Friday, December 31, 2004

2004 in Review

We are home! We just got home this is just a review before the new year....

Happy New Year!

2004 in review

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
Gave a speech with Master (January). Went through something with Master's work that I never knew would/could happen to a person (Feb through April). Went to Santa Fe (June). Made some Norwegian goodies (November & December). Went on a day trip where we hit every weather element....rain, sleet, snow, fog, and the sun shining like a warm spring day (which it was).

2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't really make any and probably won't make any for this year

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Friend's children did but no one close to me, no but lots of engagements and weddings this past year

4. Did anyone close to you die?
yes I did have a few people

5. What countries did you visit?
No countries this year. But some new places in the USA

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
not sure I have an answer for this one.

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
I am worse and worse over the years about having dates etched into my memory. I have some special memories but not specific dates.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
More organized, more calm and quiet inside then I ever have had in my whole life.

9. What was your biggest failure?
not working on my art more

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
yes, but that is a constant in my life and this year I got some things more under control - such as allergies.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
nothing specific comes to mind. We got some new curtains for the living room that I really like. We got a star for our tree this year and a beautiful santa and sleigh.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Master really has worked hard on finding a path to go career wise...and this year I think He gotten closer to it and I am proud of him for putting all he does into his passion. And I know this year will be even harder work for Him in that area but I know He can do it!

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
my own on many occasions, 12 people who made a decision I could not believe, my parents for not accepting my sister being gay

14. Where did most of your money go?
to Master. I did not make much money this year but Master got it all but let me spend it on me and presents for Him and others.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Santa Fe

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
I don't think one song will remind me of 2004...maybe Can't Help Falling in Love because of a family wedding this past summer.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
I. happier or sadder? I am not sadder but I really enjoyed having Christmas just with Master last year alone and this year was a little more busy and so it makes me sad but not unhappy. I love my family and miss them terribly but I think it would be nicer to visit them when it was not a holiday.
II. thinner or fatter? thinner! :)
III. richer or poorer? about the same I think

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
more art, more exploring my spirituality

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?

20. How did you be spend Christmas?
with my family in Minnesota

21. Did you fall in love in 2004?
already in love but just keep falling deeper it seems

22. How many one-night stands?

23. What was your favorite TV program(s)?
The West Wing, Celebrity Poker, Long Way Round

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
not hate

25. What was the best book you read?
The Pilgrimage by Paulo Coelho

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Lisa Gerrard and Karunesh

27. What did you want and get?
more peacefulness, more calmness

28. What did you want but didn't get?
more time and energy for art

29. What was your favorite film of this year?
Fahrenheit 9/11 and Hidalgo

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
It was a really wonderful birthday....Master woke me up with a rose petals all over the bed creating a rose petal blanket. I was 37

31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Bush out of office

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
warmth...seemed like I was cold a lot in 2004

33. What kept you sane?
Master and friends

34. What political issue stirred you the most?
just the whole election this year stirred me for so many reason which I listed.

35. Who did you miss?
Moni, my family

36. Who was the best new person you met?
Venture and shadoe

37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you earned in 2004:
it's okay to be where we are at

38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
I don't think this sums up on my year but for tonight....this night of the year it does. It is not only an anniversary for me but it is a night of past reflections..going over past years. I was explaining to Master earlier that some things seem so faded like I can't remember them anymore. It scares me. It seems like I will remember them different. And that scares me too. But at the same time things that were once in my life...people, things, memories don't matter like they once did...and other things do matter more.

There are places by Beatles

There are places I remember
All my life
Though some have changed
Some forever
Not for better
Some have gone
And some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends
I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life
I've loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one
Compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love
As something new
Though I know I'll never those affection
For people and things
That went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life
I love you more

Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things
That went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life
I love you more

Oohh ...

In my life
I love you more

Saturday, December 18, 2004

Happy Holidays!

Well we leave today (I can't sleep so here right now so up typing), we had some delays due to Master's work and just so much still to do here. Reminder I will be gone for almost 2 weeks so there most likely won't be any or few posts during that time.

A couple of things...

I hope everyone has VERY Happy Holidays!

My Master's post is incredible! I love Him very much and am very blessed to have Him in my life.

And finally....

There is a meme going around on LiveJournal called...10 Small Pleasures

Ten Small Pleasures
1. Christmas Tree decorated and twinkling during the evening while I sip a cup of mulled cider.
2. Chocolate
3. Getting mail (snail mail)
4. Drawing with charcoal
5. Getting unexpected calls from friends I have not talked to in a while
6. Day trips...driving around and just enjoying nature
7. Seeing someone get pleasure from something I did for them (such as our neighbors being so happy to get goodies from us)
8. Christmas music
9. wool socks that keep my feet warm
10. Master snuggling up to me in the morning and waking me with rough caresses...followed by wonderful sex.

Those are small pleasures....

All of them add up to so much more. Life is full of so many wonderful things...

Family and friends...
Hugs and kisses...
Laughter and tears...

And right now I am very thankful and feel very blessed to have so many wonderfully special people and things in my life.

I hope that everyone has a wonderful Christmas filled with peace, joy and love!

Thursday, December 16, 2004

Christmas Goodies

I had a few people ask me about what kind of baking for cookies and goodies this year. So here is the recipes.

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

Little Girl of the 70's

I found this on Jezchelle....Thank you Jezchelle! I am going to have to send it to my sisters they will love it!

OMG how I related to it!

  • You wore a rainbow shirt that was half-sleeves, and the rainbow went up one sleeve, across your chest, and down the other. (yes I did)

  • You made baby chocolate cakes in your Easy Bake Oven and washed them down with snow cones from your Snoopy Snow Cone Machine. (Had the easy bake over and love it)

  • You had that Fisher Price Doctor’s Kit with a stethoscope that actually worked.

  • You owned a bicycle with a banana seat and a basket. (oh yes it did!)

  • You even owned roller skates with metal wheels.

  • You thought Gopher from Love Boat was cute (Admit it!) (yes I admit it)

  • You had nightmares after watching FantasyIsland. (nope no nightmares but loved watching it)

  • You had rubber boots for rainy/snowy days - remember Moon boots (you then advanced to Duck Shoes in the 80’s) (uggh I hated it because everyone got cool colored rubber boots and I got black ones as they were cheaper)

  • You had either a “bowl cut” or “pixie,” not to mention the Dorothy Hamill” because your Mom was sick of braiding your hair. How traumatic when people thought you were a boy. (yes true I did have a pixie and a dorthy hamill cut)

  • Your Holly Hobbie sleeping bag was your most prized possession. (I did not have holly hobbie sleeping back but my room was decorated with holly hobby when I was 4 to6)

  • You wore a poncho, gauchos, and knickers. (yes, yep, and yeppers..I remember my sister and I have burgundy satin knickers with white ruffly shirts that we wore for Christmas one year)

  • You begged Santa for the electronic game, Simon. (I did not have it but my sister did and I think my mom still has it and it works too)

  • You had the Donnie and Marie dolls with those pink and purple shredded outfits. (yes I did)

  • You spent hours out back on your metal swing set with the trapeze.

  • You had homemade ribbon barrettes in every imaginable color. (I didn't but I know my sisters did)

  • You even had a pair of Doctor Scholl’s sandals (the ones with hard sole &the buckle). (yes I had them and when they came out last summer again I wanted a pair again)

  • You wanted to be Laura Ingalls Wilder really bad; you wore that Little House on the Prairie-inspired plaid, ruffle shirt with the high neck in at least one school picture; and you despised Nellie Olson! (yes I did have a couple dresses that were prairie inspired over the years and it probably all does go back to my love of Little House on the Prarie)

  • You wanted your first kiss to be at the roller rink! (something I never got into was roller skating my first kiss was on the playground)

  • Your hairstyle was described as having “wings” and you kept it “pretty” with the comb you kept in your back pocket. (LOL yes I did have purple comb that I actually think I have somewhere still and also remember having a rainbow one as my room when I was a pre-teen was done in rainbows)

  • You know who Strawberry Shortcake is, as well as her friends, Blueberry Muffin and Huckleberry Pie. (I know who they are but did not have any...I think they came out when I was too old to play for dolls can't remember for sure. I know my little sister had them all though)

  • You carried a Muppets lunch box to school. (Nope I didn't I think I had a charlie's angel and also a scooby doo one)

  • You and your girlfriends would fight over which of the Dukes of Hazzard was your boyfriend. (yep did that but also my sisters and I would fight over who would be which angel when we would play charlies angels)

  • Every now and then “It’s a Hard Knock Life” from the movie, “Annie” will pop into your brain and you can’t stop singing it the whole day.

  • YOU had Star Wars action figures, too.

  • It was a big event in your household each year when the “Wizard of Oz” would come on TV. Your mom would break out the popcorn and sleeping bags! (That the sound of music and willy wonka too)

  • You even asked your Magic-8 ball the question: “Who will I marry. Andy Gibb, Scott Baio, or Rick Springfield?” (Oh my yes and lets not forget Leif Garrett)

  • You completely wore out your Grease, Saturday Night Fever, and Fame soundtrack albums. (I did not have any of the soundtracks but I remember Grease was my first drive in movie and then I loved the TV show Fame and would sing that song lots)

  • You tried to do lots of arts and crafts, like yarn and Popsicle-stick God’s eyes of those weird potholders made on a plastic loom.

