Meme: Me Explained - Question 2

I was asked about 29 and 30...in a comment as well as 2 emails so I guess that is something that kind of odd in my 100+ things about me...

29. I used to be a masochist
30. I don't know if I am....anymore.

I don't feel I am a masochist anymore.

I used to be a huge masochist. I used to crave to feel the pain...I wanted to feel the feelings associated with the pain. I wanted to feel it rip through my flesh and open me up.

And well now I don't get those types of cravings. I like pain. I like to do SM play with Master. I enjoy the pain Master gives me, but I just don't crave it. I don't need to feel it rip though my flesh. I like taking the pain for Him. So again I used to crave pain for pains sake, but now it is just not the same. I don't have those deep cravings like I did...but I do enjoy taking the pain Master gives me. So not exactly sure what the makes me.