2004 in Review

We are home! We just got home today...so this is just a review before the new year....

Happy New Year!

2004 in review

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
Gave a speech with Master (January). Went through something with Master's work that I never knew would/could happen to a person (Feb through April). Went to Santa Fe (June). Made some Norwegian goodies (November & December). Went on a day trip where we hit every weather element....rain, sleet, snow, fog, and the sun shining like a warm spring day (which it was).

2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't really make any and probably won't make any for this year

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Friend's children did but no one close to me, no but lots of engagements and weddings this past year

4. Did anyone close to you die?
yes I did have a few people

5. What countries did you visit?
No countries this year. But some new places in the USA

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
not sure I have an answer for this one.

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
I am worse and worse over the years about having dates etched into my memory. I have some special memories but not specific dates.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
More organized, more calm and quiet inside then I ever have had in my whole life.

9. What was your biggest failure?
not working on my art more

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
yes, but that is a constant in my life and this year I got some things more under control - such as allergies.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
nothing specific comes to mind. We got some new curtains for the living room that I really like. We got a star for our tree this year and a beautiful santa and sleigh.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Master really has worked hard on finding a path to go career wise...and this year I think He gotten closer to it and I am proud of him for putting all he does into his passion. And I know this year will be even harder work for Him in that area but I know He can do it!

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
my own on many occasions, 12 people who made a decision I could not believe, my parents for not accepting my sister being gay

14. Where did most of your money go?
to Master. I did not make much money this year but Master got it all but let me spend it on me and presents for Him and others.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Santa Fe

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
I don't think one song will remind me of 2004...maybe Can't Help Falling in Love because of a family wedding this past summer.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
I. happier or sadder? I am not sadder but I really enjoyed having Christmas just with Master last year alone and this year was a little more busy and so it makes me sad but not unhappy. I love my family and miss them terribly but I think it would be nicer to visit them when it was not a holiday.
II. thinner or fatter? thinner! :)
III. richer or poorer? about the same I think

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
more art, more exploring my spirituality

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
expectations

20. How did you be spend Christmas?
with my family in Minnesota

21. Did you fall in love in 2004?
already in love but just keep falling deeper it seems

22. How many one-night stands?
none

23. What was your favorite TV program(s)?
The West Wing, Celebrity Poker, Long Way Round

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
not hate

25. What was the best book you read?
The Pilgrimage by Paulo Coelho

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Lisa Gerrard and Karunesh

27. What did you want and get?
more peacefulness, more calmness

28. What did you want but didn't get?
more time and energy for art

29. What was your favorite film of this year?
Fahrenheit 9/11 and Hidalgo

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
It was a really wonderful birthday....Master woke me up with a rose petals all over the bed creating a rose petal blanket. I was 37

31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Bush out of office

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
warmth...seemed like I was cold a lot in 2004

33. What kept you sane?
Master and friends

34. What political issue stirred you the most?
just the whole election this year stirred me for so many reason which I listed.

35. Who did you miss?
Moni, my family

36. Who was the best new person you met?
Venture and shadoe

37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you earned in 2004:
it's okay to be where we are at

38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
I don't think this sums up on my year but for tonight....this night of the year it does. It is not only an anniversary for me but it is a night of past reflections..going over past years. I was explaining to Master earlier that some things seem so faded like I can't remember them anymore. It scares me. It seems like I will remember them different. And that scares me too. But at the same time things that were once in my life...people, things, memories don't matter like they once did...and other things do matter more.

There are places by Beatles

There are places I remember
All my life
Though some have changed
Some forever
Not for better
Some have gone
And some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends
I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life
I've loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one
Compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love
As something new
Though I know I'll never those affection
For people and things
That went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life
I love you more

Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things
That went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life
I love you more

Oohh ...

In my life
I love you more

Happy Holidays!

Well we leave today (I can't sleep so here right now so up typing), we had some delays due to Master's work and just so much still to do here. Reminder I will be gone for almost 2 weeks so there most likely won't be any or few posts during that time.