  • You made Shrinky-Dinks! (Many times in girl scouts we did shrinky dinks)

  • You used to tape record songs off the radio by holding your portable tape player up to the speaker. (LOL yes i did that)

  • You couldn’t wait to get the free animal poster that came when you ordered books from the Weekly Reader book club.

  • You learned everything you needed to know about girl issues from Judy Blume books (Are you there God, It’s me, Margaret.) (also true)

  • You thought Olivia Newton John’s song “Physical” was about aerobics.

  • You wore friendship pins on your tennis shoes, or shoelaces with a heart or rainbow designs. (yes and yes had both them)

  • You wanted to be a Solid Gold dancer. (yes i did)

  • You had a Big Wheel with a brake on the side, and a Sit-n-Spin.

  • You had subscriptions to 16 and Tiger Beat.
  • Monday, December 13, 2004

    Life Update with some Sex & SM :)

    Things are not letting up with the holidays so I have not been updating. Again I have been wanting to write, but I have not had time.

    Friday I spent baking Christmas cookies.

    Saturday morning I baked more cookies and then got the potluck dishes ready for a party we were attending. It was Master's office party. I went just a little ahead and had a nice time getting to know a few of the women there better. Master's boss' wife is very warm and just so down to earth. They have a gorgeous home. We had great food and drinks. It was much better then last year. I enjoyed it.

    Sunday morning Master and I had fun in the bedroom for a while. Lots of spanking, hood, and being fucked hard and long. It was delish! Master spanked me like He was playing the drums at first. He then put a hood on me. It is the one that is made of perforated leather and laces up the back. We then kind of spooned...but not in a soft and cuddly way. It was very sadistic. Master arm was around my neck - His hand reaching down to my tits to squeeze and hurt - His other hand punching and spanking my ass hard. He was hitting my ass. I felt the moment His sadist came out during it. It became rougher and harder. He would pull me back into Him hard at times too. I felt His hard cock behind me and I would moan. It turned me on so much. Soon I was begging Master to fuck me. And soon He was putting into position roughly fucking me from behind (we have figured out a good place to fuck doggie style in our house without ruining Master's knees). He fucked me a long time that way and it felt so good! yummy! We ended up lying there with me in the hood while we both basked in the fun morning.

    Monday I did some cleaning and more baking. Also got a few packages together to send out. Master had to work very late tonight so we have not much time together. And I feel the rest of the week is going to go the same way as we are gearing up to leaving on Friday for family. So also note that I might have a chance to update at Master's parents but at my parents I won't be able too.

    I need to do some more baking tomorrow and wrapping presents.

    Master is turning off computers so that is my cue to wrap things up as we are heading to bed.

    By the way, my ass still hurts!

    Friday, December 10, 2004

    The Rest of the Festive Birthday....

    So as I said I was up very late on Sunday....

    In addition to finishing up one of Master's presents...I also wrapped the rest of His presents and decorated the house so it would look festive for His Birthday instead of just Christmas. I had light blue and royal blue streamers that I put on the door, in the kitchen, dining room and then I made a curtain of streamers across the office door which I knew was the first place He would go...

    I then had 2 pre-made Happy Birthday signs that hung up and 9 homemade signs. Some that said Happy Birthday Daddy.

    I wanted to make Master's Birthday very special. Because it was His birthday and they are to be celebrated in my mind. As I have ranted about several I won't go into that again.

    Anyway, we had breakfast together and then He opened presents. After that I actually went to bed and He worked on project. After that we relaxed around here for a while before catching an early dinner at His favorite steakhouse.

    The celebration ended basically with me putting row of 3 and then 5 candles in the brownies I made him for His birthday...and singing to Him.

    So it was a nice relaxing festive day for Him. I am very thankful He was born because He is a wonderful man and Master. And I am a lucky girl to have the opportunity to celebrate His birthday!

    Monday, December 06, 2004

    A Project for Master's Birthday...

    Well I have been busy....and thus not posting. Even though of course while I have been busy I have wanted to post several times when I did not have time to sit down and write.

    Last night was a very late night for me. I started a project at the beginning of last week, but with being so busy lately I really did not get it done until the wee hours of the night...or morning depending on how you look at it.

    So the beginning of last week, I got this idea for Master's birthday. I wanted to 100 Reasons I love him....vanilla type thing so that I could possible frame for Him. Then I thought it would be cool if He could read one a day - so I thought of doing them on slips of paper and putting them in a jar. But then I decided I wanted something that He could have all year around...365. So from the 100 reasons I loved Him spawned a 365 day type inspirational card set.

    I typed up in a word document formatted for business cards the 100 Reasons I love him (which actually ended up being 102 because I did not count them until I was already at 102 so just kept it at 102), photography quotes, personal growth quotes, stress tips, love quotes, questions to ponder, things to celebrate, explore, share or unwind with and all sorts of other odds and end kind of quotes and questions.

    I then printed them - some on business card sheets, others on colored paper and some on business card size sticky labels. After they were done, I took some and decorated them. And others I just kept white like the business cardstock.

    So now Master has a set of 365 inspirational cards and reasons I love Him. It is all vanilla so He can bring it to work.

    Here are some pictures....

    The little container they are sitting in I have had for a few years never knowing what I was going to do with it, but knew it would be good for something someday. I got it at an after Christmas sale one year. It contained coasters. I used the coasters as candle holders. I then packaged them up with candles and gave as gifts one year to some friends.

    I am sure if someone was wanting to do this...they could make or get a paper mache box at a craft store that would fit the cards. And then just paint or decorate the box.

    I used rubbers stamps, stickers, ribbon, little drawings with colored pencils, construction paper, colored copier paper, scalloped scissors and those types of things on the cards.

    I used different fonts and titles at the top like Unwind, Photography quote. As I said I had all sorts of different types of categories. I got a lot of the quotes from quotes I have saved over the years. But another great source that I found was Power Quotes. They had quotes and then also questions to ponder that go along with the quote. It was incredible place.

    A close up of some of the cards. The one that says, "Share: Eat dinner by candlelight"...well the card under it is the how back looks. A collage of paper. The share card was printed off on a label. So I would lay down scrapes of paper that I had from the decorating the other cards and then just lay the sticker down on top of it and turn it over and then fill in the spaces by gluing more pieces.

    I will do another post about Master's birthday and other things going on soon...I hope. I do need to do Christmas cards tomorrow. And maybe bake some cookies.

    Also I am so behind on emails personal and email lists. I am actually going to unsubscribe from a few lists so I don't feel guilty about not posting to them.

    I really wanted to do the Holidailies but I will be gone 2 weeks the end of December so it would not make sense for me to because of that and also just so busy right now.

    More to come later.


    Happy Birthday Master!

    I love you and hope your Birthday is wonderful

    Please may I ask that everyone go over to His blog and wish Him a Happy Birthday!

    Friday, December 03, 2004

    New Template

    Just a quickie....a longer entry later today...or tomorrow.

    I did a Christmas template! It is a little off in Mozilla/Firefox, but I am sick of messing with it! So it will have to is only up for a month.

    Master's birthday is Monday so my week has been preparing for that and the holidays.

    Thankful for the mail I got from 2 friends on LiveJournal and from my cousin and Grandmother.

    Tuesday, November 30, 2004

    Life Update

    Yesterday Master's parents headed home and although His parents are very was time for them to go. We all have a nice time even with a few moments of tensions (watching Fahrenheit 9/11 and Master's Dad trying to fix the dishwasher). But over all it was a good time. Drank, ate, played games, watched movies and just hung out together.

    While Master's parents were here, Master and I had a few issues come up that we could not get into with the parents here so those got put off until today. It was an emotionally intense conversation and I am glad we talked and know we will be talking more. Tonight we ran an errand, went to dinner and then drove around to see some lights that were already up. We listened to XM's Christmas music stations while we drove around. It was nice.

    Tomorrow Master is working from home. And I am going to get the tree and decorations out so we can put the tree up. I love Christmas and I love decorating for it. So I am really excited. I have been listening to Christmas music a lot already despite having most of my music packed away. I had some on my computer though and then there is a station on the satellite too. I started a list of holiday things I need to get done.

    This weekend there is a parade. I am hoping we get out to go that, but also hoping it was warmer then it was tonight (left the house it was 14 and came home it was 5). I need to finish shopping for Master's birthday also since I did not have time before Thanksgiving. I hope to get that done Thursday and/or Friday.

    It seems like this holiday season is going to go fast. I think that is because we will be heading to Master's parents early and then flying from their to my parents in Minnesota. We are hoping to get together with our good friends in Denver when we head over too.

    Going to end this entry with a few links...

    This is a link to a clip of Richard Simmons on Who's Line is it Anyway? It is very funny! I am really surprised Richard Simmon's doing and saying the things he is.....maybe I just have been out of touch with how out he is? And actually surprised the networks aired it too.

    Blogging on a TV Show...The West Wing.

    Twisted Chick....a political blog that I really enjoy.

    And today I am thankful for the wonderful kiss Master gave me this afternoon. Thankful for the warm scarf girlie knitted me for Christmas last year. Thankful for flannel pj's and red wool socks (sounds really sexy huh?) because I am so cold.

    Sunday, November 28, 2004

    Living in 2004

    You know you're living in 2004 when...

