horoscopes for tomorrow....
ummm....hmmmm...
His...SAGITTARIUS (Nov 22–Dec 21): If you thought yesterday’s Full Moon had some power, hold onto your hat! The Sun will be tensely squaring your planet, Jupiter, tomorrow--and it’s already driving you beyond the capabilities of mortal men (and women). But, for a few days, you feel immortal and can take on enormous tasks. You believe you can do anything. The problem is that you are not immortal, and although you can do more than usual, there are limits. Don’t try to go beyond those limits.
mine...LIBRA (Sep 23–Oct 22): Your thoughts of escape drift to faraway places, either in the real world or in realms of fantasy. If someone should challenge one of your dreams, don’t get trapped into thinking you need to defend it. It’s yours. You don’t need to justify your ideas now to anyone--unless you’ve been working on a new project and your boss wants an update. It this case, keep the best stuff to yourself.
Monday, December 08, 2003
No one can die. None can be degraded forever. Life is but a playground, however gross the play may be. However we may receive blows and however knocked about we may be, the Soul is there and is never injured. We are that Infinite. -Vivekananda
This weekend was a long weekend....but I was happy to be able to celebrate Master's birthday with Him. :) As I noted in my last entry Master's parents surprised us with a visit so it was a long weekend having them here with us. They left this morning. Master's parents are very nice and I am happy they were able to celebrate Master's birthday with us. But I do have to say I wish we would have had a little more alone time then we did. :( I was looking forward to a long weekend staying at home - celebrating.
But again it was nice to see Master's parents.
Saturday night was nice....we went to the local parade...the parade of lights. It was fun...I enjoyed seeing all the floats....all the kids singing Christmas Carols and then of course seeing Santa Claus :) There were some very cool lights being displayed in the parade. After the parade we came home and had birthday cake and sang happy birthday to Master. :)
Of course today I just feel kind of down and out of it. A weekend of company just kind of drains me. They really enjoyed my cooking and how I have decorated the house. They seemed to have a really nice time and thanked me many times for all I did for them this weekend....which was very sweet of them.
I got to talk to Moni 2 times on the phone today and also girlie once. It was nice. :) Girlie is sick right now so I am sending her big healthy hugs her way. I thought of Moni and many others lots on Saturday even though it was Master's birthday as it was Carpe Diem's Annual Christmas party and so I was feeling a little sad about missing out on that...but I am very very HAPPY to have been with Master and celebrating His birthday!
Not much else I have to write about right now. Master had a hard time at work. I am wishing there is something I can do to help Him with His stress level, but He keeps assuring me that I am doing everything that I can be to help Him.
I added another link to the side....Wild Heart. I really have enjoyed reading her blogger. She writes about life. And anyone reading me knows that is what I like to read about.
I was thinking of Don again today as I was reading some things I have written about him. I started to think about the time is started to change. And so here is a story of old from when he started to change....
There came a time where Don was changing. He snapped at me more often for things that he normally would not have even said anything or things that were fine one time and the next I would be in trouble for doing it that way or saying it that way. He was distracted, unfocused and acting just different. I found out later he had started gambling and was losing lots of money (his parent's money).
Really there is a moment though that I recall being the start of change in our relationship…
We had been out and came back to the house. Some of his housemates were hanging in the living room. He stopped and talked to some of them. Most of the time I would just stand there and not say anything unless he prompted me too or someone asked me a direct question. Otherwise I was quiet and standing on the outside of them.
He was talking and joking with his housemates and one of them said something….that I don't recall the exact words but it made me laugh. But it was something that was poking fun at Don. He kind of laughed with them. But he did not continue on the conversation with them long after.
When we got to his room, he told me to go run him a bath. I kneeled next to the bathtub giving him a bath. He complained the water was not hot enough. And I apologized. He then complained about not getting his clothes put away after I did his laundry. I apologized. And the list went on and on of things I did not do quite right. I apologized each time….and silently thought, "I need to do better."
I bathed him the whole time he went on with his list of my wrong doings. When I was done washing him, we always talked. He stroked my hair as we talked. He then got quiet and smiled. Before I even knew what was happening, my head was under the water. He was holding me under. I reached up and tried to get his hands away from me. I tried to pull back and he held me in place. I was panicking. He pulled me up and told me things I don't remember exact wording...but mostly things to degrade and humiliate me. He told me I was worthless and not worthy of his time. That I did not deserve him. And then he got to the point of why he was doing what he was doing…he said, "how dare you laugh at me….just a worthless piece of shit"
I did not understand - as I had totally forgot about it, as it was not a big deal to me. I pleaded - pleading for an explanation because I did not understand and I was pushed under again. He would push me under and then pull me up and spit on me and tell me how fucking worthless and stupid I was…and then push me down. Each time I would beg for forgiveness and fight as I was pushed under. There came a point where I just begged for him to forgive me….and not fight it just let him do this to me. Water had been splashed everywhere…I was tired and I was not sure what to do be doing but just kept screaming inside, "please forgive me."
He then told me to suck him. He pushed me under the water onto his hard cock. He fucked my mouth and I was choking with the water and his cock in my mouth. He would rise up above the water and I would catch my breath and then He would push me under again. I felt like it was getting so black in the bright white bathroom. I felt everything starting to quiet and even his words started to fade like he was a million miles away. I felt the darkness raising up from me and giving into it…and of course just then he came and pulled me up out of the water.
He got out of the tub and threw a towel at me and told me to clean up the mess I made. I sat there and cried. And I also sat there and had moments of internal workings saying - get up and leave. But I didn't. I cleaned up the mess. I made sure the bathroom was very clean and neat. I came out to get dressed and he was in bed. I asked to leave and he said yes but first checked the bathroom to make sure it was clean.
I got dressed and left….
I came back the next day...yes I came back....and it was like it never happened. But things started happening more and more....that were not of the ordinary. Things started happening that made me question what I was doing with him...yet I did not leave.
This weekend was a long weekend....but I was happy to be able to celebrate Master's birthday with Him. :) As I noted in my last entry Master's parents surprised us with a visit so it was a long weekend having them here with us. They left this morning. Master's parents are very nice and I am happy they were able to celebrate Master's birthday with us. But I do have to say I wish we would have had a little more alone time then we did. :( I was looking forward to a long weekend staying at home - celebrating.
But again it was nice to see Master's parents.
Saturday night was nice....we went to the local parade...the parade of lights. It was fun...I enjoyed seeing all the floats....all the kids singing Christmas Carols and then of course seeing Santa Claus :) There were some very cool lights being displayed in the parade. After the parade we came home and had birthday cake and sang happy birthday to Master. :)
Of course today I just feel kind of down and out of it. A weekend of company just kind of drains me. They really enjoyed my cooking and how I have decorated the house. They seemed to have a really nice time and thanked me many times for all I did for them this weekend....which was very sweet of them.
I got to talk to Moni 2 times on the phone today and also girlie once. It was nice. :) Girlie is sick right now so I am sending her big healthy hugs her way. I thought of Moni and many others lots on Saturday even though it was Master's birthday as it was Carpe Diem's Annual Christmas party and so I was feeling a little sad about missing out on that...but I am very very HAPPY to have been with Master and celebrating His birthday!
Not much else I have to write about right now. Master had a hard time at work. I am wishing there is something I can do to help Him with His stress level, but He keeps assuring me that I am doing everything that I can be to help Him.
I added another link to the side....Wild Heart. I really have enjoyed reading her blogger. She writes about life. And anyone reading me knows that is what I like to read about.
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I was thinking of Don again today as I was reading some things I have written about him. I started to think about the time is started to change. And so here is a story of old from when he started to change....
There came a time where Don was changing. He snapped at me more often for things that he normally would not have even said anything or things that were fine one time and the next I would be in trouble for doing it that way or saying it that way. He was distracted, unfocused and acting just different. I found out later he had started gambling and was losing lots of money (his parent's money).
Really there is a moment though that I recall being the start of change in our relationship…
We had been out and came back to the house. Some of his housemates were hanging in the living room. He stopped and talked to some of them. Most of the time I would just stand there and not say anything unless he prompted me too or someone asked me a direct question. Otherwise I was quiet and standing on the outside of them.
He was talking and joking with his housemates and one of them said something….that I don't recall the exact words but it made me laugh. But it was something that was poking fun at Don. He kind of laughed with them. But he did not continue on the conversation with them long after.
When we got to his room, he told me to go run him a bath. I kneeled next to the bathtub giving him a bath. He complained the water was not hot enough. And I apologized. He then complained about not getting his clothes put away after I did his laundry. I apologized. And the list went on and on of things I did not do quite right. I apologized each time….and silently thought, "I need to do better."
I bathed him the whole time he went on with his list of my wrong doings. When I was done washing him, we always talked. He stroked my hair as we talked. He then got quiet and smiled. Before I even knew what was happening, my head was under the water. He was holding me under. I reached up and tried to get his hands away from me. I tried to pull back and he held me in place. I was panicking. He pulled me up and told me things I don't remember exact wording...but mostly things to degrade and humiliate me. He told me I was worthless and not worthy of his time. That I did not deserve him. And then he got to the point of why he was doing what he was doing…he said, "how dare you laugh at me….just a worthless piece of shit"
I did not understand - as I had totally forgot about it, as it was not a big deal to me. I pleaded - pleading for an explanation because I did not understand and I was pushed under again. He would push me under and then pull me up and spit on me and tell me how fucking worthless and stupid I was…and then push me down. Each time I would beg for forgiveness and fight as I was pushed under. There came a point where I just begged for him to forgive me….and not fight it just let him do this to me. Water had been splashed everywhere…I was tired and I was not sure what to do be doing but just kept screaming inside, "please forgive me."
