GloRoMo

For the month of November in conjunction with NaNoWriMo Graydancer created GloRoMo and today I was admiring and voting for many wonderful bondage pictures. If Graydancer does it next year maybe I can convince Master that we can enter it too. Oh *shivers* Rope Bondage.

Christmas Sparkle!

Look at the pretty that was made for me!

Gratitude Tuesday - E

This morning I started this and thought damn E is going to be hard. I would walk away after writing a few and then come back and add more. I thought I wasn't going to have much of anything on the list...but here hours later I guess I surprised myself....so I bring you...

~ E ~

Eddie Izzard - yummy! He is so funny! Plus he looks good in heels and make up!
Eating - I love food so I like to eat.
Epicurious - Which goes with the above. I love that site for recipes, good wine suggestions and other food related ideas.
Encouragement - I am thankful for all the encouragement I get from my friends.
Emotions - Although my emotions have been all over the place I am glad that I do have them. I am glad I feel a wide range of them.
Energy - Having energy...to just do things I am grateful for and also feeling energy/vibes or whatever you call it. I like it when I encounter someone with good energy. s is coming to mind. She always has such a warm clear soothing energy coming from her. Just being around her for a little bit always makes me feel so good.
Expression - Being able to express through writing, spoke word, art, and so many more ways...I am grateful for the ability to express my thoughts and feelings in so many wonderful ways
Enthusiasm - This one I always think of this word along with sex work. I know strange but enthusiasm is really the tip to making it in escorting. You have enthusiasm with your clients and you will have repeat clients. Which I guess will lead to the next word...
Escorting - That will sound strange too...but miss that job. I had so much fun and met some amazing people not only as clients but others who worked in the sex industry.
Envelopes - Mail Love! I love seeing envelopes in the mail with my name on them. And I love sending out envelopes full of mail love to others.
Encasement - It is actually one of Master's fetishes. Being totally encased in latex or a shiny spandex suit would be his ideal.
Edge play - I love edge play - breath play, humiliation scenes, watersports, punching and kicking, face slapping, all are considered edge play and all are near and dear to me!
Eggs - I like eggs. Egg sandwiches, Godfather Eggs, Scrambled eggs with hashbrowns, neatly folded eggs piled on a fluffy biscuit. Also thankful to have them so I can bake yummy cakes, cookies, brownies and breads with them.
Eggplant - Not the food....oh no...don't like eggplant to eat but I love the color! I would love to have a room painted with that color
Edward Gorey - Lovely work....dark and delicious
Electricity - Without it....there is so much I couldn't do. So I am very thankful for electricity...for keeping computers running, heat going on this cold snowy day, power to run my bread machine and crockpot to make a yummy warm dinner for tonight, to give me warm water for my shower, and dryer to warm up my robe to make me toasty when I am cold, to run all the tv to watch Buffy and Alias...yes I could go on and on with all the wonderful things that electricity brings to me. Very thankful for electricity
Egyptian art - Art history was one of my favorite classes in college. I always got A and A+'s in it. Egyptian art was one area that I took several classes as it really just has always fascinated me. I even remember in grade school doing papers on Egyptian art as I have drawn to it.
Eyes - I like eyes...I like the expressiveness of eyes. I keep thinking of Master's blue intense eyes. Yummy! so grateful to be able to look into them every day! I am also thankful for my eyes...to see all the wonderful things that pass before daily.
Ears - I few years ago girlie pointed out to me I have a thing for ears. I do....I look at people's ears. I seem to notice tiny ears. Dainty little ears. I also appreciate having ears to hear you with - lol - yes I know I sounds like the wolf in little red riding hood.
Enslavement - I am enslaved to Master and very grateful to be owned by him
Ephemera - My art consists of lots of ephemera so I am very grateful to have it as an available resource as it inspires me often.

Website Down

Our website is down for some reason...(wrote a support ticket) and so that is why my journal is a looking a mess right now without the graphics.

Campbell's Donating Food to Food Banks!

