danae

I just was reading an old journal entry the one with this quote in it.....

"I want to fight you, scream at you, feel you push me harder than I ever knew, and strip away everything without mercy until I am begging just to feel you surround me, giving everything up to surrender to you. I want it rough, aggressive and furious, and to be able to fight it with every ounce of strength within me, until I finally feel the serenity come. And then, once the walls have been torn down, to reveal to you what I am, deep down inside in my core, and that I would not have the courage to do otherwise, hiding behind my shield."

And I realized what I need....and actually I think Sir said something like that on Friday......but I guess I could not accept it then.

I need a good cry. Like I had with Moni and Lucar once when they sessioned me to help me cry...that was the purpose of the scene was to help me release some stuff that I was holding in. I needed tears and I knew I needed that release to let go of some of things that I just kept hanging on too.

And right now I feel like that again...

I feel like I need tears.....

peace,
danae