    1. You accidentally enter your password on the microwave.

    2. You haven't played solitaire with real cards in years.

    3. You have a list of 15 phone numbers to reach your family of 3.

    4. You e-mail the person who works at the desk next to you.

    5. Your reason for not staying in touch with friends and family is that they don't have e-mail addresses.

    6. You go home after a long day at work you still answer the phone in a business manner.

    7. You make phone calls from home, you accidentally dial "9" to get an outside line.

    8. You've sat at the same desk for four years and worked for three different companies.

    10. You learn about your redundancy on the 11 o'clock news.

    11. Your boss doesn't have the ability to do your job.

    12. You pull up in your own driveway and use your cell phone to see if anyone is home.

    13. Every commercial on television has a website at the bottom of the screen.

    14. Leaving the house without your cell phone, which you didn't have the first 20 or 30 (or 60) years of your life, is now a cause for panic and you turn around to go and get it.

    15. You get up in the morning and go online before getting your coffee.

    16. You start tilting your head sideways to smile. :)

    17. You're reading this and nodding and laughing.

    18. Even worse, you know exactly to whom you are going to forward this message.

    19. You are too busy to notice there was no #9 on this list.

    20. You actually scrolled back up to check that there wasn't a #9 on this list.

    AND NOW YOU ARE LAUGHING at yourself.

    Friday, November 26, 2004

    Life Update

    Well the house is quiet at the moment. Sipping some wassail.

    Master's parent's said that today was the first time they have seen me out of the kitchen since they arrived on Wednesday.

    I feel like I have been cooking and baking all week. I tried to spread it out so I would not be so stuck in the kitchen. Last Sunday I started with a Norwegian cookie/pastry. And then Monday Pumpkin bars. Then Tuesday, I didn't have time for any baking. Wednesday was my real baking day pie, bars, rolls and then had stew in teh crockpot in the morning for dinner that evening. I ended the evening with making up potstickers and crab ragoon to have as appetizers before dinner on Thursday. And the cooking and baking did not end there...

    Thursday's Menu...

    Breakfast....cinnamon rolls and mimosas

    Appetizers...Crab Ragoon, Potstickers that went over very well....Master's parents had not had either and really liked both of them a lot. I also had a crockpot of wassail going all day. Another thing they had not had and enjoyed a lot.

    Then for 3:30pm dinner...
    Relish tray - 2 cheeses, Green and Black Olives, Veggies and Onion Dip
    Then the Turkey, stuffing, mashed potatoes, gravy, green bean casserole, cranberries, rolls and wine.

    For Dessert...Pumpkin Pie and Pecan Pie Bars

    That was more then enough food. It seemed we ate all day long.

    Today I ended up being totally exhausted. I just could not wake up this morning. So, Master allowed me to take a nap. I ended up sleeping for several hours. I guess I needed it. Master is doing a project for His parents. And so they have been helping Him with it since they arrived on Wednesday.

    There was a huge rockslide here that we found out about yesterday...that happened shortly after they got here. So we thankful they got across the mountain passes before that happened.

    Master got up early and went to get Buffy the Vampire Slayer Season 7 for me at Target. He then also went to Home Depot. He had me sleep in but the kitty cats woke me up. Tomorrow we are going to do some running around with Master's parents.

    Well I feel like I am fading....just doing a life update. More this weekend sometime I am sure.

    Wednesday, November 24, 2004

    Tired....Life Update

    Just a it is late...

    I have been busy preparing for Thanksgiving this week so not even online more than 20 minutes this week.

    Monday was cleaning, then after work Master and I went to get haircuts (3 more inches off for me so now just at the shoulders), go get beer and also got some more wine (because we bought a couple bottles this past weekend at our favorite local winery). I pointed out a beer made in the town Master's went to school so He ended up getting that too. It was a lager. The wine is a mixture of my 2 favorites so it will be interesting to see how that tastes.

    During our shopping trip for groceries Master also allowed me to get a frame for the Amy Brown print He gave me for my birthday and a new kitchen rug. The frame matches with the print so good. The print is called Firedance and has deep reds, oranges, sienna, burnt orange, and mustard yellow. There is border around the dancing fairy of mustard yellow mixed with orange. The frame almost looks like tiger eye. It is really swirling shades of brown from golden to deep chocolate brown. So they look very good together. The rug has a burgundy border and then really pretty fruit on it....all in the jewel tones.

    Tuesday was more cleaning, laundry and baking. More stuff to charity. And Moni called me so I got a chance to talk to her. I had been thinking about her for about a week and meant to ask permission to call her. I miss her!

    Today I baked some more and prepared stew for dinner tonight. We hung up some framed pictures of Master's photographs...they look fabulous! And then in the mid-afternoon Master's parents arrived. We had a nice evening. They helped me prepare appetizers for tomorrow. And then we had dinner,drank and played games. It was a nice evening.

    They just left about 30 minutes ago. We are having cinnamon rolls and mimosas for breakfast. A relish tray, crab ragoon and potstickers during the day while we wait for Turkey dinner.

    I am extremely tired so calling it a night.

    I hope everyone has a very nice Thanksgiving! I hope you are able to spend it your loved ones.

    Saturday, November 20, 2004


    You are 89% Bisexual

    How bisexual are you?

    To go with the Bisexual quiz...

    There was a question on a group the other day about being bi or not...

    Bisexuality means sexual or romantic attraction directed towards some members of more than one sex.

    I think someone can be bisexual and never "act" on it. I also believe someone can be with both sexes and not be bisexual.

    I am bisexual. I am odd at times because when I was little I did not get that it wasn't accepted to be with the opposite sex or attracted to the opposite sex. I just thought it was not talked about like sex wasn't talked about. So I remember clearly being attracted to both men and women. But I did not say anything. As I got older approaching my teens, I still don't think I knew it was not accepted, but I tended to go for males. It was at a slumber party that I first explored with another female and that was during truth or dare. I had not told anyone about my desires up to that point. By the time I entered high school I realized it was not accepted to be attracted to both males and females.

    My attraction to men has always been one of a power dynamic mixed with SM. I just did not know there was a name for what I was seeking with a man. I would always want to be with men that took charge....didn't always find them but I can look back and see that is what I was seeking.

    But with women most of the time when it is vanilla type of attraction but of course on the rare occasion I do like to be topped by a female (DM and Jackie coming to mind).

    I have been with some incredible women. It just didn't work for various reasons...I was owned (this was before Master). And then when I wasn't she was owned. Another one well was not truly bisexual. A couple were rebounds. Then others were just sex (which is fun, but sometimes a girl wants more).

    Morgan though is the only one I have been with who it has been ideal combination of everything. She was tender. She knew when to take control. She was completely open and honest with me. She gave me so much of herself. It was so good...Oh how I love her...still. Darn period...crying. I miss her.

    Well that did not end up where I thought it was going....just thought I would write about being bi. But I is appropriate that it ended up with her...

    Have you ever read lyrics and thought that the music must sound one way...and then you hear it and it is totally different but perfectly? That is how it was with us...I think people probably did not understand how it worked. But then saw us together and went wow.

    The only problem was that by that time I grew up and the views of society were influencing me. And so I pushed because I could not accept that I was in a relationship with a woman.

    Hindsight...I wish of I could do it differently. I sometimes fantasies about where life might have taken us. I wonder if that lyrics and music would have been made into a symphony. Because when I think about it...without those fears of the past it feels like it would have been incredible.

    Thursday, November 18, 2004

    life update

    A Quiz...
    Dog Toy or Martial Aid

    Missed 1 the first round and 2 the second

    Horoscope for Thursday....
    LIBRA (Sep 23?Oct 22): There is hard work in doing what you do and living your life in your own special way, even if it looks easy to others. Now, more than other times, your discipline and your work ethic can set the stage for the really big payoff. Don't think about cashing in your chips yet. Just keep that production line moving.

    Bravo has become my favorite station. The Long Way Round with Ewan McGregor and his friend quite interesting. It is beautiful to see all the countries they are seeing...the landscape, people and hospitality. They have had some hard times but obviously some tremendously memorable times too. And they are also very amusing. Some of the things that happen to them...and the things they say are extremely humorous.

    I enjoy watching The West Wing, Long Way Round, Inside the Actors Studio, Queer Eye, and Celebrity Poker - all of which are on Bravo!

    One of Master's co-workers said I am nesting. Yep it is that time of year. I go through it a few times a year and with the holidays approaching it is one of those times.

    I have been reorganizing the house. I am all ready for Christmas to come...Christmas decorations already to be pulled out of the closet. I have been in a decorating mode. Rearranging furniture, redoing curtains and such.

    Master's living room had Scarlet O'hara curtains....several patterns (one being a big floral), lots of swoops, draping over draping, fringe. I didn't like them. So it was something that I requested be replaced and Master said yes. We found some we liked and Master bought one pair to test out. Master and I both really like them. The color is called Green Tea. They are a really pretty shade of green. Not pastel but also not too dark to make the room look closed in. They blend really well the hunter green carpet too. Yesterday Master surprised me with the rest of the sets we will need to finish with the draperies in the living room.

    I found an old curtain topper that the pattern is not bad but it has ruffles (I am not big on ruffles). I am going to cut off the ruffles and maybe add some big wooden buttons I have in my craft stuff to it and use it in the spare room.

    I am still reorganizing. Master's dining room is lined with cupboards. And so with the spare room in order now, I moved some art supplies and books I had in those cupboards to the spare room. I had unpacked a few crystal pieces and some more teapots (I collect them and have way to many - even got rid of some before I moved) while reorganizing the spare room so those got put in the cupboards. The cupboards have glass fronts so it puts them on display.