Campbells soup is going to donate cans of soup to food banks based on the number of votes received for each NFL team. You can vote once a day so please, pass this one please.

Just go to http://www.chunky.com/clickforcansvote.aspx every day!

Please help Fight AIDS....with just a click

Bristol Myers Squibb will donate one dollar (up to a max of $100,000) for every person who goes to their Web site and lights a candle to fight AIDS. At this point, the counter is just over 70,300 ... so we need many more candles lit before World AIDS Day (on Dec. 1).

Please go to Light to Unite to light a candle ... and help spread the light.

Pass this along to others as well! Thank you!

Loads of Kinky Fun

The other night Master did an INSIDE post on spanking and just reading it almost made me cum. I am serious...I was breathing heavy! It just brought me to that place when he spanks me. I never really liked spanking before Master. I had partners that liked to spank, but I was always wondering when it would BE OVER! And with Master I am like more more more! And really he does LONG spankings that just are so good that I can't help but want more!

I did a poll over on my livejournal about BDSM interest. It was check all that you enjoy type poll. Livejournal polls actually only allow 15 things. Almost everyone that took it liked bondage and spanking. Then the next highest with over 62% of voters liking humiliation, breath play and face slapping. I thought it was great that so many liked things that aren't always "approved" of by the general BDSM community.

The things on the poll:
bondage,spankings,humiliation, breath play,face slapping, punching and kicking, needles, watersports, rubber or latex, flogging, fisting,age play, hair pulling, cages, and hoods.

So I thought I would just write a little about each thing on the poll why I like them or don't like them or whatever.

bondage - I really enjoy rope bondage. I love the feel of it going on my body. I love the feel once it is complete. I am also a visual person so I like the way it look. It is not something Master was really into - at first. Then we went to a workshop at Thunder in the Mountains one year about bondage. And well he saw some more possibilities in play. So that evening in the dungeon he did pretty body and arm bondage in the dungeon to match the top I had on. I think he got into the whole look of it with his other fetishes. And I am very thankful he did. I have never been with anyone that likes it as much as I do. It has always been too much work for most people I have been with. But I love the sensation of the rope on my body. I like the feelings of it tightly tied on me so I can't get loose. I like the rope digging into my arms, legs, and other bits. It just feels...good to me. Strange word for it I am sure but it turns me on and make me just feel like all is right in the world.


spankings - already discussed above but just to add...I just really like Master's spankings. No one has ever given me a spanking that I really liked besides him. Most of the time I was like okay we can stop now. And didn't really get why people enjoyed it. But Master....oh yum to the spankings. I really do think it is because of the drumming background. He doesn't just spank....he does drum as silly as that sounds....it is the difference.

humiliation - I really enjoy. I find myself having some problems getting into it though for a while. I think because I am just not in the place mentally and emotionally to get into it. And I do think it really needs the right headspace or for me it can go very badly.

breath play - is probably one of my biggest turn ons. I like the sensations it creates...the tension, anticipation, skin becoming ultra sensitive, just the air going away. I like lack of control. And especially like the feelings of His control over me in those moments.

face slapping - I have always liked face slapping. I remember my vanilla husband I engaging in kinky play and he would slap me. He really had problems doing it the first time but after he saw how much I enjoyed it then he never seemed to have a problem. Master really enjoys face slapping too. I like the feeling of that skin on skin contact....his hand slapping across my face. The redness it causes, the after tingles of it. We also do some face punching and it is something we both really enjoy also. I have had a swollen lip and it made me feel good...looking at it in the mirror...even touching it. It made me feel like his property.

punching and kicking - another hawt activity that we enjoy. I have engaged in punching and kicking for a while. Back with Don and then MC (someone I played with right before getting involved with Master.) Master is really good at punching. We haven't done as much kicking. But I know it is someplace we will explore eventually. We saw a workshop at Thunder done by Fifth Angel on punching, kicking and takedowns. And I think I was moaning outloud during the whole workshop. And it certainly inspired Master and punching I think is his top 5 things to do to me. Every time we have sex....punching almost always is involved. Arms and breasts are his favorite places to punch me. It is good foreplay for me to get turned on when I am not sexually "ready."