He then told me to suck him. He pushed me under the water onto his hard cock. He fucked my mouth and I was choking with the water and his cock in my mouth. He would rise up above the water and I would catch my breath and then He would push me under again. I felt like it was getting so black in the bright white bathroom. I felt everything starting to quiet and even his words started to fade like he was a million miles away. I felt the darkness raising up from me and giving into it…and of course just then he came and pulled me up out of the water.
He got out of the tub and threw a towel at me and told me to clean up the mess I made. I sat there and cried. And I also sat there and had moments of internal workings saying - get up and leave. But I didn't. I cleaned up the mess. I made sure the bathroom was very clean and neat. I came out to get dressed and he was in bed. I asked to leave and he said yes but first checked the bathroom to make sure it was clean.
I got dressed and left….
I came back the next day...yes I came back....and it was like it never happened. But things started happening more and more....that were not of the ordinary. Things started happening that made me question what I was doing with him...yet I did not leave.
Saturday, December 06, 2003
Just a quickie...
This morning I woke up and heard Master's cell phone ringing...I brought it to Him. I came back to ask for a diet coke....where He proceeded to tell me it was His sister on the phone and His parents were on there way here to surprise Him for His birthday.
Thank gawd for His sister....*big hugs to her*
So I immediately was stressed....because I was stressed when my parents gave me 1 1/2 weeks noticen - so to get 2 hours notice....I was STRESSED. Of course Master made it all better...by just giving me a hug and putting all my nervousness away. I am thankful I had gotten everything really done yesterday - because I did not want to do anything this weekend with Master's birthday being Saturday (today now). To add to things today I woke up with a migraine. :( So I had to hurry around doing a sweep to the kitchen floor, doing a once over to the guest bathroom and things like that and trying to make my migraine go away. They arrived when I was just getting ready to get in the shower.
Tonight I threw together sausage with green, yellow and red peppers - spaghetti sauce from the jar - and pasta for dinner plus some brushetta. And then a little ice cream for dessert. Master and His father went up to the liquor store to pick up 2 bottles of wine. They sell wine from our local favorite winery and also had my favorite that has won awards. It is really almost peppery wine. So with the peppers in the sauce over the pasta it really went well together.
Master's parents loved the food and I am thankful...it was the first time I have cooked for them so I was very nervous. Tomorrow night I am making Master's favorite beef stroganoff and then I was going to make a new cake. A flourless chocolate cake, but because His parents showed up I did not want to battle with the altitude and new recipe - so Master told me to make Midnight Bliss because it was something He loves. I just feel like that is the cake I always make when we have a special occasion and it is but it is a good cake.
Well I better sign off and get to bed as Master's parents are early risers. :(
One more thing before posting....
Happy Birthday Master!
I love you very much and hope that you have a VERY Happy Birthday!
This morning I woke up and heard Master's cell phone ringing...I brought it to Him. I came back to ask for a diet coke....where He proceeded to tell me it was His sister on the phone and His parents were on there way here to surprise Him for His birthday.
Thank gawd for His sister....*big hugs to her*
So I immediately was stressed....because I was stressed when my parents gave me 1 1/2 weeks noticen - so to get 2 hours notice....I was STRESSED. Of course Master made it all better...by just giving me a hug and putting all my nervousness away. I am thankful I had gotten everything really done yesterday - because I did not want to do anything this weekend with Master's birthday being Saturday (today now). To add to things today I woke up with a migraine. :( So I had to hurry around doing a sweep to the kitchen floor, doing a once over to the guest bathroom and things like that and trying to make my migraine go away. They arrived when I was just getting ready to get in the shower.
Tonight I threw together sausage with green, yellow and red peppers - spaghetti sauce from the jar - and pasta for dinner plus some brushetta. And then a little ice cream for dessert. Master and His father went up to the liquor store to pick up 2 bottles of wine. They sell wine from our local favorite winery and also had my favorite that has won awards. It is really almost peppery wine. So with the peppers in the sauce over the pasta it really went well together.
Master's parents loved the food and I am thankful...it was the first time I have cooked for them so I was very nervous. Tomorrow night I am making Master's favorite beef stroganoff and then I was going to make a new cake. A flourless chocolate cake, but because His parents showed up I did not want to battle with the altitude and new recipe - so Master told me to make Midnight Bliss because it was something He loves. I just feel like that is the cake I always make when we have a special occasion and it is but it is a good cake.
Well I better sign off and get to bed as Master's parents are early risers. :(
One more thing before posting....
Happy Birthday Master!
I love you very much and hope that you have a VERY Happy Birthday!
Friday, December 05, 2003
Oh I forgot to post....
Last night Master and I were watching Angel. And I missed everything in this new season up until about 2 weeks ago...so last nights was a repeat but a repeat I needed to see because it had important info in it that explained a lot.
Such as Harmony being on the show and how Spike showed up...how Gunn became a lawyer and other odds-n-ends. It was a good episode....called Just Rewards.
One line was really funny to Master and I...
There is a mystic named Spanky that Angel goes to for some information. Spanky has an infinity for spanking (He had a very nice collection of paddles on his wall). Spanky tells Angel that he is not into spanking men and then tries to attack Angel. Angel grabs a big paddle off the wall and says, "well I don't have a problem spanking men!"
It was really fun how he said it! :)
Last night Master and I were watching Angel. And I missed everything in this new season up until about 2 weeks ago...so last nights was a repeat but a repeat I needed to see because it had important info in it that explained a lot.
Such as Harmony being on the show and how Spike showed up...how Gunn became a lawyer and other odds-n-ends. It was a good episode....called Just Rewards.
One line was really funny to Master and I...
There is a mystic named Spanky that Angel goes to for some information. Spanky has an infinity for spanking (He had a very nice collection of paddles on his wall). Spanky tells Angel that he is not into spanking men and then tries to attack Angel. Angel grabs a big paddle off the wall and says, "well I don't have a problem spanking men!"
It was really fun how he said it! :)
Thursday, December 04, 2003
Well I have not written in a few days...I am not sure why I guess just because I have been busy doing other things when I am off/online.
This morning I got a chance to talk to wench. :) And last night I had a pleasant surprise. Not too long ago I tracked down an address for a high school friend that I had lost touch of while living in Ohio. So I had written her just before my parents came to visit and last night the phone rang as I was dressing for Master....and it was her :) It was really good to hear her voice and chat with her. She was always a good friend and I regret letting that friendship slip away while in Ohio. We had a great conversation and she had been trying to track me down also. I am glad we get a chance to renew our friendship.
Then last night Master came home with 2 dozen roses for me last night...roses in every color. One day a while back Master and I saw a bouquet similar to the one He bought me and He said buying something like that might confuse someone because they would not know what they feel - since each color of rose has a meaning. And I said that if they give all colors it means that the person means everything to them. So...I guess I mean everything to Master. :) It was such a surprise to get the roses....not like it was a special occasion...I guess I always get a little surprised when He does nice things for me. I am not sure if I think that I don't deserve it (which I am sure is part of the case) or I just have trouble when He does...not sure. But even though I do appreciate them...they are gorgeous! And I am a very lucky girl to have such a wonderful thoughtful Master!
I am wondering if I am alone in this thought or not...but Master will say something to me and I take it to heart. I believe it. And often even at times when I look back and think He was teasing...it still comes to me as true. If anyone else were to say some of the things He says to me I would say yeah right or blow it off. But if Master says something I take it to heart...I take things so personally with Him. I am not explaining it well maybe it is something I can come back to at another time.
This week I have had the leather hood on 2 times. I know Master has enjoyed it a lot. And that makes me happy. I am able to breath in it so much easier since girlie fixed the holes in it. I am able to keep it on longer and longer each time I wear it. I also was able to wear it for the first time without panicking during sex. Because my breathing gets a little heavy and erratic so it makes it hard to breath out of it and I will at times panic. So last night Master fucked me with it on and I did not panic. :) It went really well and Master enjoyed fucking me with it on. I enjoyed being fucked by Master becuase I like being fucked during my period. I know it might sound a little odd but I love the way it feels. I did not have an orgasm but it felt so good. yummy!
I have added some new links on my favorite blogs: Grumble's who is girlie's Sir. I know them both in the real life. And then Fire Runner. I ran across her journal from the Cunning Linguists Journals site. I have enjoyed her journal for quite sometime and finally got around to writing her tonight to see if I could link to her. I enjoy her journal because she is real. She talks about everyday life things vanilla as well as kinky.
There is probably several others I should write to see if I can list them also. There is at least 5 other people I read at least once a week if not daily that are not listed.
Tonight I was wondering what makes people link to people...which made me think about what makes a person keep coming back to read a journal. I guess the main reason I read journals is either I know the people and love to see what is going on with them. Or if I have never met them I just feel them to be real...they talk about life...vanilla stuff as well as D/s or kinky stuff. Jane Duvall and Heather Corinna were my first experiences with online journals and really it was their journals that inspired me start mine.
I remember once when a few years ago there was this Dominant that was interested in me (before Master obviously). We chatted a few times and all he would ever talk about is BDSM and sex. And so I told him bye bye. He kept messaging me though and I kept kind of putting him off being chit chatty but not overly friendly. One day he was being overly annoying and I said I don't and won't ever want to be his - a little direct and probably a tad rude. And he came back with why wouldn't I want to be his....long story short I told him he only talked about BDSM and sex and I wanted the real deal...a whole package lol *blushing* And so he came back saying that he did not always need to talk about sex and bdsm and proceeded to ask me something vanilla. Two vanilla questions later he asked me what my favorite color was...and I said black and purple. I said that purple has been a favorite color since childhood. I used to wear purple all the time as a child. And he came back with well then when we go to have your nipples pierced you will wear purple hoops through them. He went on to describe the piercing - in very graphic, sexual and BDSM details. So he had about a whole 5 minutes of conversation without mentioning sex and BDSM. *rolls eyes* It was really annoying.