A couple of things...

I hope everyone has VERY Happy Holidays!

My Master's post is incredible! I love Him very much and am very blessed to have Him in my life.

And finally....

There is a meme going around on LiveJournal called...10 Small Pleasures

Ten Small Pleasures
1. Christmas Tree decorated and twinkling during the evening while I sip a cup of mulled cider.
2. Chocolate
3. Getting mail (snail mail)
4. Drawing with charcoal
5. Getting unexpected calls from friends I have not talked to in a while
6. Day trips...driving around and just enjoying nature
7. Seeing someone get pleasure from something I did for them (such as our neighbors being so happy to get goodies from us)
8. Christmas music
9. wool socks that keep my feet warm
10. Master snuggling up to me in the morning and waking me with rough caresses...followed by wonderful sex.

Those are small pleasures....

All of them add up to so much more. Life is full of so many wonderful things...

Family and friends...
Hugs and kisses...
Laughter and tears...

And right now I am very thankful and feel very blessed to have so many wonderfully special people and things in my life.

I hope that everyone has a wonderful Christmas filled with peace, joy and love!

Christmas Goodies

I had a few people ask me about what kind of baking for cookies and goodies this year. So here is the recipes.

Little Girl of the 70's

I found this on Jezchelle....Thank you Jezchelle! I am going to have to send it to my sisters they will love it!

OMG how I related to it!

You wore a rainbow shirt that was half-sleeves, and the rainbow went up one sleeve, across your chest, and down the other. (yes I did)

You made baby chocolate cakes in your Easy Bake Oven and washed them down with snow cones from your Snoopy Snow Cone Machine. (Had the easy bake over and love it)

You had that Fisher Price Doctor’s Kit with a stethoscope that actually worked.

You owned a bicycle with a banana seat and a basket. (oh yes it did!)

You even owned roller skates with metal wheels.

You thought Gopher from Love Boat was cute (Admit it!) (yes I admit it)

You had nightmares after watching FantasyIsland. (nope no nightmares but loved watching it)

You had rubber boots for rainy/snowy days - remember Moon boots (you then advanced to Duck Shoes in the 80’s) (uggh I hated it because everyone got cool colored rubber boots and I got black ones as they were cheaper)

You had either a “bowl cut” or “pixie,” not to mention the Dorothy Hamill” because your Mom was sick of braiding your hair. How traumatic when people thought you were a boy. (yes true I did have a pixie and a dorthy hamill cut)

Your Holly Hobbie sleeping bag was your most prized possession. (I did not have holly hobbie sleeping back but my room was decorated with holly hobby when I was 4 to6)

You wore a poncho, gauchos, and knickers. (yes, yep, and yeppers..I remember my sister and I have burgundy satin knickers with white ruffly shirts that we wore for Christmas one year)

You begged Santa for the electronic game, Simon. (I did not have it but my sister did and I think my mom still has it and it works too)

You had the Donnie and Marie dolls with those pink and purple shredded outfits. (yes I did)

You spent hours out back on your metal swing set with the trapeze.

You had homemade ribbon barrettes in every imaginable color. (I didn't but I know my sisters did)

You even had a pair of Doctor Scholl’s sandals (the ones with hard sole &the buckle). (yes I had them and when they came out last summer again I wanted a pair again)

You wanted to be Laura Ingalls Wilder really bad; you wore that Little House on the Prairie-inspired plaid, ruffle shirt with the high neck in at least one school picture; and you despised Nellie Olson! (yes I did have a couple dresses that were prairie inspired over the years and it probably all does go back to my love of Little House on the Prarie)

You wanted your first kiss to be at the roller rink! (something I never got into was roller skating my first kiss was on the playground)

Your hairstyle was described as having “wings” and you kept it “pretty” with the comb you kept in your back pocket. (LOL yes I did have purple comb that I actually think I have somewhere still and also remember having a rainbow one as my room when I was a pre-teen was done in rainbows)