    This weekend I want to get things finished up and also bake.

    Well I need to send out pictures and a few other things online before we get to bed.

    "We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience." -Pierre Teilhard de Chardin

    Daily Om - 10 Ways to Reduce Stress

    10 Ways To Reduce Stress
    Living A Stress Free Life

    1. Often we are so accustomed to stress that we are unaware of the precise triggers. Keep a diary in which to record situations that cause frustration or anxiety. Note what occurred, how you felt, and how you reacted, and then contemplate ways to avoid similar situations.

    2. Endlessly pondering what might have been is not only stressful but futile as well. Acknowledge and accept that your life is what it is only for the present and be willing to commit to a step by step plan of active change for the future.

    3. Reach out. Too many people suffer through stress in solitude though they are surrounded by a network of loving support. Friends and family have the power to diffuse stress with a simple kind word, embrace, or receptive ear.

    4. Your own habits may be triggering stress. Two cups of coffee each day can activate the flow of adrenaline, causing tension and anxiety. Sleep deprivation and long sedentary periods can lead to heightened sensitivity to frustration. Exercise and a healthy diet are natural stress reducers.

    5. Taking care of or working for others can often feel as much a stressful burden as a joyful challenge. Making time to pursue solitary activities and nurturing your private goals will help you be more at ease both at home and at work.

    6. Take in the sunlight. Increasing your exposure to natural light, even in the chill of winter, encourages your body to release uplifting endorphins. A few minutes outdoors will leave you feeling more centered and better prepared to deal with unpleasant situations.

    7. A positive, realistic, and non-judgmental attitude can ward off stress. When you expect too much from yourself or others, it becomes easy to feel frustrated or disappointed. Recognize and accept limitations and set achievable goals for yourself and others.

    8. Just as stress negatively effects the mind, it negatively effects the body as well. When anxiety becomes palpable, deep progressive relaxation, in which muscle groups are tensed and relaxed one at a time, can calm breathing, reduce physical tension, and ease palpitations.

    9. Give in. Compromise and flexibility can keep small disagreements from becoming large, stressful situations. When conflict arises, remain calm and rational, and attempt to meet others halfway.

    10. Fun has the unique ability to take the edge off of stressful days. When the world seems overwhelming, take a play break and work at a puzzle, toss a ball, doodle, or tell a joke. Laughter not only reduces negative emotions, but also clears the mind

    Wednesday, November 17, 2004


    I have been really tired this week....

    And I don't know if that is what is going on or what. And even if that is is not an excuse. In the (almost) 2 years I have been Master's, I have caught on to protocols quickly. At the beginning - when I was just learning them of course I would forget at times or not do things right, but not since.


    Today two times I ate without getting His permission.

    It was totally odd and disturbing.

    I have a lot on my plate and my mind is going going going but usually even during stress I can maintain my focus on being Master's and following His protocols. So, I don't get why it happened now....but I know I will meditate tomorrow to help let out some of this stress that is happening and also gain more focus on being Master's slave. As I don't want it to happen again.

    2 Questions

    1) Anyone having problems with HaloScan not showing comments? Such as on my yahoo group vent there are 2 comments, but it shows 0 at the end of the entry. If you have had this problem do you know how to fix it?

    Edit: a 3rd comment came in and now they show up. And that is how it seems to go several will comment. It shows 0 and then all of sudden someone will comment and all of them show.

    2) When people sign up for a yahoo group via an email address and don't have a profile, how do they set up a profile associated with the email address? Does anyone know how to do that or know where I could find the info on how to do that?

    Tuesday, November 16, 2004

    Venting....My Yahoogroup

    I run an adult porn picture yahoo group. I have had it for 5 years. As the anniversary for the 5th year came up I was looking at how many people were set on no mail. Well on yahoo groups if you are on no mail, it means you don't get the daily pictures as they don't archive them like egroups and onelist (the two groups that came before yahoo groups).

    I do a theme a week on the group. At the end of the week I put all the pictures into zip files and upload to the file section so people who don't have the email box space or time to be on individual can have a chance to look at them.

    Okay here is where the vent comes into place...

    My welcome message - that a person gets when they sign up - says that if you are set to anything other then individual emails you need to contact me or you will be unsubscribed.

    Well, I have been not been enforcing last week I sent out 3 notices to everyone on the list saying that if I did not hear from the people set who were not set on individual emails that they would be unsubscribed. I just really was curious how many were actually enjoying the list. As silly as it may sound it does take me some time to get the pictures ready and even just take time to send them each day so if people were not really even enjoying them....then I did not want to continue on with it.

    So, I had some responses (majority from people who were safe as they were on individual). So early Saturday morning, as per the notices, I unsubscribed everyone who had not written me.

    You will not believe how many people I have had writing me this week saying, "I got unsubscribed somehow." I want to say okay you read the unsubscribe notice, but you don't read the other 3 notices I sent out with, "IMPORTANT please read ASAP!"

    Master and I were talking how in this day and age of spam that we think that people just see IMPORTANT and go yeah right and click delete. So that is what may have happened.

    Okay...I have a plan the next time I need to send out a notice. Someone on the list, responded on the list saying they wanted to stay on the list, but were wondering if I would be sending out any bestiality pictures. Well, my group has been around for a while and with yahoo groups being really finicky and flaky on when they delete a group I have opted not to send any out. But offered that if anyone wanted a set of bestaility pictures to write me and I would get a zip file to them.

    So, I had people read that (that had the same subject line IMPORTANT please read ASAP!) and tell me they wanted the zip and were set to no mail yet did not tell me if they wanted to continue with the group but said they wanted the zip. So they did not even read the original message, but saw the word bestaility in the text so read that message.

    So because of that...I have decided the next important notice that goes out....will have the subject line of bestiality and then my important message just to get people's attention!

    Now anyone that is from the yahoo group that is reading this....please know I appreciate everyone on the list. I am glad people enjoy the pictures...and that is really what this going through the membership list was all about...I just wanted to make sure people wanted to be there.

    I do have a really good group of people that has been around on the list for the 5 years or close to that. They are always there ready to help out and offer suggestions and enjoy the pictures.

    Also one last thing as I know I will get emails if I don't include it...

    Link to the yahoo group.

    Monday, November 15, 2004

    Political: Do Something!

    Well it has almost been 2 weeks since the election. It seems there are already lots of changes happening. I have started several blogs about it but I never get it out just the right way that I want to...

    I get angry still especially when I read any news dealing with the Bush administration. I get sad still thinking about all the people who will be affected by this administration.

    Mostly though started to think about the things I can do. Do to help those that will be in need. So if you are feeling powerless against what

    Local homeless shelters, human rights groups such as and so many other organizations out there that will need our help.

    Here is a blog entry that says many things I have been thinking about too...Live Journal Twisted Chick

    Saturday, November 13, 2004


    Newbies and Online Annoyances

    This is vent...beware these views are going to come out sounding very judgmental and well they are...

    Sometimes my patience level for "newbies" and online stuff is very short...I think I am pmsing. And I know once upon a time I was new. So it is not fair of me...I know that. I know also we all do things differently so it could just be their way. But I still get annoyed.

    By the way most of this comes people on forums or elists.

    This week I was annoyed by:
    * a submissive that I thought was serving real life that I found out was only serving online. She was offering advice to someone in real life when she has never served in real life. And when she offered the advice I read it and went I wonder if she serves online only. And in some posts afterwards I found out that was true. If online is your thing...more power to you. But serving real life is so different then online.
    * a submissive was saying she was finally surrendering to her dominant. And everyone is congratulating her and then it comes out that it is online and they have known each other a whole 2 days online.
    * a submissive who was told to buy herself a collar. Her and her dominant are online. So she is going out and buying herself a collar. I don't get it. I am sorry. I don't. I don't get being online and having a real collar. And I guess part of me thinks well he should buy it and send it to her if it is that important to him.
    * submissive having to go out and buy an expensive flogger to beat herself with because of her online dominant ordered her too. why bother beating yourself? why bother buying something that the person said she could not afford but he still told her to get it? does he want her to get behind in her bills?
    * another was suppose to pick a name out for herself because she was told "all submissive get renamed when owned." ummm no they don't. danae is the nick that Master met me with and I still have and will I am sure for years and years. And then again why is she picking it out and not him.
    * submissive who think having vanilla times is meaning that they are not doing D/s. I am not sure why but that has really gotten on my nerves lately. Or those who think that just because they are not playing means they are not doing D/s. In my world that means we are not playing period. The play does not affect our dynamic.

    Many things I read this week just screamed with red flags. Again it goes to the submissive fever thing I wrote about recently, it seemed many of the submissives that annoyed me this week rushed in and didn't even know the person they are involved with on the other end of that computer. And I guess if online is all your seeking, maybe you don't need to get to know each other. Maybe it is viewed that online is harmless fun but I think it can lead to unhealthy obsessions. And even if doing strictly online, I don't know why you would not get to know the person. Even in when I make friends online, I like knowing I have other things in common with them then just the lifestyle.

    I know I have several interests in common with online friends. And same goes with real life. Many of my friends Ohio were in the lifestyle and practice it much differently then I did but that did mean I could not be friends with them. It meant that we usually got along because of other interests.

    End of rant. I just needed to vent my frustration. I am sure it is pms because normally I just skip right over these kind of things.


    Here is a little quiz...Fake or Real Tits...