My point is I love sex and S&M and all that yummy stuff, but I like to read about real life too...what people are doing in their day - whether it is cooking, dealing with kids, work, watching tv, going to movies, talking about the last book they read or if it about emotional problems, ups and down in moods, moments of self discovery or whatever....I like the everyday life things.
And the reason I like those things because it makes it real. It means to me that it is a real person writing with real issues, real daily ins and outs of living life.
One to birthday's Master has written in His journal about birthday's....
To me on birthdays you should have some quiet time to embrace the movement of years, to look back on where you've been, and appreciate where you are... in your journey. To have some quiet time to honor the path you have taken because every turn - whether it seemed good or bad has led you to here and now. And that journey may not have been easy all the time so take some quiet time to realize just how amazing you are.
My Mom made birthday's very special for us (my sisters and myself). She celebrated that we were born and how that we should love life and be happy we are here on earth - and how happy she was to have us in her life. So she celebrated our lives on our birthdays. So I like to celebrate birthdays as they are special and meaningful to me. But that does not mean celebrating by having a party necessarily. I have loved birthday parties of the past but some of my favorite birthday's have been spent just with one other person...quiet dinner being with someone I love and care about. But still in celebration and that is what I mean by celebration. I want to acknowlege that that person whose birthday it is...is special and loved - and that I care that they were born on that day. Whether it is through just a simple card or note saying Happy Birthday or a big party...it is a celebration of life....and important special life that I am thankful to have in my life.
This morning I got a chance to talk to wench. :) And last night I had a pleasant surprise. Not too long ago I tracked down an address for a high school friend that I had lost touch of while living in Ohio. So I had written her just before my parents came to visit and last night the phone rang as I was dressing for Master....and it was her :) It was really good to hear her voice and chat with her. She was always a good friend and I regret letting that friendship slip away while in Ohio. We had a great conversation and she had been trying to track me down also. I am glad we get a chance to renew our friendship.
Then last night Master came home with 2 dozen roses for me last night...roses in every color. One day a while back Master and I saw a bouquet similar to the one He bought me and He said buying something like that might confuse someone because they would not know what they feel - since each color of rose has a meaning. And I said that if they give all colors it means that the person means everything to them. So...I guess I mean everything to Master. :) It was such a surprise to get the roses....not like it was a special occasion...I guess I always get a little surprised when He does nice things for me. I am not sure if I think that I don't deserve it (which I am sure is part of the case) or I just have trouble when He does...not sure. But even though I do appreciate them...they are gorgeous! And I am a very lucky girl to have such a wonderful thoughtful Master!
I am wondering if I am alone in this thought or not...but Master will say something to me and I take it to heart. I believe it. And often even at times when I look back and think He was teasing...it still comes to me as true. If anyone else were to say some of the things He says to me I would say yeah right or blow it off. But if Master says something I take it to heart...I take things so personally with Him. I am not explaining it well maybe it is something I can come back to at another time.
This week I have had the leather hood on 2 times. I know Master has enjoyed it a lot. And that makes me happy. I am able to breath in it so much easier since girlie fixed the holes in it. I am able to keep it on longer and longer each time I wear it. I also was able to wear it for the first time without panicking during sex. Because my breathing gets a little heavy and erratic so it makes it hard to breath out of it and I will at times panic. So last night Master fucked me with it on and I did not panic. :) It went really well and Master enjoyed fucking me with it on. I enjoyed being fucked by Master becuase I like being fucked during my period. I know it might sound a little odd but I love the way it feels. I did not have an orgasm but it felt so good. yummy!
I have added some new links on my favorite blogs: Grumble's who is girlie's Sir. I know them both in the real life. And then Fire Runner. I ran across her journal from the Cunning Linguists Journals site. I have enjoyed her journal for quite sometime and finally got around to writing her tonight to see if I could link to her. I enjoy her journal because she is real. She talks about everyday life things vanilla as well as kinky.
There is probably several others I should write to see if I can list them also. There is at least 5 other people I read at least once a week if not daily that are not listed.
Tonight I was wondering what makes people link to people...which made me think about what makes a person keep coming back to read a journal. I guess the main reason I read journals is either I know the people and love to see what is going on with them. Or if I have never met them I just feel them to be real...they talk about life...vanilla stuff as well as D/s or kinky stuff. Jane Duvall and Heather Corinna were my first experiences with online journals and really it was their journals that inspired me start mine.
I remember once when a few years ago there was this Dominant that was interested in me (before Master obviously). We chatted a few times and all he would ever talk about is BDSM and sex. And so I told him bye bye. He kept messaging me though and I kept kind of putting him off being chit chatty but not overly friendly. One day he was being overly annoying and I said I don't and won't ever want to be his - a little direct and probably a tad rude. And he came back with why wouldn't I want to be his....long story short I told him he only talked about BDSM and sex and I wanted the real deal...a whole package lol *blushing* And so he came back saying that he did not always need to talk about sex and bdsm and proceeded to ask me something vanilla. Two vanilla questions later he asked me what my favorite color was...and I said black and purple. I said that purple has been a favorite color since childhood. I used to wear purple all the time as a child. And he came back with well then when we go to have your nipples pierced you will wear purple hoops through them. He went on to describe the piercing - in very graphic, sexual and BDSM details. So he had about a whole 5 minutes of conversation without mentioning sex and BDSM. *rolls eyes* It was really annoying.
My point is I love sex and S&M and all that yummy stuff, but I like to read about real life too...what people are doing in their day - whether it is cooking, dealing with kids, work, watching tv, going to movies, talking about the last book they read or if it about emotional problems, ups and down in moods, moments of self discovery or whatever....I like the everyday life things.
And the reason I like those things because it makes it real. It means to me that it is a real person writing with real issues, real daily ins and outs of living life.
One to birthday's Master has written in His journal about birthday's....
To me on birthdays you should have some quiet time to embrace the movement of years, to look back on where you've been, and appreciate where you are... in your journey. To have some quiet time to honor the path you have taken because every turn - whether it seemed good or bad has led you to here and now. And that journey may not have been easy all the time so take some quiet time to realize just how amazing you are.
My Mom made birthday's very special for us (my sisters and myself). She celebrated that we were born and how that we should love life and be happy we are here on earth - and how happy she was to have us in her life. So she celebrated our lives on our birthdays. So I like to celebrate birthdays as they are special and meaningful to me. But that does not mean celebrating by having a party necessarily. I have loved birthday parties of the past but some of my favorite birthday's have been spent just with one other person...quiet dinner being with someone I love and care about. But still in celebration and that is what I mean by celebration. I want to acknowlege that that person whose birthday it is...is special and loved - and that I care that they were born on that day. Whether it is through just a simple card or note saying Happy Birthday or a big party...it is a celebration of life....and important special life that I am thankful to have in my life.
Sunday, November 30, 2003
A Wonderful Weekend!
I am not even sure where to start because this weekend has been just so incredible.
Master took me to Ouray, Colorado. It is not too far from us and it was a nice getaway for us.
Before we were able to leave for our getaway....we had to make a stop as I had a Christmas present to get for Master. He dropped me off and expected He would be circling the parking lot forever but I went in....got the item and went to a 6 item or less check out. There was a person there getting her receipt as I walked up. I knew Master would be a little bit so I stood inside instead of getting waiting in the cold - because of course I had not bundled up in a scarf or gloves before we left. Soon I saw Master and we were on our way back home to load the car for our trip and do a few other things before we got on our way.
Master put me in a rope harness and then the big metal collar that locks. We loaded the car with a toy bag and our clothing for overnight...said good bye to the kitties and off we went.
As we started into the area the mountains were just so gorgeous. Each time Master brings me to a new place I think this is it...it is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. And this has to have been it......it was so gorgeous. Snow covered mountains, winding roads into a valley where the town was nestled. The town was snow covered with Christmas lights and quaint little shops. But it was also very quiet as it is off season for them and so things were closed up for the winter.
We arrived at our hotel. It was a nice place...the view was so beautiful. After moments of being in the room Master was having me strip for Him as He took pictures (and no...we don't send those pictures out - as I know I would have gotten at least one email if I had not put that in lol). Master got a little (meaning a lot) turned on after watching that and seeing His hard cock pushing up in His jeans of course was making me want His cock in me soooo much! So I begged for Him to fuck me....and well He obliged His girl *blushes* He took me from behind with the rope harness still on. It was very yummy!
So within 15 mins of being in Ouray we were having sex LOL
After we caught our breath, Master took the rope harness off me and the collar....we cleaned up and headed into town. We went into a really neat little store full of just so many unique odds-n-ends - beads, incense, woodcarvings, dreamcatchers, pottery, rattle snake skins, porcupine quills, polished stones, walking sticks and so much more. Master found several incense that He liked - and that thrilled me.
When Master and I were first together I told Him of my love of incense burning and He was not thrilled. He told me He did not like them. Short story long....after burning a few He decided He liked them. So we picked out some that we both liked. They are sitting in a plastic sack on the table in the dining room and when you walk into the hall to go down to the living room on the way to the dining room - you can smell them and they are not even being burnt yet. They are strong but not overpowering. They just smell so good.
After scoping out that store for quite some time (thank goodness Master shops like I do), we headed out to find something to eat. Master did a good description of dinner in His blogger as we had kind of a hard time finding a place as they were all closed for the season.