You know who Strawberry Shortcake is, as well as her friends, Blueberry Muffin and Huckleberry Pie. (I know who they are but did not have any...I think they came out when I was too old to play for dolls can't remember for sure. I know my little sister had them all though)

You carried a Muppets lunch box to school. (Nope I didn't I think I had a charlie's angel and also a scooby doo one)

You and your girlfriends would fight over which of the Dukes of Hazzard was your boyfriend. (yep did that but also my sisters and I would fight over who would be which angel when we would play charlies angels)

Every now and then “It’s a Hard Knock Life” from the movie, “Annie” will pop into your brain and you can’t stop singing it the whole day.

YOU had Star Wars action figures, too.

It was a big event in your household each year when the “Wizard of Oz” would come on TV. Your mom would break out the popcorn and sleeping bags! (That the sound of music and willy wonka too)

You even asked your Magic-8 ball the question: “Who will I marry. Andy Gibb, Scott Baio, or Rick Springfield?” (Oh my yes and lets not forget Leif Garrett)

You completely wore out your Grease, Saturday Night Fever, and Fame soundtrack albums. (I did not have any of the soundtracks but I remember Grease was my first drive in movie and then I loved the TV show Fame and would sing that song lots)

You tried to do lots of arts and crafts, like yarn and Popsicle-stick God’s eyes of those weird potholders made on a plastic loom.

You made Shrinky-Dinks! (Many times in girl scouts we did shrinky dinks)

You used to tape record songs off the radio by holding your portable tape player up to the speaker. (LOL yes i did that)

You couldn’t wait to get the free animal poster that came when you ordered books from the Weekly Reader book club.

You learned everything you needed to know about girl issues from Judy Blume books (Are you there God, It’s me, Margaret.) (also true)

You thought Olivia Newton John’s song “Physical” was about aerobics.

You wore friendship pins on your tennis shoes, or shoelaces with a heart or rainbow designs. (yes and yes had both them)

You wanted to be a Solid Gold dancer. (yes i did)

You had a Big Wheel with a brake on the side, and a Sit-n-Spin.

You had subscriptions to 16 and Tiger Beat.

Life Update with some Sex & SM :)

Things are not letting up with the holidays so I have not been updating. Again I have been wanting to write, but I have not had time.

Friday I spent baking Christmas cookies.

Saturday morning I baked more cookies and then got the potluck dishes ready for a party we were attending. It was Master's office party. I went just a little ahead and had a nice time getting to know a few of the women there better. Master's boss' wife is very warm and just so down to earth. They have a gorgeous home. We had great food and drinks. It was much better then last year. I enjoyed it.

Sunday morning Master and I had fun in the bedroom for a while. Lots of spanking, hood, and being fucked hard and long. It was delish! Master spanked me like He was playing the drums at first. He then put a hood on me. It is the one that is made of perforated leather and laces up the back. We then kind of spooned...but not in a soft and cuddly way. It was very sadistic. Master arm was around my neck - His hand reaching down to my tits to squeeze and hurt - His other hand punching and spanking my ass hard. He was hitting my ass. I felt the moment His sadist came out during it. It became rougher and harder. He would pull me back into Him hard at times too. I felt His hard cock behind me and I would moan. It turned me on so much. Soon I was begging Master to fuck me. And soon He was putting into position roughly fucking me from behind (we have figured out a good place to fuck doggie style in our house without ruining Master's knees). He fucked me a long time that way and it felt so good! yummy! We ended up lying there with me in the hood while we both basked in the fun morning.

Monday I did some cleaning and more baking. Also got a few packages together to send out. Master had to work very late tonight so we have not much time together. And I feel the rest of the week is going to go the same way as we are gearing up to leaving on Friday for family. So also note that I might have a chance to update at Master's parents but at my parents I won't be able too.

I need to do some more baking tomorrow and wrapping presents.

Master is turning off computers so that is my cue to wrap things up as we are heading to bed.