needles - They are not something I enjoy. I don't like needles. I have seen some cool needle, staple and suture play, but I think having it done on me would make me nauseous.

watersports - We have an essay on Golden Showers on our website. It was one of those fetishes that years I go I thought I would never enjoy but I do. And it really isn't that humiliating to me more like I feel pride when Master urinates on me. I feel pride of being his. I do also drink his urine but still not very well. I have lots of urinating on myself type of fantasies but haven't explored all of those yet.

rubber or latex - I didn't check rubber and latex although I like both...I am allergic to latex. Rubber/latex are 2 of Master's fetishes. I do feel sorry for him not being able to engage in that with me. I love the look of it on others but usually don't like the look of it on me.

flogging - flogging is something I used to really enjoy but Master although he likes to flog he just doesn't do that very often. And so really for me I have a problem taking it and you would think a girl that is slapped and punched wouldn't have a problem taking a flogging but I really feel like a wuss with flogging

fisting - I have never been fisted. And ex tried once and ripped me. And then girlie tired once too but I was tense and too tight. But it is something I would like to have done someday and Master has an interest in it too - so one day it might be a reality. But I have fisted though and enjoyed it thoroughly so I probably should have checked it from that stand point. (girlie makes such delightful noises when being fisted.)

age play - I am not sure I really can explain what I do as age play but I guess it is. But I just have this little girl side that comes out. It is natural - it isn't role that now I am 4 years old and act and dress like a 4 year old. It is that I am 4. Not sure I am explaining that well. But I do like playing and being Daddy's princess and little girl!

hair pulling - I love the feel of Master's hand in my hair. Feel his control. Feel where he is usually directing me with his hand in my hair. Girlie and her Sir once put my hair as part of the bondage and I really liked that too...hog tied!

cages - yep like them too. Master built me a cage. It was hard for me at first being in it and it did get easier. But we haven't had time for it lately. And had to take it down because of company being here. The cage made me feel really truly like his captive and when I was first here and he was claiming me as His...making me His....it really helped me be in that mindset that his...property.

hoods - in Master's top 5 probably number 1 actually. It is something I didn't enjoy at first. I was actually scared of them. He really did a great job of getting me used to them and also making me DESIRE them. I do desire them now. Hoods are something I plan on writing about more in length one day. So not going to say that much right now but I do like them. It is like an escape as soon as one goes on.


Oh yummy kinks! Nice thoughts!

Happy Thanksgiving!

I hope everyone has a wonderful day sharing love and laughter with family and friends!

Letter Meme

"Comment and I'll give you a letter; then you have to list 10 things you love that begin with that letter. Afterward, post this in your journal and give out some letters of your own."

The lovely strangedoll on livejournal gave me the letter L

1. Leather - well...I think that is pretty self-explanatory. I like leather in it's many forms - whips, floggers, cuffs, corsets, hoods...oh my! The smell is intoxicating to me!
2. Lip Gloss - Shiny, pretty, smells good!
3. Lips - I do like lips. Master has such sexy lips! Kissing lips! Girl's lips with lip gloss...okay even some boys I know look good in lip gloss! fat and pouty, lips that always seem to about to say something, lips that open and speak quiet words....yep lips are good!
4. Life - yep I love life. I love that I am alive and living out my life's journey.
5. Lists - I like lists. I like making lists.
6. Lemons - Lemon tarts, bars, cookies....cooking with lemons - honey lemon chicken - yummy! So sweet and tart!
7. Leftovers - I like leftovers. Food often tastes better to me as a left over. And here we are approaching the ultimate leftovers at the end of the week - Thanksgiving leftover omg!
8. Lock - lock on my collar....claimed and owned. yay!
9. Leaves - Leaves still pretty red and yellow leaves on some trees here. I love the colors of the leaves changing.
10. Love - giving, receiving...gotta love. I am very lucky to have all the love in my life that I do.