Right now with the holidays and then with all the financial things that we have had going on - my move here, Master's surgery and a few others things....we are not exactly "rolling" in money. This trip was done because we needed to take it before Dec. 31 because of the points on one of those hotel club cards Master holds. So when the only option for dinner was a steak house...I was regretting not further pressing that I could have brought dinner with us (as we had a microwave and fridge in our dinners). I have problems Master spending money on me for some reason....and it really does not seem to get easier.
But as we sat there...listening to Christmas music...in the candle light....I just was so thankful to be having a nice romantic getaway with Master. It took my breath away just sitting there thinking about how happy I am with Master. Master is such an amazing man. So I sat there thankful that He found me and has given me the life I have searched for....for so long....I have a wonderful Master that I serve...that I am owned by....and that I love and adore. I am very grateful and fortunate.
After dinner, Master and I drove down the street a little way and went past a wonderful old building that had all the Christmas lights and wreathes on it. As we went past it we noticed on one side of the building there were these tall stained glass windows...with more windows above them. And in those windows we spotted a person sitting on a balcony playing a guitar. The room we were looking into was the main dining room. (mind you the pictures on that website do not do it justice as that was when they were doing the remodeling and now it is all finished and so gorgeous). The walls were painted a deep rich burgundy....they looked so spectacular even through the window. Master said one day we will have to go back and eat there. The building inspired Master to take pictures so He parked the car...leaving me there to stay warm....while off He went with camera and tripod to take pictures. While Master was off taking pictures I had little daydreams of coming back to Ouray several times....having many years of fond memories there.
The rest of the evening was hard and intense...leaving us to getting to bed late. We woke in the morning to some more playing before we headed to breakfast and then to check out. Before we headed out of town we stopped at a couple stores one being Ouray Glassworks and Pottery. It is owned by a couple. The husband is a glassblower. And his wife does pottery. We liked both the glass and the pottery featured in the store and ended up buying our first Christmas item together. It is a glass tumbler - that is a highball. It is done in red, white and green and we will use at either a candy dish or a candle holder. It is a really pretty piece of glass. And each year when we take out our Christmas decorations we will remember our getaway to Ouray and our first Christmas together. :)
We also went into a toy store. I was kind of curious to the reason we were....but as soon as we walked in Master made it clear why we were in the store. He asked the clerks as soon as we walked in if they had paperdolls. They really didn't, but they showed up some other items that were close. One being Mary Engelbreit's magnetic "paper" dolls. (which I have quite a few things of Mary Engelbreit's.) Each set had a magnet doll with then clothing. It had a little "scene" to use to play with along with the clothing and doll or the doll has a stand or can be used as a magnet. Daddy bought me the little girl doll named Sophie. She has short red hair and is very cute! I am sure I will enjoy playing with her! *smiles and blushes*
After heading out of Ouray Master told me we would drive through Telluride. And it was equally as beautiful. It was a cute little town where the speed limit throughout the whole town is 15 mph. The main street was lined with Gingerbread looking houses - the old Victorian houses - in assorted candy colors. Then on to all the shops....all looking very nice and well...expensive. We did not stop as we needed to head back and we knew it is someplace we will come back to. The scenery is so incredible.
It is so magical. Just starring off into the mountains climbing up around us puts me into a quiet peaceful state.
When we got home, we unloaded the car and then Master needed to go to work for a little bit. So although I was very tired and wanted to take a nap, I decided to be productive and unpacked, unloaded the dishwasher that I ran before we left and the got dressed in black satin panties, black satin bra and thigh highs. I thought it would be a nice surprise for Master. And He did enjoy it. :) We pretty much - jumped into bed - again :) Master put the gag harness on me and then Master fucked me before leaving me to take a little nap.
It was an amazing weekend. One I will never forget...
The time with Master was so wonderful....I can't even begin to describe the feelings that I associate with the whole weekend. I am truly amazed by the wonderful man I am with....and truly proud to be His girl.
I am not even sure where to start because this weekend has been just so incredible.
Master took me to Ouray, Colorado. It is not too far from us and it was a nice getaway for us.
Before we were able to leave for our getaway....we had to make a stop as I had a Christmas present to get for Master. He dropped me off and expected He would be circling the parking lot forever but I went in....got the item and went to a 6 item or less check out. There was a person there getting her receipt as I walked up. I knew Master would be a little bit so I stood inside instead of getting waiting in the cold - because of course I had not bundled up in a scarf or gloves before we left. Soon I saw Master and we were on our way back home to load the car for our trip and do a few other things before we got on our way.
Master put me in a rope harness and then the big metal collar that locks. We loaded the car with a toy bag and our clothing for overnight...said good bye to the kitties and off we went.
As we started into the area the mountains were just so gorgeous. Each time Master brings me to a new place I think this is it...it is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. And this has to have been it......it was so gorgeous. Snow covered mountains, winding roads into a valley where the town was nestled. The town was snow covered with Christmas lights and quaint little shops. But it was also very quiet as it is off season for them and so things were closed up for the winter.
We arrived at our hotel. It was a nice place...the view was so beautiful. After moments of being in the room Master was having me strip for Him as He took pictures (and no...we don't send those pictures out - as I know I would have gotten at least one email if I had not put that in lol). Master got a little (meaning a lot) turned on after watching that and seeing His hard cock pushing up in His jeans of course was making me want His cock in me soooo much! So I begged for Him to fuck me....and well He obliged His girl *blushes* He took me from behind with the rope harness still on. It was very yummy!
So within 15 mins of being in Ouray we were having sex LOL
After we caught our breath, Master took the rope harness off me and the collar....we cleaned up and headed into town. We went into a really neat little store full of just so many unique odds-n-ends - beads, incense, woodcarvings, dreamcatchers, pottery, rattle snake skins, porcupine quills, polished stones, walking sticks and so much more. Master found several incense that He liked - and that thrilled me.
When Master and I were first together I told Him of my love of incense burning and He was not thrilled. He told me He did not like them. Short story long....after burning a few He decided He liked them. So we picked out some that we both liked. They are sitting in a plastic sack on the table in the dining room and when you walk into the hall to go down to the living room on the way to the dining room - you can smell them and they are not even being burnt yet. They are strong but not overpowering. They just smell so good.
After scoping out that store for quite some time (thank goodness Master shops like I do), we headed out to find something to eat. Master did a good description of dinner in His blogger as we had kind of a hard time finding a place as they were all closed for the season.
Right now with the holidays and then with all the financial things that we have had going on - my move here, Master's surgery and a few others things....we are not exactly "rolling" in money. This trip was done because we needed to take it before Dec. 31 because of the points on one of those hotel club cards Master holds. So when the only option for dinner was a steak house...I was regretting not further pressing that I could have brought dinner with us (as we had a microwave and fridge in our dinners). I have problems Master spending money on me for some reason....and it really does not seem to get easier.
But as we sat there...listening to Christmas music...in the candle light....I just was so thankful to be having a nice romantic getaway with Master. It took my breath away just sitting there thinking about how happy I am with Master. Master is such an amazing man. So I sat there thankful that He found me and has given me the life I have searched for....for so long....I have a wonderful Master that I serve...that I am owned by....and that I love and adore. I am very grateful and fortunate.
After dinner, Master and I drove down the street a little way and went past a wonderful old building that had all the Christmas lights and wreathes on it. As we went past it we noticed on one side of the building there were these tall stained glass windows...with more windows above them. And in those windows we spotted a person sitting on a balcony playing a guitar. The room we were looking into was the main dining room. (mind you the pictures on that website do not do it justice as that was when they were doing the remodeling and now it is all finished and so gorgeous). The walls were painted a deep rich burgundy....they looked so spectacular even through the window. Master said one day we will have to go back and eat there. The building inspired Master to take pictures so He parked the car...leaving me there to stay warm....while off He went with camera and tripod to take pictures. While Master was off taking pictures I had little daydreams of coming back to Ouray several times....having many years of fond memories there.
The rest of the evening was hard and intense...leaving us to getting to bed late. We woke in the morning to some more playing before we headed to breakfast and then to check out. Before we headed out of town we stopped at a couple stores one being Ouray Glassworks and Pottery. It is owned by a couple. The husband is a glassblower. And his wife does pottery. We liked both the glass and the pottery featured in the store and ended up buying our first Christmas item together. It is a glass tumbler - that is a highball. It is done in red, white and green and we will use at either a candy dish or a candle holder. It is a really pretty piece of glass. And each year when we take out our Christmas decorations we will remember our getaway to Ouray and our first Christmas together. :)
We also went into a toy store. I was kind of curious to the reason we were....but as soon as we walked in Master made it clear why we were in the store. He asked the clerks as soon as we walked in if they had paperdolls. They really didn't, but they showed up some other items that were close. One being Mary Engelbreit's magnetic "paper" dolls. (which I have quite a few things of Mary Engelbreit's.) Each set had a magnet doll with then clothing. It had a little "scene" to use to play with along with the clothing and doll or the doll has a stand or can be used as a magnet. Daddy bought me the little girl doll named Sophie. She has short red hair and is very cute! I am sure I will enjoy playing with her! *smiles and blushes*
After heading out of Ouray Master told me we would drive through Telluride. And it was equally as beautiful. It was a cute little town where the speed limit throughout the whole town is 15 mph. The main street was lined with Gingerbread looking houses - the old Victorian houses - in assorted candy colors. Then on to all the shops....all looking very nice and well...expensive. We did not stop as we needed to head back and we knew it is someplace we will come back to. The scenery is so incredible.
It is so magical. Just starring off into the mountains climbing up around us puts me into a quiet peaceful state.
When we got home, we unloaded the car and then Master needed to go to work for a little bit. So although I was very tired and wanted to take a nap, I decided to be productive and unpacked, unloaded the dishwasher that I ran before we left and the got dressed in black satin panties, black satin bra and thigh highs. I thought it would be a nice surprise for Master. And He did enjoy it. :) We pretty much - jumped into bed - again :) Master put the gag harness on me and then Master fucked me before leaving me to take a little nap.
