felt I could provide him with what he needed. And then we had some fun before he left.

After that all other dates went to no talking. And so this was a typical date with him...

I would be dressed in something slutty sexy....often thigh highs, heels, and some type of lingerie. Occasionally he would ask that I greet him in just thigh highs and heels or a special type of outfit/costume (such as a school girl). He would show up and I would open the door and not say hello or anything. I just open the door and let him come in. He would take care of business - pay. Ad then he would undress and put a condom on - all without saying anything to me. After he was done he would come to me, grab me and kiss me...usually while pull off lingerie (at least panties or bottoms). And then it was straight to sex....often a blow job to start. He would push me to my knees and then move to sex - vaginal or anal. He was often rough he would dig his fingers into my breasts and ass. And at times do some spanking. He would talk dirty too. After he had an orgasm, he would lay there for a few minutes, then get up, clean up, get dressed and then say good bye. And that was it. I always got follow up emails from him telling me that I did great and he had a great time. And I am glad he did that as it would probably make me wonder if he had not had a good time. And that submissive part in me does like to please!

So for some randomness about him...

* Wow, wow, wow, he knew what to do sexually. I usually orgasmed with him multiple times during our appointment. Not only with sex (which is a very rare occasion) but with just the little bit of spanking and digging his fingers into me. He combined it in just the right way to send me over always.
* He was the first older man I was with that liked to role play Daddy/little girl. He liked it when I dressed as a school girl. He would say I was a naughty girl while we were having sex and I always knew that was my only time to talk. I never thought with someone just random - no emotional connection - I would be able to get off on doing that type of thing but I was able too. Plus again he was older then me and all of my Daddy/little girl experiences had been with men only slightly older or slightly younger then me so this felt umm much hotter in a way for me. And I never expected that because of my past.
* He was the first uncut guy I had been with and also the largest man I had been with. He was a short man - he was maybe an inch or two shorter then I. He would get undressed, have wrinkly skin from age and then expose this big smooth uncut cock all hard and ready to go. And it just always amazed me to look at him...this little man that looked like a sweet innocent Grandpa and here just moments after he undressed he would be fucking me and making me moan with pleasure.
* He turned me he looked - naked even more of a turn on, how we didn't talk except during sex, how he fucked me, how he spanked and dug his fingers into was all very hot for me and I always looked forward to our appointments.

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Some Rearranging....

Okay have you ever had a conversation with someone and say "yeah I can do that" and then later you realize how much work it will undertake? And what you really agreed to?

As I have stated several times Master is starting his own business and our computer room really needs to turn into his workroom/office since he will be working from home for now. Our computer room as of right now is very crowded with both of us in here. Master could really use both desks so that while one video is rendering he will be able to work on our spare computer on other projects. And he is going to be getting a special printer to print on DVD/CD's so having me out of here would give him more room for that equipment. Plus all his other video camera equipment.

So Memorial Day weekend is coming up - meaning an extra day off so we discussed that it might be a good idea to convert the computer room into his office and move my computer into my art room. We both agreed it was a good time with the extra day.

This morning I was writing a good friend and telling her I would like to do art this weekend and then remembered we are going to do all the rearranging. Oh my gawd it was like huge neon sign went on as I wrote her. I started picturing all I would have to do to get it to the state we need. Oh my gawd...what did I get myself into. It was my idea too that Master needed his own office with more work space. I am bloody brilliant...creating all this work for myself.

See my art room right now has all it's space utilized, because....that is the only way it fits. We are going to have to move out a really nice futon (great rustic log frame to it). To do that means I will have almost move everything out of the art room - leaving a clear path to the dining room and a clear place in the dining room for the futon to go until we get it to storage. My art room has a heavy wooden filing cabinet, a heavy book shelf with tons of books - from paper back to books we had when we were in college (so heavy and thick), a long 3-part shelving unit (only thing that will probably stay in the room), and then my tables, crates, rolling drawers. If you have seen the pictures I posted of my art room a while back you would have seen ALL the STUFF I have in my room. Oh my gawd!

Then Master says to me on the phone just a little bit ago it might be a good time when we clear it out to steam clean the art room. And he is absolutely right. But that means tomorrow I need to get everything cleared out that I can before he comes home. And then after he gets home we will move the futon (weighs a ton because of the log frame) out. Then Friday I will steam clean and Friday evening or Saturday morning we will have to go buy a new computer desk for me since my current one ways a ton and looks good with Master's current desk. Then Saturday start putting it together and start moving things back in the art room.

Okay NEON sign again blinking "OH MY GAWD" So I have been making plans on where everything will go as I clear it out to make a clear path. And now I am going to go do some packing.

It is going to be weird being in there and Master in here - where I am typing this now. I suspect we will be iming much more now. My moving to the other room will have some positives for both of us. My positives: I will be able to use my computer chair as my art chair now and it is much more comfy. I will have my computer in the art room so I have things as inspiration on my computer I often have to run between the 2 rooms - now I can use that file as a screen saver to look at while creating art. I will be able to hook up the ink jet printer and print collage items off. I will be able to hook up the scanner to scan all the old pictures Master's parents gave me and I will be able to share those with art friends now.