    I scored 19 out of 20.

    Life Update

    I have been busy reorganizing all week. And still have more to do next week. Since moving here there were some boxes I just could not get to see what was in them. Well in finally being able to unpack the rest of my things this week. I have found lots of things missing. I am missing a box of memorabilia. It had pictures I drew when I was little, report cards, my diplomas, pressed roses from Jim when we were dating and from prom, and things like that. Another box containing china 2 sets (one set of Fostoria and another that had wheat pattern on it with gold trim). Plus a set of wine glasses that my parents got as a wedding present. I also am missing a box of Christmas stuff - a Christmas cookie jar, nutcrackers, and Christmas tea pot. So that was kind of making me depressed the last few days. When I moved here a little part of me thought when I was going through things that I was missing boxes, but I just kept telling myself they must be here somewhere. But now I know for certain they aren't here.

    I will now have a room that has all my art and craft supplies readily accessible. Plus I have my old dining room table in the spare room too so I can even draw and do projects right there so that will be very nice! Sewing machine is set up now too! And I have my first project waiting to be done taking an old pair of curtains and making them into a new pair for the office.

    Well Master just said He is tired so that is my cue to sign off.

    Thursday, November 11, 2004

    Veteran's Day

    I am sorry I was not able to get to this sooner today but I did want to write about how thankful I am to all those who have and do serve our country in the military. I was thinking of many people Grandfather who fought in the Korean war, Uncles and Cousins who fought in Vietnam. And then friends and family who have fought and are fighting in the wars of my time. Thank you for unselfishly serving the United States.

    Essays celebrating America's Freedoms...many of which we would not have without those that serve in the military.

    Wednesday, November 10, 2004

    Subtle? No?

    I always have thought our M/s is very subtle around vanilla people. An know when you look at someone and something is, glasses, more make up, just something is different but you can't quite figure out what is different. Well that is how it has been in my mind, with vanilla people around us. That they might think something is different but can't quite figure it out.

    But I am now beginning to wonder if I am off on that. I came to that conclusion because of a conversation I had with Master's Dad yesterday.

    But first I want to kind of think back on other a few times I know that it was not subtle.

    I helped Master out at work. I was alone with one of his male co-workers. He was talking about the TV shows he watched. He mentioned football and the things he was talking about I knew (but I don't watch football). I have just picked up on it listening to it while Master watches it. Anyway, his co-worker was like, "wow you watch football with him." And I told him I just think I picked up on it while he watched. He said, "Well that is way more then my girlfriend does." During the conversation I had with him on various subjects....he said I wish my girlfriend did that probably about 6 to 8 times. All the things he was commenting on were vanilla things like watching TV with him, making dinner, and packing his stuff for their work trip. But yet his co-worker kept commenting on them.

    Last spring, I went to the mall with Master's Mom and Dad while we were visiting them and He was working. His Mom and I went into a store and I told her how much I liked this one top. And she told me I should get it. I said, "No I need to ask Michael first because I don't think He will like it." It just came out of my mouth. And she said, "well if you like it that is all that matters." I changed the subject and moved us on to the next store quickly.

    Our everyday protocols to me I feel people don't really notice. Such as I ask Master to go to the bathroom wherever we are is just an eye contact thing now. But if I can't get his eye contact I just lean over and whisper. I also don't eat until Master gives me permission and that is just a nod of the head when we are with vanilla people.

    But maybe I am wrong that people don't notice those things. Maybe they do spot them and know each thing that is different....

    Again the reason I question this is a conversation I had with Master's Dad yesterday.

    We were talking on the phone. I asked them if they would pick something up for me there. Since they are coming over for Thanksgiving, it would be just in time to give as a present for Master for His birthday. I knew where we saw it there and such.

    While discussing all the details, Master's Dad says to me, "Well I am sure it is hard for you to find over there since he does not let you out of his sight."

    The comment kind of surprised me as I didn't realize that maybe his parents notice a lot more.

    So maybe we are not being that subtle. Maybe they do see we are different. Or maybe they don't think we are different...that we are just being us. I hope that is the case.

    Monday, November 08, 2004

    Fever & Life Update

    Sub Fever....

    I am not thrilled with the name because to me it happens to vanilla people too and also dominants. And is not exactly what I am wanting to write about, but it is closest name I have for what I want to describe.

    Submissive Fever is when there is a sense of urgency to have it all It is usually used in conjunction with people new to the lifestyle. Because they are reading and learning about all these wonderful things that make them all wet and gooey so they want to experience them. And so wanting to experience them NOW and often let all reason float out the window.

    But I want to take that further. As I think people who have been in the lifestyle for a while can experience something similar. I think it happens after break ups, I think it happens during that time period where we are so sick of waiting for the one, and I think it happens when someone is needing or desiring something specific. I think often someone gets submissive fever because they are trying to fill an emptiness. Often they are craving and wanting (one or more of these things) physical, mental and emotional attention, intimacy, pleasure, affection, S&M, D/s and all the other things that come with seeing someone. And during these times we often compromise our values, beliefs, and internal awareness just to experience the relationship.

    I have been there a few times unfortunately. There is one relationship I was in that it was the worse. I ignored it for so long that haunted me for a few years. When I was in the relationship with Todd, I just wanted to be in the relationship with the "One" that I ignored many blatant signs that showed me he was not the one and far from it. I ignored that he was married. I ignored that he lied to me on countless things (because when a person lies once they will lie again I am sorry but that is how I feel - looking at myself for that example when I have lied once it brings on strings of lying especially to myself). I ignored that there was something between him and my best friend (of the time). I ignored that although I was getting some attention, affection, D/s, and so on I was not getting all those things the way I deserved and really desired by someone who would really care for me the way I deserved.

    The reason I wanted to write about this is because I have a few friends going through this.....they - to me - are caught up in wanting to experience a relationship that they are not seeing that they deserve so much better.

    It is hard to see it. It is hard to escape it. But it is worth it in the long run.

    Life Update....

    Today I baked and then also made a roast for dinner. We had not had one in a long time. I cook mine in a cooking bag in the oven with potatoes, carrots, onions and then herbs. It turned out delicious!

    I have been extremely horny lately (not sure that is the word but will get into that in bit). I feel like I could (if I had permission) be masturbating about 10 times a day. I am kind of an odd duck...but right now it is just about feeling the sensation and so I don't even really think of fantasies. I just love the feel of the vibrator on my cunt.

    Another thing I am really odd about is...that although I want to masturbate I am not turned that is why I am not sure horny is the right word. It is like I want to experience the sensation but mentally I am not turned on. So even if Master were to use me right now, it would take me a while mentally to get there. But at the same time I am craving to be teased to the point of being there mentally. I am not meaning physically teased either. I am meaning that teasing that comes with setting up sweet anticipation.

    I know it is being all about me in this moment. I suppose that is because it has been a while and so now I am to that point of not feeling very desired and so the teasing and setting it up so we have that built up anticipation will make me feel desired.

    I have lots of issues on not feeling desired. So, I am going to stop babbling on that.

    Tomorrow I need to start clearing out the spare room so we can put up a shelving unit. But it is such a small room I need to make room for it by moving out lots of stuff. And then put the stuff I move out, back in on the shelves. At least that is the plan. I plan on going through that room reorganizing it top to bottom. Last week I started on kind of a fall cleaning where I tore the kitchen apart and cleaned everything out. And then put it all back.

    Next week I am going to do some baking to freeze for Thanksgiving and maybe also send a tray to Master's work.

    Master's immediate boss (who I really like) asked me to join her, another co-worker and the wife of their big boss to decorate for their work Christmas party. I was kind of surprised as there are other women in the office that they could ask or other wives. And they asked me. It makes me a little nervous, but Master is allowing me to go. They said we are going to drink and have fun while decorating - so by the time the party starts they want to be drunk. So that could get interesting. I am sure I will not drink that much as I am a person who becomes very open when drinking. Meaning I tell people things I should not tell them...especially Master's boss and big boss' wife....such as I am a slave. So I will need to watch how much I drink. Just a couple glasses of wine and then switch to water.

    Well it should be interesting.

    One last thing before I sign off tonight....a Piggy Picture (it is an adult picture)!

    Saturday, November 06, 2004

    "Iconography" by Margaret Atwood

    He wants her arranged just so. He wants her, arranged. He arranges to want her.

    This is the arrangement they have made. With strings attached, or ropes, stockings, leather straps. What else is arranged? Furniture, flowers. For contemplation and a graceful disposition of parts to compose a unified and aesthetic whole.

    Once she wasn't supposed to like it. To have her in a position she didn't like, that was power. Even if she liked it she had to pretend she didn't. Then she was supposed to like it. To make her do something she didn't like and then make her like it, that was greater power. The greatest power of all is when she doesn't really like it but she's supposed to like it, so she has to pretend.

    Whether he's making her like it or making her dislike it or making her pretend to like it is important, but it's not the most important thing. The most important thing is making her. Over, from nothing, new. From scratch, the way he wants.

    It can never be known whether she likes it or not. By this time she doesn't know herself. All you see is the skin, that smile of hers, flat but indelible, like a tattoo. Hard to tell, and she never will, she can't. They don't get into it unless they like it, he says. He has the last word. He has the word.

    Watch yourself. That's what mirrors are for, this story is a mirror story which rhymes with horror story, almost but not quite. We fall back into these rhythms as if into safe hands.