It was an amazing weekend. One I will never forget...
The time with Master was so wonderful....I can't even begin to describe the feelings that I associate with the whole weekend. I am truly amazed by the wonderful man I am with....and truly proud to be His girl.
Thursday, November 27, 2003
Today was SO GREAT!
We got up at 7am. Yes that early! Master has been in a getting up early mode lately. I popped the cinnamon rolls in that I left out rising last night. And then started in on making a pumpkin pie. It turned out a little flatter then they have in the past but of course I am sure it is because of the altitude.
While making the pumpkin pie, my family called. It was nice to chat with them. :) They are still going on and on about Master and how much they like them. My Mom said that she felt He was made for me. :) Then shortly there after Master's parents called.
I finished up the rest of the dinner - getting put in the oven or ready too. We then just kind of relaxed....Master watched football and I looked at all the ads. After everything was ready, Master carved the turkey and I got everything on the table. We had a really great dinner. Before starting to dish things up, Master stopped me so that He could take a picture of the table. He opened a bottle of wine from the local winery that we enjoy. It was just a very nice dinner. Master enjoyed everything so I am glad He had a good Thanksgiving dinner! I know I had a good Thanksgiving dinner with Master. :)
Shortly after dinner Master and I went to the bedroom for some more quality us time. It was a lot of fun and just great to be having such a wonderful time with Master all day.
I also got a chance to talk to wench today. We had a nice conversation. We had some good laughs also - where she messed up the name of SMART Fest. I won't repeat what she said but it was funny!
Master's birthday is next weekend. So with that and Christmas coming up I had been stressing about what can I get Him. Because of course....I don't own anything - money included. I never carry a purse....Master has my license in his wallet always. And Master told me the other night that He would be giving me money to get Him a Christmas present. It is kind of odd. I am not sure how I am dealing with that yet...but I also appreciate it. So of course in one of the ads today I saw that something I wanted to get Him was going to be on sale. So tomorrow I will be going into a store without Master and all alone (which will be kind of weird all on its own) and buy His present.
It is kind of odd for Him to know everything that goes on with His girl and to have this one little secret. He has been pretty good about not pushing me to tell Him what it is because He knows I would tell Him if He told me too. But He has been teasing pretty good. Like tonight He asked me what time the store opened in the morning and I said I was not sure. He said look at that ad. So that He could see what ad it was that I was looking at and try to figure it out. He was just teasing. But His girl was quick anyway and so instead of going and pulling that ad out I went through all the ads again LOL He then asked me what time it opened. I said 6am. He said okay I will pull all the ads that say 6am I said go for it...knowing pratically all of them said 6am. He replied, "most of them say 6am." I smiled and nodded. :) So when we get in the car tomorrow I will tell Him where I need to go LOL
My horoscope for tomorrow....
LIBRA (Sep 23–Oct 22): If you felt a change for the better yesterday--especially within your emotional landscape--today could be even better yet. It’s like you’ve grabbed onto a kite and are being pulled up into the big blue sky. Your breadth of vision is wide. Your view of the future extends weeks, months or more. The “Force” most assuredly is with you now.
Okay going to go read Master's journal and then head to bed....
It was a very good Thanksgiving day...I love Master very much and am so grateful to be His....to be here with Him enjoying life!
We got up at 7am. Yes that early! Master has been in a getting up early mode lately. I popped the cinnamon rolls in that I left out rising last night. And then started in on making a pumpkin pie. It turned out a little flatter then they have in the past but of course I am sure it is because of the altitude.
While making the pumpkin pie, my family called. It was nice to chat with them. :) They are still going on and on about Master and how much they like them. My Mom said that she felt He was made for me. :) Then shortly there after Master's parents called.
I finished up the rest of the dinner - getting put in the oven or ready too. We then just kind of relaxed....Master watched football and I looked at all the ads. After everything was ready, Master carved the turkey and I got everything on the table. We had a really great dinner. Before starting to dish things up, Master stopped me so that He could take a picture of the table. He opened a bottle of wine from the local winery that we enjoy. It was just a very nice dinner. Master enjoyed everything so I am glad He had a good Thanksgiving dinner! I know I had a good Thanksgiving dinner with Master. :)
Shortly after dinner Master and I went to the bedroom for some more quality us time. It was a lot of fun and just great to be having such a wonderful time with Master all day.
I also got a chance to talk to wench today. We had a nice conversation. We had some good laughs also - where she messed up the name of SMART Fest. I won't repeat what she said but it was funny!
Master's birthday is next weekend. So with that and Christmas coming up I had been stressing about what can I get Him. Because of course....I don't own anything - money included. I never carry a purse....Master has my license in his wallet always. And Master told me the other night that He would be giving me money to get Him a Christmas present. It is kind of odd. I am not sure how I am dealing with that yet...but I also appreciate it. So of course in one of the ads today I saw that something I wanted to get Him was going to be on sale. So tomorrow I will be going into a store without Master and all alone (which will be kind of weird all on its own) and buy His present.
It is kind of odd for Him to know everything that goes on with His girl and to have this one little secret. He has been pretty good about not pushing me to tell Him what it is because He knows I would tell Him if He told me too. But He has been teasing pretty good. Like tonight He asked me what time the store opened in the morning and I said I was not sure. He said look at that ad. So that He could see what ad it was that I was looking at and try to figure it out. He was just teasing. But His girl was quick anyway and so instead of going and pulling that ad out I went through all the ads again LOL He then asked me what time it opened. I said 6am. He said okay I will pull all the ads that say 6am I said go for it...knowing pratically all of them said 6am. He replied, "most of them say 6am." I smiled and nodded. :) So when we get in the car tomorrow I will tell Him where I need to go LOL
My horoscope for tomorrow....
LIBRA (Sep 23–Oct 22): If you felt a change for the better yesterday--especially within your emotional landscape--today could be even better yet. It’s like you’ve grabbed onto a kite and are being pulled up into the big blue sky. Your breadth of vision is wide. Your view of the future extends weeks, months or more. The “Force” most assuredly is with you now.
Okay going to go read Master's journal and then head to bed....
It was a very good Thanksgiving day...I love Master very much and am so grateful to be His....to be here with Him enjoying life!
Wednesday, November 26, 2003
The last few days have been really nice...
I am not sure I am going to explain this well...
But I am enjoying quality time with Master. When He has come home from lunch the last few days He has not turned the TV on, but instead sat and talked with me. And I enjoy it so much. Just Him and I spending time talking. He also the last few days has been more affectionate not only with touches, hugs and kisses but words. And it has made me feel so good.
I also have been pretty productive this week. Monday was very productive and got everything done on my list by the end of His lunch hour, so Master allowed me to be online all afternoon. Tuesday I woke up with a migraine - either premenstrual migraine or just lack of sleep as I had nightmares all night long and just had trouble getting back to sleep after them. But I still got almost everything done on my list for Tuesday. Today I was productive too. Master left a little early for work and I just started in and was almost all done with everything on my daily list - by 10:30am.
Master was able to get off work at 3pm today and so came to get me - because unfortunately we needed to do Thanksgiving Feast shopping. :( Well, as Master got close to home it started to snow. By the time were at Wal-Mart the snow was really coming down. When we walked into Wal-Mart from the parking lot, we were covered in snow!
It had not been snowing that hard or even snowing when most people went into Wal-Mart so when Master and I walked in were starred at and everyone was commenting on the snow. I saw people that did not have coats on - with kids that did not coats either and so I am sure they were really surprised to walk out in to the COLD WET SNOW!
Tonight I tried to make something new....Asiago Cream Sauce....like an Alfredo but with Asiago. I added chicken and served it over penne. I also made Brushetta. Master had never had it and when I described it - I know He was a little leery but He is really good about trying the new things I make. And He loved it. It did turn out pretty good except I think I did too much oil...the bread after sitting a little while got a little soggy. But still tasted really good. I love brushetta!
I have been doing a happy dance because Master is off for the next 4 days. :) I am looking forward to my time with Him!
Sunday night Master and I were watching some movies....The Transporter and Femme Fatale. The Transporter did not have very good acting or anything, but seeing a girl tied up and gagged with duct tape for a lot of the movie was kind of nice LOL :) The lead male in it was also pretty good looking. Then Femme Fatale was just weird lol I did not like that twist in it.
After the movies, we were sitting there and Master reached over and started slapping and punching my breasts and pinching my nipples over my sweater....so moving to the sweater being pushed up and slapping and punching my bare breasts. He also was pinching and pulling my bare nipples - it felt like He was going to pull them right off.
We then moved to the bedroom where Master fucked me with the hood. On then afterwards He played with my breasts and cunt for a while...until I had several very intense orgasms.
We both slept very well. I zonked out until my 4am nightmare. But until then I slept soundly! :) It was just hard to get back to sleep.
I wished Monday morning that Master did not have to go to work. It is hard to have Him home all weekend and then see Him have to go to work - but I know it is a necessary evil. I was glad to see Him when He came home for lunch...but He made me wear the gold suit *icky* It is a very shiny gold bodysuit thing that fits snuggly around my body and I don't like it. But it made Him very happy...and that is GOOD :)
Last year at this time Master and I had just started chatting a week before...
I remember chatting with Him ALL day on Thanksgiving. It was so nice.
And this year I will be cooking Him a Thanksgiving Feast made with love for my wonderful Master. :)
I have a lot to be thankful for this Thanksgiving! :)
I am not sure I am going to explain this well...