So I am going to go get busy - first need to write a couple of emails and then go pack!

Monday, May 22, 2006

Re-Cap of Week Away

Prologue - Sunday May 14th - I started with a migraine cycle - that seemed to get a little worse each day. But I killed it everyday - so by 3 or 4 pm I was okay.

Tuesday - We try hard not to travel with our kitty cats. Our little girl kitty has a hard time of it usually getting sick. So the Vet suggested basically an antihistamine to make her groggy and sleep. Well this is the first time she has had to have a pill in her lifestyle and it was not a fun experience getting her to swallow it. The boy cat is much better at it then her. So we got that done and made she sure she was reacting okay to it and then started loading the car.

Because of opening the new business both of us and especially Master have a lot going on in our brains - so things are getting missed that normally wouldn't....both of us assuming the other has gotten or taken care of something and later finding out that neither of us did. So it has been a little trying on both of us....especially trying not to get snappy with each other for missing it (which is something neither of us has been great at during this time). Master had something for work to take with us and so I thought he put it with his other work stuff. And he thought I had got it.

So we are on the road....just under an hour away from home when Master calls his parents to tell them we are on the way. His parents mention something about work and that reminds Master of the thing he needed to bring. Master asks me if I got it. I said, "no." I mentioned I thought he had put it in his work bag. So we pulled over at the next exit to look in the bag and of course it wasn't there.

So yes folks we had to turn back. We went back got it and got back on the road. Despite the turn back we did make good time. It actually went fairly fast for adding the extra time on to the trip.

Wednesday - I woke up with yet again another migraine - worse then Tuesday. So I got up with Master to eat breakfast right away so I could take something. Master went to his meeting and I went back to bed for a bit. When I got up it was less but still not gone. We then got to spend the afternoon alone. After Master's meeting we went to some fetish stores and then went to a nearby town that we would meet our friends V & s for dinner later. We went shopping there and got Master quite a bit of clothing that he will need for his new business. It was all on clearance as the store was going out of business. So we got great deals. We met V & s for dinner. We had a very nice time. S gave me a gift....a very pretty tea cup and saucer, tea packets and biscotti. I might take a picture of it later as the tea cup is so pretty! That was so thoughtful of her! So we had a good dinner with really great friends before heading back to Master's parent's house.

Thursday - Wednesday night when I went to bed my migraine was still not gone. It wasn't horrible but it wasn't gone and that worried me a bit. At 3am Master and I both woke up and I mentioned my migraine still being around. By 7am it had increased to a place where moving, light, and noise - HURT - so much. Well Thursday was a special event for a family member and so I was hoping I could clear it up by the time we left but no such luck. And even by the time Master and his parents came back from the event - I wasn't anywhere near feeling better. I take that back it was better but not gone and those of you that get migraines know how they just have a lingering effect that is hard to cope with. So we stayed in for dinner but did go out for Cold Stone's after. That was actually really hard on my migraine as the they had ceiling fans with bright lights creating a flickering light effect and so it hurt a lot but it was hard to turn down Cold Stone's Ice Cream. The Cold Stone worker was wearing a T-shirt that said, "Friends don't let Friends buy Grocery store Ice Cream" -- it reminded me of Kam as I had never had Ben & Jerry's before him and he used to say, "friend don't let friends eat anything other then Ben & Jerry's." So although the ice cream was great - I really was suffering from my headache a lot more then I let them all know because I didn't want to ruin their evening.

Friday - I woke up with a lower level migraine. One that I can function with - no problem. It is normal for me. Sad to say but true. So we did a late brunch as we had a family party to go to in the afternoon and evening and so wanted something to last until eating at the party. After brunch, we hit the Dollar Store. Yay! It was then close to the party time - I had a really nice time at the party with Master's family. I got time to chat with everyone and ate a lot of good food. Everyone though was very concerned about my migraines so I got a lot of "are you okay" or "how is the headache" while at the party. But they were all so understanding and good about it.

Saturday - We had an early breakfast and then did some running around most of the day. I even got a chance to go to another favorite store there to get some paper. Also Master bought me a new skirt and a jacket. The skirt is one of the twirly skirts that you see in every shop right now....tiered lightweight cotton. Mine starts at a light almost tealy blue and goes into a deep midnight blue at the bottom and then has crochet insets between each tier. The jacket is the military type jacket in white. I am not hip on any of the colors in either item but Master doesn't like that I wear so much black. They are both very cute items but I am still not sure I have things to wear with them.