By the way, my ass still hurts!

The Rest of the Festive Birthday....

So as I said I was up very late on Sunday....

In addition to finishing up one of Master's presents...I also wrapped the rest of His presents and decorated the house so it would look festive for His Birthday instead of just Christmas. I had light blue and royal blue streamers that I put on the door, in the kitchen, dining room and then I made a curtain of streamers across the office door which I knew was the first place He would go...

I then had 2 pre-made Happy Birthday signs that hung up and 9 homemade signs. Some that said Happy Birthday Daddy.

I wanted to make Master's Birthday very special. Because it was His birthday and they are to be celebrated in my mind. As I have ranted about several times..so I won't go into that again.

Anyway, we had breakfast together and then He opened presents. After that I actually went to bed and He worked on project. After that we relaxed around here for a while before catching an early dinner at His favorite steakhouse.

The celebration ended basically with me putting row of 3 and then 5 candles in the brownies I made him for His birthday...and singing to Him.

So it was a nice relaxing festive day for Him. I am very thankful He was born because He is a wonderful man and Master. And I am a lucky girl to have the opportunity to celebrate His birthday!

A Project for Master's Birthday...

Well I have been busy....and thus not posting. Even though of course while I have been busy I have wanted to post several times when I did not have time to sit down and write.

Last night was a very late night for me. I started a project at the beginning of last week, but with being so busy lately I really did not get it done until the wee hours of the night...or morning depending on how you look at it.

So the beginning of last week, I got this idea for Master's birthday. I wanted to 100 Reasons I love him....vanilla type thing so that I could possible frame for Him. Then I thought it would be cool if He could read one a day - so I thought of doing them on slips of paper and putting them in a jar. But then I decided I wanted something that He could have all year around...365. So from the 100 reasons I loved Him spawned a 365 day type inspirational card set.

I typed up in a word document formatted for business cards the 100 Reasons I love him (which actually ended up being 102 because I did not count them until I was already at 102 so just kept it at 102), photography quotes, personal growth quotes, stress tips, love quotes, questions to ponder, things to celebrate, explore, share or unwind with and all sorts of other odds and end kind of quotes and questions.

I then printed them - some on business card sheets, others on colored paper and some on business card size sticky labels. After they were done, I took some and decorated them. And others I just kept white like the business cardstock.

So now Master has a set of 365 inspirational cards and reasons I love Him. It is all vanilla so He can bring it to work.

Here are some pictures....

The little container they are sitting in I have had for a few years never knowing what I was going to do with it, but knew it would be good for something someday. I got it at an after Christmas sale one year. It contained coasters. I used the coasters as candle holders. I then packaged them up with candles and gave as gifts one year to some friends.

I am sure if someone was wanting to do this...they could make or get a paper mache box at a craft store that would fit the cards. And then just paint or decorate the box.



I used rubbers stamps, stickers, ribbon, little drawings with colored pencils, construction paper, colored copier paper, scalloped scissors and those types of things on the cards.



I used different fonts and titles at the top like Unwind, Photography quote. As I said I had all sorts of different types of categories. I got a lot of the quotes from quotes I have saved over the years. But another great source that I found was Power Quotes. They had quotes and then also questions to ponder that go along with the quote. It was incredible place.



A close up of some of the cards. The one that says, "Share: Eat dinner by candlelight"...well the card under it is the how back looks. A collage of paper. The share card was printed off on a label. So I would lay down scrapes of paper that I had from the decorating the other cards and then just lay the sticker down on top of it and turn it over and then fill in the spaces by gluing more pieces.

I will do another post about Master's birthday and other things going on soon...I hope. I do need to do Christmas cards tomorrow. And maybe bake some cookies.

Also I am so behind on emails personal and email lists. I am actually going to unsubscribe from a few lists so I don't feel guilty about not posting to them.

I really wanted to do the Holidailies but I will be gone 2 weeks the end of December so it would not make sense for me to because of that and also just so busy right now.