But I am enjoying quality time with Master. When He has come home from lunch the last few days He has not turned the TV on, but instead sat and talked with me. And I enjoy it so much. Just Him and I spending time talking. He also the last few days has been more affectionate not only with touches, hugs and kisses but words. And it has made me feel so good.
I also have been pretty productive this week. Monday was very productive and got everything done on my list by the end of His lunch hour, so Master allowed me to be online all afternoon. Tuesday I woke up with a migraine - either premenstrual migraine or just lack of sleep as I had nightmares all night long and just had trouble getting back to sleep after them. But I still got almost everything done on my list for Tuesday. Today I was productive too. Master left a little early for work and I just started in and was almost all done with everything on my daily list - by 10:30am.
Master was able to get off work at 3pm today and so came to get me - because unfortunately we needed to do Thanksgiving Feast shopping. :( Well, as Master got close to home it started to snow. By the time were at Wal-Mart the snow was really coming down. When we walked into Wal-Mart from the parking lot, we were covered in snow!
It had not been snowing that hard or even snowing when most people went into Wal-Mart so when Master and I walked in were starred at and everyone was commenting on the snow. I saw people that did not have coats on - with kids that did not coats either and so I am sure they were really surprised to walk out in to the COLD WET SNOW!
Tonight I tried to make something new....Asiago Cream Sauce....like an Alfredo but with Asiago. I added chicken and served it over penne. I also made Brushetta. Master had never had it and when I described it - I know He was a little leery but He is really good about trying the new things I make. And He loved it. It did turn out pretty good except I think I did too much oil...the bread after sitting a little while got a little soggy. But still tasted really good. I love brushetta!
I have been doing a happy dance because Master is off for the next 4 days. :) I am looking forward to my time with Him!
Sunday night Master and I were watching some movies....The Transporter and Femme Fatale. The Transporter did not have very good acting or anything, but seeing a girl tied up and gagged with duct tape for a lot of the movie was kind of nice LOL :) The lead male in it was also pretty good looking. Then Femme Fatale was just weird lol I did not like that twist in it.
After the movies, we were sitting there and Master reached over and started slapping and punching my breasts and pinching my nipples over my sweater....so moving to the sweater being pushed up and slapping and punching my bare breasts. He also was pinching and pulling my bare nipples - it felt like He was going to pull them right off.
We then moved to the bedroom where Master fucked me with the hood. On then afterwards He played with my breasts and cunt for a while...until I had several very intense orgasms.
We both slept very well. I zonked out until my 4am nightmare. But until then I slept soundly! :) It was just hard to get back to sleep.
I wished Monday morning that Master did not have to go to work. It is hard to have Him home all weekend and then see Him have to go to work - but I know it is a necessary evil. I was glad to see Him when He came home for lunch...but He made me wear the gold suit *icky* It is a very shiny gold bodysuit thing that fits snuggly around my body and I don't like it. But it made Him very happy...and that is GOOD :)
Last year at this time Master and I had just started chatting a week before...
I remember chatting with Him ALL day on Thanksgiving. It was so nice.
And this year I will be cooking Him a Thanksgiving Feast made with love for my wonderful Master. :)
I have a lot to be thankful for this Thanksgiving! :)
Tuesday, November 25, 2003
Here is the results to The Fetish Quiz...that I got via Soulhuntre's Weblog
~ You have no preference for one sex or another. You tend to be submissive. This will impact the interpretation of your various sexual interests.
~ Clothing is an important part of your sexual fantasies. Materials like latex, vinyl, and leather probably excite you a great deal.
~ Possibly left over from your childhood experiences is your interest in spanking. You enjoy the feeling of being slapped, and the burning feeling afterwards. Spanking is not child's play to you. It holds a deep place in your fantasies.
~ You enjoy the feeling of being restrained during sex play ... being completely immobile and helpless is a turn on in a big way. You probably have quite a collection of bondage gear ready to use right now.
~ You enjoy being humiliated. The thought of humiliation strongly appeals to you, though you may not know why.
~ You enjoy the sensations of various toys on your body. Your interest in sensations can be light or it can get bloody hard -- literally. But you enjoy it all the same.
~ Anal stimulation is a strong source of interst for you. You enjoy the feeling of someone inserting an object into your rectum -- there are a wide variety of toys you fantasize about, ranging from butt plugs to enemas.
~ You become aroused when you reveal information about yourself, or perform a sex act in a public or semi-public setting.
~ Pretending to be a patient is your thing. You enjoy the thought of being examined. You are turned on by the snap of latex gloves, syringes, enemas, and the whole works. Medical play holds a strong interest for you
~ There are certain objects that possess a more-than-natural meaning for you. These may be everyday items, or more specialized sex-related items -- but the end result is the same: just having them around is enough to make you quite perky.
~ Strangers fascinate and interest you, and many of your fantasies either involve strangers or are in their presence. You secretly have a desire to have a sexual encounter with someone you don't know, and with whom you don't consent to have sex. The concept of unwilling partners turns you on. You tend to enjoy sexual activities in groups, such as threesomes or orgies.
~ You enjoy playing with gags. Specifically, being forced to wear one.
~ You enjoy urine play. This may include catheter play, or one of you urinating on the other according to your partner's wishes.
~ Some of your fantasies involve sexual acts with animals.
~ You may enjoy thoughts of your sexual partner inserting a hand or fist into your body.
~ What else can be said? You enjoy getting yourself off. Don't we all?
~ You enjoy your sexual partner regulating your breathing. You are turned on when you can not control this most basic human function.
Dominant (0%)
Submissive (100%)
Voyeurism (50%)
Clothing (50%)
Feet (0%)
Spanking (100%)
Bondage (100%)
Humiliation (86%)
Sensation (75%)
Anal (75%)
Exhibitionism (80%)
Sleep (43%)
Medical (57%)
Training (50%)
Food (0%)
Bodyfluids (57%)
Roleplaying (50%)
Oral (50%)
Objects (80%)
Strangers (75%)
Rape (75%)
Groups (100%)
Gagging (75%)
Watersports (60%)
Crushing (20%)
Bestiality (67%)
Fisting (80%)
Finger sucking (0%)
Toe sucking (0%)
Masturbation (67%)
Asphyxiation (75%)
~ You have no preference for one sex or another. You tend to be submissive. This will impact the interpretation of your various sexual interests.
~ Clothing is an important part of your sexual fantasies. Materials like latex, vinyl, and leather probably excite you a great deal.
~ Possibly left over from your childhood experiences is your interest in spanking. You enjoy the feeling of being slapped, and the burning feeling afterwards. Spanking is not child's play to you. It holds a deep place in your fantasies.
~ You enjoy the feeling of being restrained during sex play ... being completely immobile and helpless is a turn on in a big way. You probably have quite a collection of bondage gear ready to use right now.
~ You enjoy being humiliated. The thought of humiliation strongly appeals to you, though you may not know why.
~ You enjoy the sensations of various toys on your body. Your interest in sensations can be light or it can get bloody hard -- literally. But you enjoy it all the same.
~ Anal stimulation is a strong source of interst for you. You enjoy the feeling of someone inserting an object into your rectum -- there are a wide variety of toys you fantasize about, ranging from butt plugs to enemas.
~ You become aroused when you reveal information about yourself, or perform a sex act in a public or semi-public setting.
~ Pretending to be a patient is your thing. You enjoy the thought of being examined. You are turned on by the snap of latex gloves, syringes, enemas, and the whole works. Medical play holds a strong interest for you
~ There are certain objects that possess a more-than-natural meaning for you. These may be everyday items, or more specialized sex-related items -- but the end result is the same: just having them around is enough to make you quite perky.
~ Strangers fascinate and interest you, and many of your fantasies either involve strangers or are in their presence. You secretly have a desire to have a sexual encounter with someone you don't know, and with whom you don't consent to have sex. The concept of unwilling partners turns you on. You tend to enjoy sexual activities in groups, such as threesomes or orgies.
~ You enjoy playing with gags. Specifically, being forced to wear one.
~ You enjoy urine play. This may include catheter play, or one of you urinating on the other according to your partner's wishes.
~ Some of your fantasies involve sexual acts with animals.
~ You may enjoy thoughts of your sexual partner inserting a hand or fist into your body.
~ What else can be said? You enjoy getting yourself off. Don't we all?
~ You enjoy your sexual partner regulating your breathing. You are turned on when you can not control this most basic human function.
Dominant (0%)
Submissive (100%)
Voyeurism (50%)
Clothing (50%)
Feet (0%)
Spanking (100%)
Bondage (100%)
Humiliation (86%)
Sensation (75%)
Anal (75%)
Exhibitionism (80%)
Sleep (43%)
Medical (57%)
Training (50%)
Food (0%)
Bodyfluids (57%)
Roleplaying (50%)
Oral (50%)
Objects (80%)
Strangers (75%)
Rape (75%)
Groups (100%)
Gagging (75%)
Watersports (60%)
Crushing (20%)
Bestiality (67%)
Fisting (80%)
Finger sucking (0%)
Toe sucking (0%)
Masturbation (67%)
Asphyxiation (75%)
Sunday, November 23, 2003
FIRSTS:
First job: Babysitting and then first "real job" was at Valentino's Pizza Restaurant
First screen name: it had my "real" name and my ex-husbands name. The 2nd was Moonaura
First self-purchased album: The Kink's - Destroyer
First funeral: My Grandpa's when I was 17
First piercing/tattoo: I got my ears pierced when I was around 12
First credit card: JCPenny card
First true love: Morgan
First enemy: Uncle
First big trip: Moving from North Dakota to Texas - but I don't remember it at all I was less then 1 year
First concert: Adam Ant
First musician you remember hearing in your house: hmm I don't know about that...my Mom and Dad both like music and played it lots. I do remember the Carpenters but I also remember Meatloaf...and so many others.