Graitude Tuesday - D

Okay I haven't done a Gratitude Tuesday in several weeks. But ready to get back to them especially with the holidays coming about....I have many things I am thankful for and happy that I have in my life.




~ D ~

~ Daddy/little girl relationship - Obviously he is not my bio Dad but Master (thank goodness) and I am not a little girl but we do enjoy that aspect of our full relationship. He is my Daddy....he takes care of me, he gives me hugs and kisses when I am having a bad day, he watches Howl's Castle, Benji, and other wonderful movies with me. He spoils his princess. I am very thankful for this part of our relationship!

~ Diet Coke - I can't go long without a diet coke. It just refreshes me. I like the bubbles and the taste.

~ Decadence - chocolate dessert, sex in the middle of the afternoon, silk lingerie touching the skin, a wine that makes all the troubles of the day fade away, kisses that are long and deep - that seem to make every part of the body quiver

~ Domestic Service - Despite being burnt out lately I do like serving Master domestically. I am thankful he allows me to stay at home to be his domestic slave.

~ Drawing - I am thankful that as a child I learned the joy of drawing.

~ Dinner - If I have to choose a meal that I enjoy the most it is dinner. I like cooking dinner also so many things I can make with it. I thankful for wonderful dinners I have made, created and shared with friends and family.

~ Dessert - If I could skip though meals and go straight to dessert that would be best! Thankful for all the sweetness that comes with dessert!

~ Dove Chocolates - Well it is chocolate you know...and I don't turn that down.

~ Danae - the myth and the painting by Gustav Klimt

~ Destiny - Master and I talk about this quite a bit as we do think it seemed like we were destined to meet. There were several times our paths did/could have crossed. And we are thankful we finally did meet and are able to fulfill our destinies together.

~ Desire - I am thankful I am able to desire all the wonderful things I do...leather, spankings, bondage, art, books, music, chocolate and so many other wonderful things to desire

~ Dreams - I am thankful for dreams...night time dreaming and day dreaming.....dreaming of life

~ Dressing up - I like dressing up...pretty dress, pretty undergarments.

~ Duran Duran, Depeche Mode, The Dandy Warhols, Darling Violetta, Dido, Dar Williams, Dixie Chicks - All good bands/singers that start with D. I enjoy the music they bring.

~ Daily OM - Thankful for the Daily OM. I usually start out my day with them and when I do skip them I am always reminded when I read again the next time why they make me feel better. They allow me to learn more about myself.

~ Dolls - I have Groovy Girls that are so much fun to play with...I am thankful for Daddy buying them for me

Random Random

Livejournal
Some of you have asked about livejournal...I do mirror what I write here over there. Livejournal is a blogging tool but lj is almost like an online community too. I initially started joined in over on livejournal because I have several good friends that post over there. I started mirroring my blogspot over there so that it made it easier for my livejournal friends (because livejournal has a feature that anyone who you "friend" then can have all your friend's posts in one place to read - almost like an rss feed for livejournal). I started learning more about livejournal and their features and realized I have some things I feel the need to write about but don't like sharing with the whole world wide web...so I do post over there more now. But I won't give up my blogspot!

Livejournal has a feature where you can lock posts and only those that register (which is free)and "friend" your livejournal can see the posts and no one else. I also liked that I could share pictures (nothing too steamy - I did before the obsenity law but now just daily life pictures - food, cats, places we go, and a few vanilla type pictures of me) so that again I wasn't sharing them with the world.

So there it is...I have a livejournal and a blogspot. As I said above I won't give up my blogspot. I started here 6 years ago -- and I want to look back at year 10 and see all I have written. But if you want to friend me over at livejournal and don't have one set up please feel free to write me. I can give you some basic livejournal instructions.



Sex and SM
Just a few entries from the past that I read recently. They are steamy (well steamy in my opinion as it happened to me...I might be a little biased) SM and sex....it was hard to pick just a few...but here they are:


A Wonderful Weekend!
Humiliation, Hoops and Jargon
F*ckhose and Rituals
Weekend Recap
The Banana



Quotes
I have lots of quotes here are some good ones I found while reading through my archives...