    Friday, November 05, 2004

    Book It!

    This is going around on Live Journal...

    1. Grab the nearest book.
    2. Open the book to page 23.
    3. Find the fifth sentence.
    4. Post the text of the sentence in your journal...along with these instructions.

    Here's my fifth sentence on page 23:

    So I am surrounded by books in the office but I do have three books lying in front of me.

    The first is The Valkyries by Paulo Coelho

    "Gene laughed."

    Exciting huh? It is a really good book though. It is one of my favorites.

    Second...The Forgetting Room by Nick Bantock

    And there is a picture on page 23.

    Also another really good book. The reason these three books are lying in front of me as I have been meaning to write up "reviews" of sorts about them for our website as they are three of my favorites.

    And then the third book is Buddhism Plain and Simple by Steve Hagen

    "In seeing you will realize that you must live consciously, not for your sake or someone else's sake or for the sake of some goal or belief or idea, but for the sake of being fully engaged in the moment."

    So finally a good sentence.

    Life Update & Titles/Honorifics

    Life Update:

    Well Master and I have been drowning ourselves in comfort food. I even broke down today and made tollhouse cookies (chocolate chip for those who are not from the USA). I wrote my sister this morning to remind her I love her very much. Let's see....oh on Halloween I did play with paper dolls. It was fun! I even had pigtails. Master has been busy with work so we have not had a lot of SM or sex lately. But I have been especially horny for some reason. I have asked to masturbate a lot more lately.

    Titles or Honorifics:

    On a forum Master and I belong to there was a thread started last year on titles that was picked up again this year. It is thread that is brought up repeatedly on various email lists and forums I am on. But I have to say actually there were a few arguments on this one that I never saw before. The big argument is when a submissive will not use a title until she is sure the dominant has earned respect - several thought that was not "right."

    The thread made me to really examine WHY and WHEN I use titles (and I have to say it I examined it long after I posted to the thread). And oddly enough I don't think I ever did think about why and when I use titles before.

    On the thread it came down to courtesy, hierarchy (being subordinate to a dominant), and basically to be protocol to help remind the slave their place.


    It was brought up that police officers or judges would get a courtesy Sir or Ma`am because they are authority figures. But to me that comes down to how you were raised. I was raised to call them by their titles. A judge would be Judge Last-name. A police officer would be Officer Last-name. My friends parents as they were my elders and authority figures were Mr. and Mrs. Last-name. So if submissive are using courtesy as they would vanilla authority figures then I would be calling them Mr. or Ms. Last name. But in the lifestyle we really don't get to know a lot of peoples last name unless they are really close. And I don't think they would be happy if at a bdsm event I said their last name around a bunch of people we did not know. So generally I use first names and am polite and courtesy even to those that I don't like or respect - all the while only using their name. It it just a different form of courtesy then using titles.


    Next argument was that if you are subordinate it did not matter if you respected the person but go by your station. Meaning there is a hierarchy and dominants are above submissive so submissive should be courtesy and use a title with a dominant.

    And here is where I have the problem....I don't feel subordinate to all dominants.

    I am going to back up a little bit first...

    I know my initial views on this subject came about because of my past. There is a dominant in the Ohio community that insisted that submissives called him Master or at least Sir. He is one of those that signs his emails, introduces himself, posts ads as Master First Name. At first when I met this person I did not have a problem calling him by a title because I felt he had "it." You know that "it" - dominance that just pours off of them and wraps around you making you giddy and weak in the knees. But over time I understood it was a facade. And that it was more of a role then who he was as a person. After getting to know him, I would say that he insisted on titles because it made him feel good and made him feel like he had power. So basically an ego trip. He demanded it for his ego. And thus submissive calling him that propped up the facade even more by calling him by a title.

    After meeting this dominant, I found more of the like...dominants that wanted and or demanded a title. And all of them that I met who demanded or wanted, all came to be those that did it for ego trips to me. So, in the past, when the subject of titles came up and people would use the earned respect as an argument I would look at these men and go yeah I don't respect these men so that makes sense why submissives don't use titles until the dominant earns respect. But oddly enough I never really followed it. And I never really thought about it.

    So this thread starts and as I said above it made me really examine why and when I use titles. DM is a really good example for me. I don't call her Ma`am here for ease of reading reasons, but we don't go a conversation, email, im without me using Ma`am several times and it has been that way since the day I met her. And so why did she get Ma`am before she "earned my respect?" Because she has "it." She really has it. It is not a facade. She is not a dominant for...well I was going to say blow jobs and maid service but she is she is not dominant for sex and maid service. She is dominant because that is who she is...a dominant.

    In examining this issue, I realized it comes down to if they feel like they are above me then I call them by a title because it just comes out naturally. It is not forced or earned. It is just there. So going back to that theory if I am subordinate I will show those who are dominant courtesy. In my case, I guess that I don't feel all people claiming to be dominant are "above" me. So maybe that is why it does not come out naturally like it does with others.

    After thinking about her I went through all the people I use titles with...there are a few in real life and a few online. There are even a few who I have called Sir or Ma`am who have told me not to - one persons reason was if I called him by a title that was giving him the authority to dominate me.

    Master asked me if I called him Sir right away as He could not remember. And I did because after reading His first email introduction to me it came naturally. There was a hierarchy with Him. And so to me He naturally compelled a natural response from me....a title.

    Reminder of place:

    The third reason for using titles that was given that I thought was basically be a reminder of ones place. And my first thought was there are so many other ways to do that. Especially in our case because we try to live our lives with protocols that can be used in front of vanilla people (even though they don't really understand or notice them) and me using Sir or Ma`am every once in a while to dominants that might be around vanilla friends would not be a good use of reminding me of my place. I am a firm believer in trying to make your lifestyle and life flow seamlessly into a natural ebb and flow so that no matter if you are in the grocery store, PTA meeting or at home you can use protocols.

    So again, using titles as a form of protocol to remind the slave of his/her station really does not seem like a big deal to me. I can think of a lot of other ways that would show a slave his/her station more effectively.

    Okay Master is done with his work so I need to sign this off but I might have a few more thoughts to write on this tomorrow.

    Thursday, November 04, 2004

    Political: Sad and Upset

    Tuesday night we went to bed before it was declared because Ohio was still in the counting stages…as were a few others states. So when I woke up yesterday, I came into the office as I knew Master would have the answer I had been waiting for all night long. And I tried to tell myself "no that it was not true" and that Ohio still had not been counted but about an 30 minutes later as I was making Master's breakfast the tears hit me. I started crying. I have never before in my life cried after an election. Before it was always, "oh great" and a roll of the eyes. But this year I broke down and cried.

    I can't believe American's want this man as their president. I don't understand it.

    Wil Wheaton posted this from Oliver Willis: "The amazing thing to me about this race was that Bush could be as divisive as he wanted to be, but it never penalized him. The most important things in the world were responded to with infantile answers or complete ignorance. Where he stood was clear. Simplicity wins."

    I don't get why all the things he does is okay to them. Master wrote in his Spoon's Rant: " In the land of the "lesser of two evils," clearly America felt it was best to stick with the evil they have grown accustomed to."

    I see that to a point and then I go over all the the articles and facts I read about Bush and then get totally confused by people want someone who has had people die because of his lies. Or someone who has made the deficit at is all time high. Someone who has spent social security. Someone who has broken so many promises (educations, economy, environment, health care, and so on). Someone who goes by their gut or praying about it. Someone who gives faith incentives to Christians but no any other religious group, and gives no rights to gays.

    Moral Values. If that is what having moral values is then I don't want any part of it.

    My sister is gay and I cried for her yesterday. I cried that this country and government thinks of her as non-person. It sickens me to think that we elected a person who thinks of her as a non-person. It sickens me to think of where this war will go. It sickens me to think of where this country will be in 4 years.

    I screamed and cried yesterday. I feel so sad. And I am still upset today.

    I don't get it.

    I understand Kerry was not the ideal candidates but I don't get where Bush was BETTER. And I can't believe people are not scared about their rights being taken away with Bush as president.

    Tuesday, November 02, 2004

    Eminem - Mosh

    A friend on LiveJournal posted a link to Eminem video Mosh. It is about getting people to go out and vote. I am a Eminem fan. I like the song and video.

    Link to the video...get to choose how to have it played.

    Here are the lyrics...
    I pledge allegiance to the flag of the United States of America
    And to the Republic for which it stands
    One nation under God
    It feels so good to be back..