LASTS:
Last big car ride: I guess BIG car ride would be the one Master and I made to Ohio.
Last kiss: From Master :)
Last library book: hmm library book....I think Anthem by Ayn Rand many many many years ago - borrow or buy books so much more now then I used too
Last movie seen: Matrix Revolution
Last beverage drank: Diet Coke
Last food consumed: a cookie....but Master calls them Orgasm cookies because He feels they are that good. I think they are well good but not as good as an orgasm. I would rather have an orgasm over an orgasm cookie anyday...everday...all the time LOL
Last phone call: girlie called me Friday night :)
Last cd played: Ottmar Liebert
Last annoyance: well how I have been feeling this week....lol... but the last was I burned some sausage for the pizza
Last soda drank: Diet Coke
Last ice cream eaten: vanilla cones from Micky D's
Last time scolded: I can't remember for sure but on our way into Sam's Friday night I said something very much with a smart ass attitude and Master said something about it...but it was more playful between us then scolding.
Last shirt worn: a blue long sleeve polo type shirt that is warm because it is COLD.
Last Web site visited: Vamp's Journal where I got this "fluff" as she called it. :)
First job: Babysitting and then first "real job" was at Valentino's Pizza Restaurant
First screen name: it had my "real" name and my ex-husbands name. The 2nd was Moonaura
First self-purchased album: The Kink's - Destroyer
First funeral: My Grandpa's when I was 17
First piercing/tattoo: I got my ears pierced when I was around 12
First credit card: JCPenny card
First true love: Morgan
First enemy: Uncle
First big trip: Moving from North Dakota to Texas - but I don't remember it at all I was less then 1 year
First concert: Adam Ant
First musician you remember hearing in your house: hmm I don't know about that...my Mom and Dad both like music and played it lots. I do remember the Carpenters but I also remember Meatloaf...and so many others.
LASTS:
Last big car ride: I guess BIG car ride would be the one Master and I made to Ohio.
Last kiss: From Master :)
Last library book: hmm library book....I think Anthem by Ayn Rand many many many years ago - borrow or buy books so much more now then I used too
Last movie seen: Matrix Revolution
Last beverage drank: Diet Coke
Last food consumed: a cookie....but Master calls them Orgasm cookies because He feels they are that good. I think they are well good but not as good as an orgasm. I would rather have an orgasm over an orgasm cookie anyday...everday...all the time LOL
Last phone call: girlie called me Friday night :)
Last cd played: Ottmar Liebert
Last annoyance: well how I have been feeling this week....lol... but the last was I burned some sausage for the pizza
Last soda drank: Diet Coke
Last ice cream eaten: vanilla cones from Micky D's
Last time scolded: I can't remember for sure but on our way into Sam's Friday night I said something very much with a smart ass attitude and Master said something about it...but it was more playful between us then scolding.
Last shirt worn: a blue long sleeve polo type shirt that is warm because it is COLD.
Last Web site visited: Vamp's Journal where I got this "fluff" as she called it. :)
Saturday, November 22, 2003
Let it Snow Let it Snow Let it Snow...
We woke up this morning with it snowing BIG snowflakes. The cats watched from the window with wonder. C2 would put her paw up to the window trying to catch them. Master went out and brought in a handful of snow and put it on the entry tiles for them to explore but when they got near they went okay not for us...cold and wet! LOL
Today my patience seems null and void.
I feel all great one moment but then the next I feel near tears and ready to snap. :(
I wonder why so many things are getting to me this week.
The other night Master asked me if I was upset about something and if I was I needed to be talking to Him. His tone was of frustration. He asked if I was holding something against him because that is what it felt like….I was surprised but not at the same time. I guess most of the time things that upset me I am able to let go of easier then I have the last week and so they are affecting me more outwardly right now because I can't let go of them. And so it may seem I am holding things against Him when in fact I am just trying to deal with things.
Things are so different in a vanilla relationship…when with Jim I do many of the things I do now…I keep house, I have dinner waiting, I tried to dress nice, I tried to be pleasing and so on. I do these things for Master - exception is….when I had an off day with Jim...I would tell Jim sorry….and not feel bad about it because we were husband and wife and not Master/slave. Now I am a slave and so basically I just do what is expected of me even when I am not feeling like it.
It is a rare occasion when I don't….do what is expected of me (with permission).
An example of sorts….
Last month I had a pretty bad migraine that lasted 2 days. And I was sleeping lots because it was bad. So my usual times of getting ready for Master before He came home did not happen. And Master said a week later "well you have not been dressing for me much." I went back and recalled the nights and came up with those 2 nights.
It hurt my feelings and I felt like a horrible slave for missing 2 days out of a month. I also was upset because it was 2 nights out almost the whole time I had been with Him when I thought back. It bothered me that He would think that is not dressing for Him much. But I did not say anything. I just had to deal. If Jim had said that to me, I would have said something back about dressing for * him * every night. But I did not say anything to Master and just tried to deal.
But here in lies the problem because for me to deal...I just kind of get quiet because if I open my mouth I am scared I will screw up again, do something that will not please Him more and I don't like the thought of displeasing Him.
I also know that sometimes Master interprets me sulking or pouting in these moments when I am really more in fear of doing something wrong and displeasing Him further.
And so I have been quiet on and off this past week because I just get upset by things that I normally wouldn't and so to deal I just try to be quiet and let it pass. But it also is not passing very quickly.
It almost feels like PMS but it would mean that I am early.
Well I better sign off and make pizza....
Tonight Tristan Taormino is going to be on Real Sex on HBO. We saw her speak at Thunder in the Mountains in July. I really liked her...she was just really funny and open. And gave very good informative information. We saw her speak on Enemas. Master gives me enemas and at that time we were pretty new to doing them so it was good to hear all her tips and information on the subject.
"November 22, 11:00 pm, Am I Good In Bed? Real Sex 31 (HBO - EAST) The debut of my segment all about anal sex on HBO - don't miss it!"
We woke up this morning with it snowing BIG snowflakes. The cats watched from the window with wonder. C2 would put her paw up to the window trying to catch them. Master went out and brought in a handful of snow and put it on the entry tiles for them to explore but when they got near they went okay not for us...cold and wet! LOL
Today my patience seems null and void.
I feel all great one moment but then the next I feel near tears and ready to snap. :(
I wonder why so many things are getting to me this week.
The other night Master asked me if I was upset about something and if I was I needed to be talking to Him. His tone was of frustration. He asked if I was holding something against him because that is what it felt like….I was surprised but not at the same time. I guess most of the time things that upset me I am able to let go of easier then I have the last week and so they are affecting me more outwardly right now because I can't let go of them. And so it may seem I am holding things against Him when in fact I am just trying to deal with things.
Things are so different in a vanilla relationship…when with Jim I do many of the things I do now…I keep house, I have dinner waiting, I tried to dress nice, I tried to be pleasing and so on. I do these things for Master - exception is….when I had an off day with Jim...I would tell Jim sorry….and not feel bad about it because we were husband and wife and not Master/slave. Now I am a slave and so basically I just do what is expected of me even when I am not feeling like it.
It is a rare occasion when I don't….do what is expected of me (with permission).
An example of sorts….
Last month I had a pretty bad migraine that lasted 2 days. And I was sleeping lots because it was bad. So my usual times of getting ready for Master before He came home did not happen. And Master said a week later "well you have not been dressing for me much." I went back and recalled the nights and came up with those 2 nights.
It hurt my feelings and I felt like a horrible slave for missing 2 days out of a month. I also was upset because it was 2 nights out almost the whole time I had been with Him when I thought back. It bothered me that He would think that is not dressing for Him much. But I did not say anything. I just had to deal. If Jim had said that to me, I would have said something back about dressing for * him * every night. But I did not say anything to Master and just tried to deal.
But here in lies the problem because for me to deal...I just kind of get quiet because if I open my mouth I am scared I will screw up again, do something that will not please Him more and I don't like the thought of displeasing Him.
I also know that sometimes Master interprets me sulking or pouting in these moments when I am really more in fear of doing something wrong and displeasing Him further.
And so I have been quiet on and off this past week because I just get upset by things that I normally wouldn't and so to deal I just try to be quiet and let it pass. But it also is not passing very quickly.
It almost feels like PMS but it would mean that I am early.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~ ~*~*~*~*~*~*~ ~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Well I better sign off and make pizza....
Tonight Tristan Taormino is going to be on Real Sex on HBO. We saw her speak at Thunder in the Mountains in July. I really liked her...she was just really funny and open. And gave very good informative information. We saw her speak on Enemas. Master gives me enemas and at that time we were pretty new to doing them so it was good to hear all her tips and information on the subject.
"November 22, 11:00 pm, Am I Good In Bed? Real Sex 31 (HBO - EAST) The debut of my segment all about anal sex on HBO - don't miss it!"
Oh so good and so true....it is how i feel...she describes it of course...perfectly...
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slave marsha on living in a Master/slave relationship
Friday, November 21, 2003
Music: watching what not to wear on TLC
Mood: Perky
Topic: Various Topics
Saturday's Horoscope...
His...SAGITTARIUS (Nov 22–Dec 21): It’s your time of year! The Sun will be spending the next four weeks in your sign. It’s your astrological birthday month! This is the time for you to practice wishcraft. Don’t wait until your birthday to light candles and make a wish. Do it every day. But don’t waste your wishes by asking for more than you really need. Keep it in balance and your prayers will be answered.
mine...LIBRA (Sep 23–Oct 22): The intensity is heating up, but you have a detached outlook that can help you through this situation. Try not to get caught up in a battle that isn’t yours. On the other hand, if others are stepping on your values, you’ll probably want to defend your point of view. Just don’t blow things totally out of proportion.