There are moments when, what ever the position of the body, the soul is on its knees. - Victor Hugo

Just to be is a blessing. Just to live is holy. - Rabbi Abraham Heschel

If you command wisely, you'll be obeyed cheerfully. - Thomas Fuller (1608-1661)

Whenever you fall, pick something up. - Oswald Avery

This entry has quite a few good ones.


ps: not liking the nightime "hot cider" airborne. eewww!

Curious....

"I don't need a someone else to make me whole or complete."

What do you think of that statement? Do you think you need someone else to complete you?

What do you think of it in D/s - M/s relationship? Do you think you need a dominant-type personality to complete you as a submissive-type personality?

Almost Holidailies Time!

Master said yes to joining Holidalies! I am joining in on it for here but will also of course mirror all the posts on my livejournal too.

Holidailies participants solemnly vow to update their Web sites daily from December 1 to January 1. I had a nice time participating last year.

If anyone has suggestions or things they would like to me to write about, please feel free to email me or comment!

What Tarot Card are You?

You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Making Gifts for the Holidays

I have on our website a page about making gifts...it has ideas, tips and pictures of things I have made. I thought maybe since it is time that we are all gearing up for making holiday gifts - it might come of use as I was reviewing it again to get some ideas.

Making Gifts

If anyone has any questions about the projects I have listed there, please feel free to ask!

Brain Drought....due to exhaustion

I haven't been sleeping well. First I just can't sleep because my mind won't slow down. And next I am so cold I can't get to sleep. Even with thermals, 3 blankets and it isn't even really winter yet. I am falling asleep between 3 and 4am. And so today I am really exhausted. Brain not functioning really well.

The last 2 days I was going through some old files on my computer and found a few things I started as essays for our website. I hope to finish those up soon to post there as I haven't added anything new in a long time.

I want to ask Master if I can start posting his journal entries he has been doing lately to the website. He is doing a series basically on some of his fetishes and he is calling them INSIDE. Inside - his thoughts on gags, collars, humiliation and more to come he says.

Not much else going on with me....

We have been busy. We have had lots of running around this week and it just seems like I am not accomplishing anything at home. Then being so tired...by the time we do get home I just want to veg because I can't think of what next to do because my brain isn't functioning.

Just looked at my Netflix queue because I knew I should have something coming....and I do...it should arrive tomorrow...Colonial House! I can't wait to watch it.

Feels like a blah blah blah post...but this is just what is going on with me right now.

Positive Monday

5 good things in my life....

1. That the migraine I got this afternoon went away!
2. Next step for my art - about to happen.
3. COOKIES! OMG Cookies!
4. Tea - it is cold out and it warms me up
5. Master - He is the BEST!

purple sharpie sitting on my desk

Okay so...

I haven't really updated in a few days. We just have been busy and not really all work either. We have been spending lots of quality time together. Dates I guess is what I would call them. Such as yesterday we did went to a few wineries have some samples...and then came home with umm...quite a few bottles of wine. It has been nice just spending time together.


I have written a few times that I am burnt out. I still do not feel like I am *not* burnt out. But I am feeling a little more....focused at times. Where when I was in the height of my burn out, I couldn't focus worth anything. I also am going through less overwhelmed periods and a lot of that is because Master has been helping me out. He took some duties away from me. Years ago I would have felt like that was a "failure" on my part, but now I know it was for the best. I was running myself into the ground and if it kept going that direction - I wouldn't have been of any service to Master. I don't feel 100% yet. I don't like the joy of service is back but I am not as overwhelmed, tired and I am more focused then I was before.


I hope to work on some art this week. I have several projects that I need to finish up and several more that I have floating around in my brain.

Last night I was going through some unread emails and I came across one from Kraft about holiday cookies. And it had a link for hosting a holiday cookie exchange. I would love to do that this year. But I am not sure I have the nerve to do it. I just don't socialize without Master much. So many of my friends are couple friends or were his and now mine so more his. And of course with not "community" here...I don't have any lifestyle friends here. I did that years ago when I was married and us girls had a lot of fun. We had drinks, munchies, cookies and lots of laughter.