More to come later.

Celebrating.....

Happy Birthday Master!



I love you and hope your Birthday is wonderful

Please may I ask that everyone go over to His blog and wish Him a Happy Birthday!

New Template

Just a quickie....a longer entry later today...or tomorrow.

I did a Christmas template! It is a little off in Mozilla/Firefox, but I am sick of messing with it! So it will have to do...it is only up for a month.

Master's birthday is Monday so my week has been preparing for that and the holidays.

Thankful for the mail I got from 2 friends on LiveJournal and from my cousin and Grandmother.

Life Update

Yesterday Master's parents headed home and although His parents are very nice....it was time for them to go. We all have a nice time even with a few moments of tensions (watching Fahrenheit 9/11 and Master's Dad trying to fix the dishwasher). But over all it was a good time. Drank, ate, played games, watched movies and just hung out together.

While Master's parents were here, Master and I had a few issues come up that we could not get into with the parents here so those got put off until today. It was an emotionally intense conversation and I am glad we talked and know we will be talking more. Tonight we ran an errand, went to dinner and then drove around to see some lights that were already up. We listened to XM's Christmas music stations while we drove around. It was nice.

Tomorrow Master is working from home. And I am going to get the tree and decorations out so we can put the tree up. I love Christmas and I love decorating for it. So I am really excited. I have been listening to Christmas music a lot already despite having most of my music packed away. I had some on my computer though and then there is a station on the satellite too. I started a list of holiday things I need to get done.

This weekend there is a parade. I am hoping we get out to go that, but also hoping it was warmer then it was tonight (left the house it was 14 and came home it was 5). I need to finish shopping for Master's birthday also since I did not have time before Thanksgiving. I hope to get that done Thursday and/or Friday.

It seems like this holiday season is going to go fast. I think that is because we will be heading to Master's parents early and then flying from their to my parents in Minnesota. We are hoping to get together with our good friends in Denver when we head over too.

Going to end this entry with a few links...

This is a link to a clip of Richard Simmons on Who's Line is it Anyway? It is very funny! I am really surprised Richard Simmon's doing and saying the things he is.....maybe I just have been out of touch with how out he is? And actually surprised the networks aired it too.

Blogging on a TV Show...The West Wing.

Twisted Chick....a political blog that I really enjoy.

And today I am thankful for the wonderful kiss Master gave me this afternoon. Thankful for the warm scarf girlie knitted me for Christmas last year. Thankful for flannel pj's and red wool socks (sounds really sexy huh?) because I am so cold.

Living in 2004

You know you're living in 2004 when...

1. You accidentally enter your password on the microwave.

2. You haven't played solitaire with real cards in years.

3. You have a list of 15 phone numbers to reach your family of 3.

4. You e-mail the person who works at the desk next to you.

5. Your reason for not staying in touch with friends and family is that they don't have e-mail addresses.

6. You go home after a long day at work you still answer the phone in a business manner.

7. You make phone calls from home, you accidentally dial "9" to get an outside line.

8. You've sat at the same desk for four years and worked for three different companies.

10. You learn about your redundancy on the 11 o'clock news.

11. Your boss doesn't have the ability to do your job.

12. You pull up in your own driveway and use your cell phone to see if anyone is home.

13. Every commercial on television has a website at the bottom of the screen.

14. Leaving the house without your cell phone, which you didn't have the first 20 or 30 (or 60) years of your life, is now a cause for panic and you turn around to go and get it.

15. You get up in the morning and go online before getting your coffee.

16. You start tilting your head sideways to smile. :)

17. You're reading this and nodding and laughing.

18. Even worse, you know exactly to whom you are going to forward this message.

19. You are too busy to notice there was no #9 on this list.

20. You actually scrolled back up to check that there wasn't a #9 on this list.

AND NOW YOU ARE LAUGHING at yourself.

Life Update

Well the house is quiet at the moment. Sipping some wassail.

