Wish I didn't.....

There is a FetLife group for lifestyle blog prompts...

The first question is...."something you have done that you wish you didn't."

I think in life in general we all have those things we wish we didn't do. Not really a regret just moments we cringe at the thought of it. I am not happy how I got into or how I handled some relationships. I do go back and forth with a wish that one relationship I was in didn't happen at all. But if that would have been the case then I wouldn't have met some lovely people. And I know I learned a lot in that time and experience many things I wouldn't have if I hadn't been there.

But as far as actual BDSM type things I wish I haven't done....even the things that were the most painful or degrading don't come to mind as something I wish I hadn't done. BDSM doesn't always equal fun to me. Just because something is hard, beyond pain I thought I could handle or mentally/emotionally hard to handle -- doesn't mean it doesn't turn me on. In fact many of those times -- thinking of them even now make me wet.

In service of course, I have screwed up and done things I wish I didn't but a lot of those things I have moved past and don't even remember what it was that I did before. I now do the thing he likes and that is all that I need to keep focus on.

And of course when these type of questions are asked I can never come up with anything. A month from now I will think of something.