Today I was thinking about the holidays.It was the first time I got really excited about it - for this year. Looking forward to decorating the tree and things we do during the holidays. And of course Master now works from home so I am sure we will create new traditions for the holidays. I did also let the thought of Thanksgiving menu pass through my mind as I hadn't given it a lot of thought. I do know that we really enjoyed the stuffing last year and so I will see if it is okay to make that again.


Okay I guess it is bedtime. First I need to take out the garbage...excitement. Then I will go snuggle up to Master and fall asleep quickly (I hope).


* purple sharpie sitting on my desk is just a random fact...just like the rest of this entry...lots of random little things going on.

Political TV....

HBO special had that is called Hacking Democracy and it is on Google now. I haven't watched it yet but heard really good things about it...not that the things learned were good - more scary then anything else. But I heard it was interesting so I hope to get a chance to watch it later. It is about the voting machines being hacked to have votes changed.

Voting Day

Today we went and voted and then had lunch out. After we went and looked at houses. I felt kind of lack luster on the houses we looked at...only because I think I have such an image in my head. When we came home, I did a few things around here before we had dinner and were/are glued to CNN.

Oh our voter machines were pretty slick. But I am sure still have faults. But as you voted on the screen it printed out on paper right next to you so you could see it.

I am just so disappointed in all the votes against domestic partnerships and the vote for making marriage one man and one woman here in Colorado.

Yay on the house!

Virgina wow...close.
Missouri still waiting on.
Montana still waiting on.

Back to CNN and Master and our kitty cats all snuggled up on the couch.

Slavery and Politics

Someone asked me if I just get to vote how I want to...this is something I wrote elsewhere when I was first with Master:

When Master I were starting to get to know each other, politics is one area that I asked him about because I wanted to know if our views meshed. I lived with someone before who was owned me and our political views often didn't mesh and it really tore me apart times. So politics was one area I wanted to find someone that I was compatible with in politics. We talked and we were compatible. Master has a political science degree and love politics. So he was more educated in politics then I but we did share alike views. He told me if I became his because he does have a passion for politics that I would vote but that I would research and educate myself. And if he felt I was making an informed decision then he probably would let me vote my way. Now that said....most of the time my informed decision is exactly how he would vote so he does see me as his second vote. If he felt I wasn't making an informed decision he would tell me who to vote for or maybe not have me vote at all - but again he sees me as his second vote.

Now ALL that said...Master could change and that is the reality. People do change and someday he might decide to be a conservative (trying not to laugh as I say that as it such an strange thought). And he might decide that he just tells me how to vote no matter if I educate myself or not. He might just say go vote for all these conservatives and I would have to because when I became his I knew the deal.

But again as I said Master is very passionate about politics and likes that we can discuss them together and then go vote together.

Elections Tomorrow...so a political post

Getting lots of repeat political calls? Check this link out, and this one and this one. We haven't actually had these but I think Master's parents did as they were talking about all the calls they have been getting lately and it is turning them off where they are not even sure they are going to vote.

Again a GREAT SOURCE for political links and thoughts...twistedchick

So as I mentioned in my last post Master read the Analysis of the 2006 Ballot Proposals - the Blue Book of the Elections. I was confused on a few things that were coming up to vote on.

Domestic Partnerships
The mail ads I have getting for domestic partnership make it really confusing for me. The ads come for a group I tend to usually agree with but the ads kept saying "It's not marriage." And that bothered me. I understand why they were putting it that way. So that maybe those that don't want those of the same sex to get married will at least give them domestic partnership. But just like New Jersey - it isn't marriage. And it bothers me that people won't let those that want to get married - get married. So Master read me the actual referendum and then the pros and cons they print. And of course the cons...and well the pros also did a little too because of just how they worded things. One of the cons that annoyed me......