Master's parent's said that today was the first time they have seen me out of the kitchen since they arrived on Wednesday.

I feel like I have been cooking and baking all week. I tried to spread it out so I would not be so stuck in the kitchen. Last Sunday I started with a Norwegian cookie/pastry. And then Monday Pumpkin bars. Then Tuesday, I didn't have time for any baking. Wednesday was my real baking day pie, bars, rolls and then had stew in teh crockpot in the morning for dinner that evening. I ended the evening with making up potstickers and crab ragoon to have as appetizers before dinner on Thursday. And the cooking and baking did not end there...

Thursday's Menu...

Breakfast....cinnamon rolls and mimosas

Appetizers...Crab Ragoon, Potstickers that went over very well....Master's parents had not had either and really liked both of them a lot. I also had a crockpot of wassail going all day. Another thing they had not had and enjoyed a lot.

Then for 3:30pm dinner...
Relish tray - 2 cheeses, Green and Black Olives, Veggies and Onion Dip
Then the Turkey, stuffing, mashed potatoes, gravy, green bean casserole, cranberries, rolls and wine.

For Dessert...Pumpkin Pie and Pecan Pie Bars

That was more then enough food. It seemed we ate all day long.

Today I ended up being totally exhausted. I just could not wake up this morning. So, Master allowed me to take a nap. I ended up sleeping for several hours. I guess I needed it. Master is doing a project for His parents. And so they have been helping Him with it since they arrived on Wednesday.

There was a huge rockslide here that we found out about yesterday...that happened shortly after they got here. So we thankful they got across the mountain passes before that happened.

Master got up early and went to get Buffy the Vampire Slayer Season 7 for me at Target. He then also went to Home Depot. He had me sleep in but the kitty cats woke me up. Tomorrow we are going to do some running around with Master's parents.

Well I feel like I am fading....just doing a life update. More this weekend sometime I am sure.

Tired....Life Update

Just a quickie...as it is late...

I have been busy preparing for Thanksgiving this week so not even online more than 20 minutes this week.

Monday was cleaning, then after work Master and I went to get haircuts (3 more inches off for me so now just at the shoulders), go get beer and also got some more wine (because we bought a couple bottles this past weekend at our favorite local winery). I pointed out a beer made in the town Master's went to school so He ended up getting that too. It was a lager. The wine is a mixture of my 2 favorites so it will be interesting to see how that tastes.

During our shopping trip for groceries Master also allowed me to get a frame for the Amy Brown print He gave me for my birthday and a new kitchen rug. The frame matches with the print so good. The print is called Firedance and has deep reds, oranges, sienna, burnt orange, and mustard yellow. There is border around the dancing fairy of mustard yellow mixed with orange. The frame almost looks like tiger eye. It is really swirling shades of brown from golden to deep chocolate brown. So they look very good together. The rug has a burgundy border and then really pretty fruit on it....all in the jewel tones.

Tuesday was more cleaning, laundry and baking. More stuff to charity. And Moni called me so I got a chance to talk to her. I had been thinking about her for about a week and meant to ask permission to call her. I miss her!

Today I baked some more and prepared stew for dinner tonight. We hung up some framed pictures of Master's photographs...they look fabulous! And then in the mid-afternoon Master's parents arrived. We had a nice evening. They helped me prepare appetizers for tomorrow. And then we had dinner,drank and played games. It was a nice evening.

They just left about 30 minutes ago. We are having cinnamon rolls and mimosas for breakfast. A relish tray, crab ragoon and potstickers during the day while we wait for Turkey dinner.

I am extremely tired so calling it a night.

I hope everyone has a very nice Thanksgiving! I hope you are able to spend it your loved ones.

Bisexual

You are 89% Bisexual

How bisexual are you?

To go with the Bisexual quiz...

There was a question on a group the other day about being bi or not...

Bisexuality means sexual or romantic attraction directed towards some members of more than one sex.

I think someone can be bisexual and never "act" on it. I also believe someone can be with both sexes and not be bisexual.