    I scrutinize every word, memorize every line
    I spit it once, refuel and re-energize and rewind
    I give sight to the blind, my insight through the mind
    I exercise my right to express when I feel it's time
    It's just all in your mind, what you interpret it as
    I say to fight, you take it as I'mma whip someone's ass
    If you don't understand, don't even bother to ask
    A father who has grown up with a fatherless past
    Who has blown up now to rap phenomenon that has
    Or at least shows no difficulty multi-task
    And in juggling both perhaps mastered his craft
    Slash entrepreneur who has held onto few more rap acts
    Who's had a few obstacles thrown his way through the last half
    Of his career typical manure moving past that
    Mr. kisses ass crack, he's a class act
    Rubber band man, yea he just snaps back

    Come along follow me as I lead through the darkness
    As I provide just enough spark that we need to proceed
    Carry on, give me hope, give me strength
    Come with me and I won't steer you wrong
    Put your faith and your trust as I guide us through the fog
    To the light at the end of the tunnel
    We gonna fight, we gonna charge, we gonna stomp, we gonna march
    Through the swamp, we gonna mosh through the marsh
    Take us right through the doors (c'mon)

    All the people up top on the side and the middle
    Come together lets all bomb and swamp just a little
    Just let it gradually build from the front to the back
    All you can see is a sea of people some white and some black
    Don't matter what color, all that matters we gathered together
    To celebrate for the same cause don't matter the weather
    If it rains let it rain, yea the wetter the better
    They ain't gonna stop us they can't, we stronger now more than ever
    They tell us no we say yea, they tell us stop we say go
    Rebel with a rebel yell, raise hell we gonna let em know
    Stomp, push, shove, mush, Fuck Bush, until they bring our troops home (c'mon)


    Imagine it pouring, it's raining down on us
    Mosh pits outside the oval office
    Someone's tryina tell us something,
    Maybe this is god just sayin' we're responsible
    For this monster, this coward,
    That we have empowered
    This is Bin Laden, look at his head noddin'
    How could we allow something like this without pumping our fists
    Now this is our final hour
    Let me be the voice in your strength and your choice
    Let me simplify the rhyme just to amplify the noise
    Try to amplify the times it, and multiply by six...
    Teen million people, Are equal at this high pitch
    Maybe we can reach alqueda through my speech
    Let the president answer a higher anarchy
    Strap him with an Ak-47, let him go, fight his own war
    Let him impress daddy that way
    No more blood for oil, we got our own battles to fight on our own soil
    No more psychological warfare, to trick us to thinking that we ain't loyal
    If we don't serve our own country, we're patronizing a hero
    Look in his eyes its all lies
    The stars and stripes, they've been swiped, washed out and wiped
    And replaced with his own face, Mosh now or die
    If I get sniped tonight you know why,
    Cause I told you to fight.


    And as we proceed,
    To Mosh through this desert storm,
    In these closing statements, if they should argue
    Let us beg to differ
    As we set aside our differences
    And assemble our own army
    To disarm this Weapon of Mass Destruction
    That we call our President, for the present
    And Mosh for the future of our next generation
    To speak and be heard
    Mr. President, Mr. Senator
    Do you guy's hear us...hear us...


    You Have Sex Like a Socialist!

    There's enough of you to go around, and you're not shy.
    You share yourself freely, expecting nothing in return.
    You have no jealousy in your heart - just lust for anything that moves.
    From each according to his or her ability (to get it on),
    To each according to his or her need (to come)!

    What Political Party Do You Do It Like?

    Recipe: Cheesecake

    My original recipe used regular cream cheese, sour cream, butter, and graham cracker crumbs. It was 515 calories per piece (12 pieces per cheesecake) and 36 grams of fat. Low-fat cheese cake is 217 calories a piece and 16 grams of fat.

    Low - fat New York Cheesecake

    3 whole low fat graham cracker - crushed into crumbs
    3 Tbsp splenda or sugar substitute
    1 1/2 Tbsps canola oil (it sounded gross to me but it worked and was good)
    3 pkg. (8 oz. each) low fat cream cheese, softened
    1 1/2 cups splenda or sugar substitute
    3 Tbsp flour
    1 Tbsp vanilla
    3 eggs
    1 cup light sour cream

    Mix crumbs, 3 Tbsp splenda and oil; press onto bottom of 9-inch greased springform
    pan. Bake at 350 F for 10 minutes.

    Mix cream cheese, rest of splenda, flour and vanilla with electric mixer on medium speed until well blended. Add eggs, 1 at a time, mixing on low speed after each addition, just until blended. Blend in sour cream. Pour over crust.

    Bake 1 hour and 5 minutes to 1 hour and 10 minutes or until center is almost set. Run knife or metal spatula around rim of pan to loosen cake; cool before removing rim of pan. Refrigerate 4 hours or overnight.

    Makes 12 servings

    Monday, November 01, 2004

    Life Colors

    From Auracolors: "Most people have many different bands of color in their auras. However, when you answer these questions, your predominant personality traits will reveal your life color(s)."

    So I took the test to see what my life colors were...

    My numbers were close together and often I tied on them too. The first one is the highest number I got and then the next 2 I tied on. And from there down I tied almost always. So giving the top 3 colors that were close together in number...Sensitve Tan, Blue and Yellow.

    The Sensitive Tan is the bridge between the mental colors and the emotional colors. Their auras are a combination of a light tan color with a light blue band next to it that encircles the body. Their personalities are a subtle combination of the mental Tan qualities and the emotional Blue qualities.

    Sensitive Tans incorporate the characteristics of mental, analytical logic with loving and intuitive compassion. These gentle personalities are quiet, sensitive and supportive. They prefer, like Logical Tans, to maintain a rational, intellectual foundation while they analytically process data.

    Sensitive Tans are more emotional and intuitive than Logical Tans, but they tend to keep their feelings to themselves. When a problem arises, Sensitive Tans will retreat inside to figure out the most practical solution.

    Blues are some of the most loving, nurturing and supportive personalities of the Life Colors. They live from their heart and emotions. Their purpose for being on the planet is to give love, to teach love and to learn that they are loved. Their priorities are love, relationships, and spirituality.

    Blues are traditionally teachers, counselors, and nurses---basically the loving, nurturers and caretakers on the planet. Blues are constantly helping others. They want to make sure that everyone feels loved and accepted. People are always turning to Blues for comfort and counsel because Blues will always be there for them. They consistently provide a shoulder for others to cry on.

    Blues are the most emotional personalities in the aura spectrum. They can cry at the drop of a hat. Blues cry when they are happy, hurt, angry, sad, or for no apparent reason at all. Even watching a sentimental commercial on television can bring on tears.

    Yellows are the most fun-loving, free-spirited, energetic, and childlike personalities in the aura spectrum. Yellows are wonderful, sensitive, optimistic beings, whose life purpose is to bring joy to people, to have fun, and to help heal the planet.

    Yellows can either be very shy and sensitive, or they can be the life of the party. These playful characters have a great sense of humor. They love to laugh and to make others laugh. Yellows believe life is to be enjoyed. They like to live life freely and spontaneously. With a perpetual smile on their face, they remind people to not take themselves or their problems too seriously.

    Yellows would prefer not to work at all, unless their work was fun, playful, or creative. They love nature, and often have concerns for the survival of wildlife and the environment. Dogs are very drawn to Yellows and often become their best friends.

    And then Violet, Crystal, Logical Tan and Indigo were all tied for next in line.

    Saturday, October 30, 2004

    Life Update

    On Thursday night Master and I were online and I was looking at to send out an ecard. I came across a little kids card that had Halloween Paper Dolls. Three Dolls and several sets of costumes. They had them to play with online, but also a page to print off and cut out. I showed them to Daddy and he said email those to me. I was in my little girl mode and we talked about how I would like to play with them. The next day Daddy came home and handed me several sheets of paper - with the paper dolls on them. He said Halloween night while He watches Rocky Horror Picture Show that I can play with them.

    After I sent him the ecard, I noticed in my email box saying I had an ecard. A friend sent me the cutest thank you. It made me smile. Thank you!

    I have been fighting a migraine the last 2 days. I should get our shopping list together as I did not have time yesterday.

    Kink and Politics: I think it is worth a read. And then Ernest Greene writes him also and it is interesting too. If you don't know who Ernest Greene is, it is explained in the entry.


    You Should Dress Up As a Bunny!

    Retro, sensual, and classicly hot.

    You're all about driving the boys crazy

    But you don't need a novel costume for that!


    Should You Be For Halloween?

    Oh Master just came in and told me to go get ready. We are going to our favorite Italian restaurant. Yum!

    Friday, October 29, 2004

    Political: Reasons I did not vote for Bush

    Today Master and I went out to go to vote early. We waited in line about an hour. I voted for Kerry. I am going to admit right away that Kerry is not my ideal candidate. But I just can't stand the thought of Bush being in office another 4 years. It does make me nervous and scared. As you will see below - there are many reasons I did not vote for Bush. I know Bush supporters can come back with Kerry does this and that and I did look at both views. But I am listing the reasons I why I did not vote for Bush. So please no flames, as you are not going to change my mind…I already voted.

    I did lots of research before casting my vote and here are just a few reasons I did not vote for Bush even though I could have went on for a few more pages. But the orginal word document that I typed it up in was already 6 pages long.

    These are not in any order. I tried to bring sources to most of the reasons but I know I have missed a few and of course some are pure personal opinion so no source to quote but me.

    War, Terrorism, Iraq, Military Defense and Foreign Policy all clumped together….
  • I don't feel safe with him. I feel more unsafe then I have ever with a president. Before Bush, I never thought about safety all that much…because I felt safe. But since Bush, I have felt unsafe. And feel the world is an unsafe place with him in office. And yes I am scared because of the attacks on 9/11 but the reason I feel unsafe with Bush is because of the results of his actions of 9/11. Going to war in Iraq and not going after Osama.