Yesterday I was waiting for Master to get home. Dressed in Nude Control Top Pantyhose (something Master likes) and then a purple satin and lace nightie.
I was just looking at a catalog we get in the mail. It is a "discount healthcare" catalog (not sure how a counter top dishwasher is a healthcare item LOL). It is one of those likes Harriet Carter - that has lots of little things that will "enhance" your life - those can't live without them items LOL
Anyway, this one I always actually get a little titillated looking at because…well some of the things make me think of things that turn me on LOL They have some very ugly looking panties, bras and socks that make me think of Master. He likes that things like that would humiliate me because I think they are ugly and would never "want" to ever wear anything like it.
And then….there are other items that feed into my desires of wetting on myself….
One being plastic panties for a good price…there are other little items that play into too that they have…in that little catalog. *blushing*
I have this theory that I am not sure if I have written about here but have written in my private journal a couple times. It is being brought up again and now here because lately it is coming up again. The topic…women and high sex drives. Several friends online and real life have been talking about they have much higher sex drive then their male partners.
You always hear about after a man gets in a committed relationship that the sex disappears….and my theory is that it is the men who are not "putting out." It is the men…not being interested in sex with their partner anymore. I think men like the pursuit…the hunt and then after they got it...they might care and love the person they are with, but they are not interested in sex with that person anymore because they already hunted that partner.
So the women are there willing, but their male partner has had their sex drive with that female die down…unfortunately.
I am not saying this is a fact or true. It is just something that seems to be what I experience or seen happen a lot around me.
Hiijab (veil)
This is something I have never revealed before…
And am admitting it because of a journal I read…(she will know who she is -smiles-)
I did lots of research once upon a time about the Muslim faith - as I had someone I was interested in who was Muslim. But long before I did that research I had a fascination with the veiled women. I liked the idea of being hidden. There is a sacredness with the rituals....in the rituals that I have with Master...and so wearing a veil would add to that sacredness. It seems graceful and quiet…that is not the word I want but I can't find the right word right now. The women stand out in the veil yet in a very quiet beautiful way. I like the idea of begin a wrapped up package that only my Master sees. I love the idea of modesty - covered, the femininity of my hair and make up taken away. But then I also like the idea of being slutty and dressing that way. So of course I have likes on both sides of my Libra scale.
Why do I like things from both ends of the scale.
I want to be this totally sexual being and I want to be denied.
I want to have friends and be social and I want be cut off.
I want to be treated like a princess and I want to be treated like nothing.
I want to dress sexy and I want to be veiled and covered.
I want humiliation and I want tenderness and understanding.
I want to soft kisses and a romantic night and I want to raped, beaten and used.
I want to pampered and I want to be on the floor eating out of a dog dish while covered in piss and cum.
Master has written about that He has a lot of sadistic thoughts but He is not sure about posting them...I think He should post them *smiles*
Tonight Master was in a bad mood when He came home...and it was understandable. We went out to get groceries and by the time we came home Master was in a better mood. I started to get undressed...no I was undressed and He made me put my bra back on. He motioned for me to come to His side of the bed and I stood there while He just fondled my breasts. He liked the feel of the bra. Before I knew it....we were having sex. mmmmmmmmmmmmm :) Our groceries were not even put away yet....isn't that cool...just spontaneous sex.....so yummy!
Okay going to finish watching What Not to Wear...and eating M&M's :)
Life is like a mirror. If you frown at it, it frowns back. If you smile at it, it returns the greeting. - Herbert Samuels
Mood: Perky
Topic: Various Topics
Saturday's Horoscope...
His...SAGITTARIUS (Nov 22–Dec 21): It’s your time of year! The Sun will be spending the next four weeks in your sign. It’s your astrological birthday month! This is the time for you to practice wishcraft. Don’t wait until your birthday to light candles and make a wish. Do it every day. But don’t waste your wishes by asking for more than you really need. Keep it in balance and your prayers will be answered.
mine...LIBRA (Sep 23–Oct 22): The intensity is heating up, but you have a detached outlook that can help you through this situation. Try not to get caught up in a battle that isn’t yours. On the other hand, if others are stepping on your values, you’ll probably want to defend your point of view. Just don’t blow things totally out of proportion.
+++++++
Yesterday I was waiting for Master to get home. Dressed in Nude Control Top Pantyhose (something Master likes) and then a purple satin and lace nightie.
I was just looking at a catalog we get in the mail. It is a "discount healthcare" catalog (not sure how a counter top dishwasher is a healthcare item LOL). It is one of those likes Harriet Carter - that has lots of little things that will "enhance" your life - those can't live without them items LOL
Anyway, this one I always actually get a little titillated looking at because…well some of the things make me think of things that turn me on LOL They have some very ugly looking panties, bras and socks that make me think of Master. He likes that things like that would humiliate me because I think they are ugly and would never "want" to ever wear anything like it.
And then….there are other items that feed into my desires of wetting on myself….
One being plastic panties for a good price…there are other little items that play into too that they have…in that little catalog. *blushing*
+++++++
I have this theory that I am not sure if I have written about here but have written in my private journal a couple times. It is being brought up again and now here because lately it is coming up again. The topic…women and high sex drives. Several friends online and real life have been talking about they have much higher sex drive then their male partners.
You always hear about after a man gets in a committed relationship that the sex disappears….and my theory is that it is the men who are not "putting out." It is the men…not being interested in sex with their partner anymore. I think men like the pursuit…the hunt and then after they got it...they might care and love the person they are with, but they are not interested in sex with that person anymore because they already hunted that partner.
So the women are there willing, but their male partner has had their sex drive with that female die down…unfortunately.
I am not saying this is a fact or true. It is just something that seems to be what I experience or seen happen a lot around me.
+++++++
Hiijab (veil)
This is something I have never revealed before…
And am admitting it because of a journal I read…(she will know who she is -smiles-)
I did lots of research once upon a time about the Muslim faith - as I had someone I was interested in who was Muslim. But long before I did that research I had a fascination with the veiled women. I liked the idea of being hidden. There is a sacredness with the rituals....in the rituals that I have with Master...and so wearing a veil would add to that sacredness. It seems graceful and quiet…that is not the word I want but I can't find the right word right now. The women stand out in the veil yet in a very quiet beautiful way. I like the idea of begin a wrapped up package that only my Master sees. I love the idea of modesty - covered, the femininity of my hair and make up taken away. But then I also like the idea of being slutty and dressing that way. So of course I have likes on both sides of my Libra scale.
+++++++
Why do I like things from both ends of the scale.
I want to be this totally sexual being and I want to be denied.
I want to have friends and be social and I want be cut off.
I want to be treated like a princess and I want to be treated like nothing.
I want to dress sexy and I want to be veiled and covered.
I want humiliation and I want tenderness and understanding.
I want to soft kisses and a romantic night and I want to raped, beaten and used.
I want to pampered and I want to be on the floor eating out of a dog dish while covered in piss and cum.
+++++++
Master has written about that He has a lot of sadistic thoughts but He is not sure about posting them...I think He should post them *smiles*
Tonight Master was in a bad mood when He came home...and it was understandable. We went out to get groceries and by the time we came home Master was in a better mood. I started to get undressed...no I was undressed and He made me put my bra back on. He motioned for me to come to His side of the bed and I stood there while He just fondled my breasts. He liked the feel of the bra. Before I knew it....we were having sex. mmmmmmmmmmmmm :) Our groceries were not even put away yet....isn't that cool...just spontaneous sex.....so yummy!
Okay going to finish watching What Not to Wear...and eating M&M's :)
Life is like a mirror. If you frown at it, it frowns back. If you smile at it, it returns the greeting. - Herbert Samuels
Thursday, November 20, 2003
"Out beyond ideas of right-doing and wrong-doing, there is a field. I’ll meet you there." ~Rumi
"If you wish to understand yourself, you must succeed in doing so in the midst of all kinds of confusions and upsets. Don't make the mistake of sitting dead in the cold ashes of a withered tree." -Emyo
Our horoscopes for tomorrow...
His...SAGITTARIUS (Nov 22–Dec 21): You may have the wildest and most imaginative ideas now. The big question will be “can you ground your ideas enough to impact reality?” It’s tough to maintain a sense of practicality when your mind is moving so fast and so far out. If you can pull it in just a bit, you have the potential for brilliance. Let it shine.
mine...LIBRA (Sep 23–Oct 22): Don’t put off what you need to do. Act early in the day, for you’ll be riding strong cosmic currents if you do. By midday, the winds of change are blowing strong while changing direction. You may want to fly a kite, for if you play Ben Franklin you’re sure to get struck by lightning. But this isn’t about getting electrocuted. It’s about getting shook up just enough to prevent you from settling back into what’s convenient.
"If you wish to understand yourself, you must succeed in doing so in the midst of all kinds of confusions and upsets. Don't make the mistake of sitting dead in the cold ashes of a withered tree." -Emyo
Our horoscopes for tomorrow...
His...SAGITTARIUS (Nov 22–Dec 21): You may have the wildest and most imaginative ideas now. The big question will be “can you ground your ideas enough to impact reality?” It’s tough to maintain a sense of practicality when your mind is moving so fast and so far out. If you can pull it in just a bit, you have the potential for brilliance. Let it shine.
mine...LIBRA (Sep 23–Oct 22): Don’t put off what you need to do. Act early in the day, for you’ll be riding strong cosmic currents if you do. By midday, the winds of change are blowing strong while changing direction. You may want to fly a kite, for if you play Ben Franklin you’re sure to get struck by lightning. But this isn’t about getting electrocuted. It’s about getting shook up just enough to prevent you from settling back into what’s convenient.
Wednesday, November 19, 2003
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