"Domestic partnerships diminish the significance of marriage for society by reducing marriage to a list of benefits and responsibilities. The benefits given to married couples are intended to support child reading by one man and one woman. The state has an interest in restricting recognition and legal protection to these married couples to provide stability for the individuals, their families and the broader community."

All in all I am not happy that they aren't allowing marriage. And this just seems like it is better then nothing and maybe will make it easier in the future. And so I am of course voting yes on it!

Which brings me to the next one...

Marriage
Another thing up is an amendment that proposes adding a new section about marriage. Basically defining marriage as one man one woman. So you know I was all growly about that one.

And of course one their pro arguments...(rolling eyes and sighing)

"The public has an interest in preserving the commonly accepted definition of marriage. Marriage as an institution has historically consisted of one man and one woman and as such provides the optimal environment for creating, nurturing and protecting children and preserving families."

Grrrrr!

Of course voting no on that one!

Marijuana
Another thing we are voting on here in Colorado is the legalization of the possession of marijuana up to one once for adults 21 years of age or older. Now don't everyone fall of their chair but I have NEVER smoked pot. I had a boyfriend that I have talked about before that did drugs. Not just pot but heavier stuff like cocaine. He turned blue on me a few times. And even though while dating him I saw the effects of pot and knew they were less then when he drank alcohol I still clumped it into the drugs are bad. Seeing him turn blue. Seeing him...get mouth to mouth....seeing him....the way he would get...turned me off of drugs.

So I know you are all thinking wow then she is going to vote no for this one. But nope. As I said I did see him and how he was when he just did pot. And that verse when he drank alcohol or did other illegal drugs were night and day. Pot made him mellow. He still could touch his finger to his nose. He could walk a straight line. But I could tell he was high at the same time.

Also I have seen the effects of pot in someone who has mental illness' - and the prescribed drugs were horrible for her. She suffered and I hated to watch her in such pain. Such pain...horrible pain...made my heart break for her as I didn't know how to help. She has stopped the prescribed drugs and now she does pot at times and I honestly can say I feel it helps her keep more even then any of the prescription drugs did. I know she feels it helps and I can see the difference from a year ago and feel it helps her. Right now Colorado does allow medical marijuana so she might fall under that if she lived in Colorado. But I do know getting that kind of prescription for it is hard.

So I had made up my mind before reading the book that I was saying yes this Amendment.

Then Master reads me the actual amendment. And I still will vote yes but this part bothered me...

It is talking about what the amendment will include...

"It also would include transferring up to one ounce of marijuana to another individual 15 years of age or older as long is there no compensation, although possession of those under 21 would still remain illegal."

Okay why was that added in? I don't get it. I don't get why it is legal to transfer it to someone of 15 but it is illegal for them to possess it. How do they make the distinction between transferring and possession? Anyway it bothers me that it can be "transferred" to someone 15 to 21.


Okay so tomorrow we vote. I am hoping and praying things get better. I have literally been scared and so sad where this country has been heading since Bush has come into office. And I cry and lay at wake at night worrying. And so as I said...hoping and praying.

Wednesday Recap

I can't sleep....

I wanted to comment on bunches of journals and respond to some emails but I am sorry I just don't have the brain power tonight.

Today (wednesday) was a pretty good day...despite that I felt so tired. Master, his parents and I went to breakfast and then they headed back over the mountains to their home. After they left, Master and I had several errands to do. I picked up some Halloween decorations that were 70% off at Kohl's. It felt good to get them...I know that sound strange. And I am not sure I am up for explaining it at the moment. Another one of our errands was an errand...that was hard for me to do but necessary. I had to do it to go forward with my art. And so it brought up lots of what-if I can't make it...or do it insecurities.

Then this evening I made beef stroganoff for dinner. We had a nice bottle of wine and watched Howl's Moving Castle! That is a GREAT movie! I loved it!

Tomorrow I need to:
~ clean my studio
~ laundry
~ call in perscriptions
~ make sure Master's camera is charged and ready for a photo shoot we have on Thursday evening
~ catch up on journals and emails
~ decide what to make for dessert for Sunday (we are having dinner at friend's house and I offered to bring dessert)