  • Yes I am one of them that does not like this one….I don't like that he sat for 7 minutes after were attacked. I have heard that the teacher thought he handled it well in not alarming the children. But what first crossed my mind was…he is the president of the USA and he is a target. So, in my mind he was putting those children and all the children in that school at risk. Not to mention that we were under attack and all these people are dying and he is just sitting there. It bothers me. (William Langley, "Revealed: What Really Went on During Bush's 'Missing Hours,'" The Telegraph, December 16, 2001. '" David E. Sanger and Don Van Natta Jr., "After The Attacks: The Events; In Four Days, A National Crisis Changes Bush's Presidency," The New York Times, September 16, 2001, Michael Kranish, "Bush: US To Hunt Down Attackers," Boston Globe, September 11, 2001. & 9-11 Commission Report Commission Report, p 35, Commission Report, pp. 38-39)/

  • I don't like that Bush lied to us about WMD and tried to push that Saddam and Al Qaeda were linked. (Fact Check, Whitehouse Interviews, American Progress, CNN, 9/11 Commssion Report, 525 Reasons)

  • I don't like that he is not going after Osama. Instead he let druglord in Afghanistan do the work - people we did not trust weeks before. That does not make sense to me.

  • Despite repeated calls for reinforcements, there are fewer experienced CIA agents assigned to the unit dealing with Osama now than there were before 9/11. (NY Times)

  • I don't understand how the Bush administration thinks that they make me feel safer. Because obviously Bush did not do anything to the Osama when we are attacked last time so why would I trust he would do something to the terrorist this time?

  • Bush at one time said he wanted Osama dead or alive and now he says he is not that worried about him (Whitehouse News Release) So he is not worried about the man that attacked the USA. So I guess he is not worried about the USA being attacked again if he is not worried about a terrorist that attacked us before.

  • The Bush Administration has assigned five times as many agents to investigate Cuban embargo violations as it has to track Osama and Saddam's money. (SFGate)

  • Bush said no casualties (CNN) yet during the Bush Administration's war in Iraq, more than 1,000 US troops have lost their lives and more than 7,000 have been injured. (Global Security) And then 15, 000 Iraqi (Iraqi Body Count)

  • Cheney said that if we don't elect Bush we will be hit again by terrorist. I hate that they use terror to get people vote for them and just love all they have done so far (rolling eyes). (Washington Post, Fact Check ). And they call it a war on Terror but it is a war on Iraq. Bush hasn't fought the terrorism. And it is my belief he is creating more chance for terrorism.

  • I don't like the Patriot Act…it seems to invade American's privacy....such as they can go into a "suspect" house without a court order. (But know I don't know enough about it to point the things that bother - just the bits and pieces I have heard).

  • Americans wanted to impeach a president for getting a blow job but they don't want to impeach a man for taking us into war and lying to us about it. And most importantly for having many of our fellow American's killed for a cause many don't even understand why they are there.

  • Bush Administration wanting to lift ban on low yield nuclear weapons. (Washington Post)
  • During the Bush Administration, North Korea has quadrupled its "suspected" nuclear arsenal from 2 to 8 weapons (NY Times)

  • The Bush Administration awarded a multibillion-dollar no-bid contract to Halliburton. Cheney gets paid from Halliburton still also. Halliburton overcharged the military for services, accepted kickbacks from subcontractors and served troops dirty food. (Washington Post & BBC)

  • Economy
  • The Bush Administration turned a $236 billion surplus into a $422 billion deficit. (Fact Check, Fact Check Again, Fortune)

  • Bush say that he created 1.7 million jobs created since the summer of 2003 - saying the economy stronger because of it. But yet he does not talk about that he is the first president since Hoover to have decline in payroll employment. And some don't think that sounds that bad, which I think is incredible. But the economy needs 1.6 million new jobs created a year to keep up with the population. They barely covered the huge gap between the number of jobs the country needs and the number actually available. (Fact Check)

  • Unemployment declined only because some of those are not counted after their benefits run out but still not working so therefore the unemployment statistics dropped.

  • As a candidate in 2000, Bush said he would pay down the national debt. He said it would historically low level. The national debt stood at $7,379,052,696,330.32, a record high as of Sept. 30. (Public Debt & George W. Bush & Fact Check)

  • Bush as a candidate in 2000 said he would protect the Social Security surplus. He spent all of it. (George W. Bush & CBO)

  • Health/Medical
  • I feel everyone should have access to affordable health insurance. As an adult who has not had health insurance because I can't afford it. It is important to me. I also know people who have kids and no insurance and that is scary to me. I like that Kerry has a plan that would help those of us not being able to afford it. Bush said that it would be government regulated but he misleads on that too. (Fact Check)

  • During the Bush administration 5 million people have lost their health insurance (CNN)

  • When Kerry when defending pro-choice during a debate, he said he thinks about a girl who became pregnant by her father who raped her. Kerry feels that girl should be able to get an abortion if she wanted. Bush never even commented on that when he had rebuttal. Not to even say that would be horrid if that happened. He just went on with why he would give funding to homes for pregnant women. It bothered me he had no compassion even to say that would be horrid. It seems he refuses to see how Americans are affected by his decisions.

  • I am pro-choice, Bush is not (Issues 2004)

  • The Bush Administration stopped research on stem-cells that could lead to new treatments for Parkinson's, heart disease, ,diabetes, Alzheimer's, spinal injuries, and muscular dystrophy (CNN)

  • The Bush Administration put forth a rule which requires foreign NGOs to withhold information about legal abortion services otherwise they will lose US funds for family planning.(Health Sciences Columbia Edu)

  • He has given a 270 million-dollar budget to promote abstinence programs in school but slashed all programs that talk about other ways to avoid sexually transmitted diseases.

  • The nonpartisan GAO found that the Bush Administration created illegal fake news reports to promote its industry-backed Medicare bill. (GAO)

  • Bush Administration believes that patients who were denied much need treatments should not sue HMO's. (ABC News Washington Post )

  • Education
  • In 2000, candidate Bush promised to increase the maximum federal scholarship, or Pell Grant, by 50 percent. Instead, each year he has been in office he has frozen or cut the maximum scholarship amount. (ED Work Force)
  • No Child Left Behind - another promise broken. (NWI Times & Fact Check, Fact Check

  • Environment
  • It seems that everything he says he is going to do with the environment he does not or he goes back on somewhat. Instead, he makes a tax break for those buying SUV and Hummers that pollute the air. And breaks his promise on making limits on carbon dioxide emissions, eliminated protection of 200 million acres of public lands. He also have proposed to cut the EPA budget by a signifcant amount. (Washington Post, Washington Post again, And Again, Bush Green Watch, California Wilderness Coalition)

  • Energy
  • The Bush Administration relentlessly pushed an energy bill containing $23.5 billion in corporate tax breaks, much of which would have benefited major campaign contributors. ( & Washington Post)

  • And some more reasons…
  • I don't like that Bush believes God put him in office. I tend to think people did well some of us did at least. I am a spiritual person but it still bothers me. I guess I like to think separation of government and religion. I don't want a government run by gut, instinct or someone saying well I prayed about it. (Originally appeared in New York Times - Without a Doubt by Ron Suskind & Working for a Change)

  • I don't like that he says stupid things. Might be shallow but we need someone who is articulate and knows what the hell he is saying. I mean the man did not even know he had holdings in a timber company and in my opinion made a fool of himself by saying he did not own holdings in timber complany (Fact Check)

  • He refuses to admit mistakes. A President who can't acknowledge his mistakes can't fix them. I don't like that he did not answer the town hall question about 3 mistakes. He did not even have the balls to say he made any mistakes and then basically told the person who asked the question that what she was "really asking about the war" so he was "invalidating" her question. And that irritated me.

  • Bush is leading us and he does not even know where the hell he is going. That is how it seems to me. He comes across so un-intelligent and why would someone who comes across that way make me feel safer? He stumbles and all he can say is being president is hard work. Well if it is such hard work for him - then why doesn't he not run again. I mean we all know it is hard work. But he ran for it not me. And if I take on something that is hard or I don't like I don't need to tell everyone repeatedly how hard of work it is like that explains it all. He needs to answer the questions. He needs to do the work. He needs to fix his mistake and admit them.

  • Bush and his saying Kerry is flip-flopper over and over is driving me crazy. I hate to say but all politicians flip-flop. Even Bush - Bush on campaign trail said Kerry's plan for Iraq is the same as his then Bush in the debate said that Kerry's plan for Iraq won't work. (more flip flop issues - American Progress Action)

  • He has all these plans for the next 4 years and I wonder why he has not done them the last 4 years. And has he done what he said he would last 4 years? No not in my why would he be reliable to do it the next 4 years

  • I don't like that there seems to be a lot of secrecy and deceits in this administration - Changed transcripts, lots of documents classified (even former presidents documents he has classified and the task force on energy that Cheney led. Why would that need to be classified?) (CNN & 525 Reasons)

  • Another that might sound shallow. But it bothers me that Bush had never worked hard for anything. Yes we all heard how hard work he does as president. But this is his first real job and even that seems like he just runs on gut instinct. Well if that is how he ran his companies that went under then where are we headed. I don't think he is in touch with American.…everyday working class Americans. I am sure he does not know what it is like to eat ramen noodles and mac&cheese to survive. I am sure he does not think about how much it costs to have an appointment at the doctor or get a prescription. Or how those on a fixed income pay for everything - rent, utilities, medication, and such. I know Kerry is also from an upper class family but to me he seems to understand what the daily average American goes through and care.

  • Gay Rights - Bush is against letting domestic partners the right to health and tax benefits that married couples get, Bush does not think that violence against Gays is a Hate Crime, and he says no adoptions for Gays. (CNN, MSNBC, Issues 2004)

  • Like I said I could have went on more….but just with these reasons alone listed was enough for me to vote for Kerry.
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