Master had asked his Dad who does the cooking in their household if on Saturday evening I could take over the kitchen. And his Dad agreed. I was thinking of all the times they have come over here and he gets in my way in the kitchen. He always tries to help and usually just gets in my way so that things end up broken or spilled. So, I had some hesitation about cooking in his kitchen - that he would really be able to give it over to me. But I also understood why Master wanted me to cook as we eat out EVERY meal when we stay with them as it their chance to try out new restaurants and not have to cook. But because we were staying with them from Tuesday to Sunday that is an awful lot of eating out which is very expensive. And as I have said many times with Master opening his own business we try to watch our pennies. Dinner time hit and I asked where a couple pans were...and of course he didn't just give me the pans he asked me what I was going to do...and so he started to do things to prepare the meal. And so I from that moment had to try to kick him out -- politely. It wasn't happening and again he was getting in my way. I know Master wanted garlic toast but after making the dish I made I just couldn't take another minute of Master's father. Master even came in and made the salad because I believe he could see I was nearing that breaking overwhelmed point. His Mom kept trying to get his Dad out of the kitchen. But it didn't happen. So then right before the food was ready I said - as everyone was in the kitchen - they could set the table and get butter and such out - and Master's Dad said, "well you don't want any help" in a very snarky tone. I successfully bit my tongue. And his Mom I think gave his Dad a punch in the arm. We ate dinner and they really enjoyed it - even having seconds. So I am glad it went over well after all the struggles to get it made. Master said that I should have given him a task but really it wasn't a dish to give him a task because it was brown sausage, boil pasta and then throw it all together with the other ingredients that were ready to go straight from the package.

Sunday - Another migraine...and one that could easily go to a worst state. Master had to go his sister's and his parents went with him while I stayed back and took a shower and then packed things up to get ready to leave. Our trip home went really fast also - probably more so because we didn't stop at all. Our little girl cat did amazingly well on the way home. Our boy cat though wasn't liking our music so finally some Loreena McKennitt calmed him down and we didn't hear from him again until we pulled on to our street. He is a smart boy.

I am happy to be home but I am going to be so busy this week. I need to get Master's website up - at least a calling card type page until I can get the other real pages done that will have flash on it and all sorts of other new things I have never done. But I am looking forward to learning and seeing his page come together.

Master is going to be late tonight so I threw some pork chops in the crock as it nice that they can just cook and cook and cook until he is home. I am going to go do another load of laundry and maybe work on some art for a few moments.

Positive Monday

I am going to do positive monday first and then I will do another longer journal entry.

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5 Positive Things in my life...
1. We are HOME!
2. Kitty Cat's handled the trip really WELL!
3. We actually had a NICE time spending time with Master's family and some extended family that we had not seen in a long time
4. A GOOD friend of mine from online that I haven't met told me she might be coming to Denver so I will get to meet her and she is someone I have wanted to meet for a LONG time.
5. Master's business is OFFICIAL as of just about 30 minutes ago. I am very proud of Him and happy that He is realizing His DREAMS!

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Leaving on a Jet Plane....

....ummm no...but leaving in a car with our cats....

We leave to go out of town today. We will not be back until Sunday. I am really down today and fighting a migraine so at the moment not looking forward to our trip. I haven't been able to get to a hold of V & s either so I doubt we will get to see them. So that makes me sad also as I miss them bunches. They are just great people and we haven't got to see them in a very long time.

It also is a longer trip then normal and although I think Master's family is great...and we get a long it just gets to be a little too long when it goes beyond a 3 or 4 days. Usually by that 4th day both Master and I READY to come home. So by the 6th day I think we will be scrambling to get home!

I might have time to post over there or I might not. I will be checking email for sure though.

I hope everyone has a great week!

Monday, May 15, 2006


Master bought a ball gag for me at Thunder in the Mountains 2 years ago. It is smaller and fit my mouth really well - as I have a small mouth. We have used it quite a bit and never had a problem. But I have developed a latex allergy. I think I have always had one but it has gotten worse over the years. We haven't used the ball gag in quite a long time. Master put it on me this morning and I had it in maybe 30 seconds -- it started to burn. Well Master had just washed it so I wondered if maybe He washed it with the soap on the grabbed a piece of paper and wrote "Soap" - and he said no. I then wrote "burning like latex does." Latex condoms burn my mouth and my cunt the same way. So He had to take the gag off.

I don't like that it has worked fine before but now as the allergy gets worse now it doesn't work. It has to be the latex in it...that is the only thing I have had that type of reaction. I really liked that gag because it fit with one of leather hoods nice. It was small enough that it actually gagged me instead of me just taking a little bit out of a big ball gag.

What sucks even more for me is that Master has a huge latex fetish and so I just feel like one more thing I can't provide for Him. I feel like I am letting Him down. I know He doesn't like that I am allergic but I also know He wants me healthy and being burned and breaking out from the latex is not a healthy reaction. So I know He understands...I just wish He did have to give up one of His fetishes for me. We have found substitutes for the latex having the PVC hood - gives the same type of look that He enjoys with latex. (like the one that I linked to in a previous post.) But I know there will be things we can't find replacements for and so that sucks.

If anyone knows were we can get a small rubber ball gag without latex in it....please let me know. I googled non-latex ball gag but of course it is just bunches of stores that sell ball gags and non-latex dental dams or gloves not actually non-latex ball gags.

Edit: Master has been looking at silicone ball gags. Many of them don't mention how big they are or are bigger then we need.

Positive Monday

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5 Positive Things in my life...
1. Got some art time in this weekend!
2. Master is home today!
3. Got quite a bit accomplished this weekend
4. Making cookies today to bring to Master's parents tomorrow! Cookies are always good!
5. Talked to Moni and my sister last week and those were both good things for me.
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