So another punishment question from FetLife...
As a masochist do you enjoy punishments?/Can you punish a masochist with pain?
Again we don't do punishment we do discipline so putting it in those terms. And really Master hasn't had to discipline me in a long time. Every once in a while I will get the look that says I am pushing a line but that is about it.
So on to the topic....for me as a masochist when Master has given me a physical form of discipline, I don't enjoy it. That is not to say my body doesn't react to it. I get wet. But my mind and emotions don't follow. It upsets me that I have displeased him and that I am doing something wrong so I don't enjoy the pain. I know and feel the difference between pain in sex or SM play and discipline. He can even use things that I enjoy as discipline and it doesn't affect how I enjoy it in our SM play and sex. Such as I loved to be slapped - we almost always have slapping involved in our sex. But I have gotten slapped as form of correction too - and that didn't turn me on. Again my body might have reacted to it by getting wet. But my emotions after were of sadness for displeasing him. I can feel the difference between slapping during sex and slapping because I did something wrong.
There are things in this lifestyle I have a love hate relationship with such as canes. I don't like the pain from them - it hurts but at the same time that pain that hurts me turns me on - it makes me wet but it also takes my mind and emotions to places that make me a gooey puddle. Humiliation same thing - I can get really pissed off or feel broken down with it but those feelings turn me on emotionally, mentally and physically.
Discipline doesn't do that for me. I don't want to displease Master. I don't want to do things wrong (something I have a problem with - I don't like to do something wrong). So although my body reacts to the pain brought with discipline the mind doesn't get turned on like it does with SM. I don't get the same gooey feelings from discipline that I do with canes or humiliation. It just hurts and upsets me that I have upset him/displeased him. It just feels different.
So for us yes, he can use pain even though I am a masochist. And yes I understand that it isn't the same for all masochists.
I guess I'm kind of surprised that nobody has asked this question as part of the punishment discussions, but I was wondering... what sort of things have you done/might you do that would warrant the look, or a possible talking to or whatever? What are the boundaries you tend to push, or the rules you have the hardest time following, even if it's because you forget?
ReplyDeleteI just wanted to let you know - I have started a post to answer your questions. Hopefully I will finish it tomorrow (well today since is Wednesday already). Thank you for asking them!
ReplyDeleteAwesome! Thanks. :-)
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