You know he can just get into my head and spin it in many directions that I think up is down. It is so so...well frustrating...because I will be going "huh what just happened" and be completely turned on at the same time. I have said to him before jokingly, "You have brainwashed me to think it is perfectly normal do that to me." He just looks at me like, "Yeah so."
Really not sure it is brainwashing or mind control, but instead I see it more as forms of conditioning and training me. Not just my training me how he likes his coffee, but to train me to react the way he wishes...even my brain. Okay so maybe I am in denial about it being brainwashing and mind control.
One day I felt a sneeze coming, but it
wouldn't. For about 20 minutes (maybe not that long just seemed like a long time to me) I struggled and just wished the
freakin sneeze would come out. I said that outloud to Master as we were
watching a movie. We sat there a few minutes, he paused the movie,
turned to me, and said, "sneeze." I sneezed. My mind is conditioned to
obey him so I sneezed when he ordered me to do so.
Could he just tell me
to sneeze when I wasn't feeling it coming - I am not sure it would work. But I do
know the seeds he plants often flower exactly when he wishes.
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