I am bisexual. I am odd at times because when I was little I did not get that it wasn't accepted to be with the opposite sex or attracted to the opposite sex. I just thought it was not talked about like sex wasn't talked about. So I remember clearly being attracted to both men and women. But I did not say anything. As I got older approaching my teens, I still don't think I knew it was not accepted, but I tended to go for males. It was at a slumber party that I first explored with another female and that was during truth or dare. I had not told anyone about my desires up to that point. By the time I entered high school I realized it was not accepted to be attracted to both males and females.

My attraction to men has always been one of a power dynamic mixed with SM. I just did not know there was a name for what I was seeking with a man. I would always want to be with men that took charge....didn't always find them but I can look back and see that is what I was seeking.

But with women most of the time when it is vanilla type of attraction but of course on the rare occasion I do like to be topped by a female (DM and Jackie coming to mind).

I have been with some incredible women. It just didn't work for various reasons...I was owned (this was before Master). And then when I wasn't she was owned. Another one well was not truly bisexual. A couple were rebounds. Then others were just sex (which is fun, but sometimes a girl wants more).

Morgan though is the only one I have been with who it has been ideal combination of everything. She was tender. She knew when to take control. She was completely open and honest with me. She gave me so much of herself. It was so good...Oh how I love her...still. Darn period...crying. I miss her.

Well that did not end up where I thought it was going....just thought I would write about being bi. But I guess....it is appropriate that it ended up with her...

Have you ever read lyrics and thought that the music must sound one way...and then you hear it and it is totally different but works...works perfectly? That is how it was with us...I think people probably did not understand how it worked. But then saw us together and went wow.

The only problem was that by that time I grew up and the views of society were influencing me. And so I pushed because I could not accept that I was in a relationship with a woman.

Hindsight...I wish of course...now I could do it differently. I sometimes fantasies about where life might have taken us. I wonder if that lyrics and music would have been made into a symphony. Because when I think about it...without those fears of the past it feels like it would have been incredible.

life update

A Quiz...
Dog Toy or Martial Aid

Missed 1 the first round and 2 the second

Horoscope for Thursday....
LIBRA (Sep 23?Oct 22): There is hard work in doing what you do and living your life in your own special way, even if it looks easy to others. Now, more than other times, your discipline and your work ethic can set the stage for the really big payoff. Don't think about cashing in your chips yet. Just keep that production line moving.


TV...
Bravo has become my favorite station. The Long Way Round with Ewan McGregor and his friend Charlie....is quite interesting. It is beautiful to see all the countries they are seeing...the landscape, people and hospitality. They have had some hard times but obviously some tremendously memorable times too. And they are also very amusing. Some of the things that happen to them...and the things they say are extremely humorous.

I enjoy watching The West Wing, Long Way Round, Inside the Actors Studio, Queer Eye, and Celebrity Poker - all of which are on Bravo!

Nesting...
One of Master's co-workers said I am nesting. Yep it is that time of year. I go through it a few times a year and with the holidays approaching it is one of those times.

I have been reorganizing the house. I am all ready for Christmas to come...Christmas decorations already to be pulled out of the closet. I have been in a decorating mode. Rearranging furniture, redoing curtains and such.

Master's living room had Scarlet O'hara curtains....several patterns (one being a big floral), lots of swoops, draping over draping, fringe. I didn't like them. So it was something that I requested be replaced and Master said yes. We found some we liked and Master bought one pair to test out. Master and I both really like them. The color is called Green Tea. They are a really pretty shade of green. Not pastel but also not too dark to make the room look closed in. They blend really well the hunter green carpet too. Yesterday Master surprised me with the rest of the sets we will need to finish with the draperies in the living room.

I found an old curtain topper that the pattern is not bad but it has ruffles (I am not big on ruffles). I am going to cut off the ruffles and maybe add some big wooden buttons I have in my craft stuff to it and use it in the spare room.

I am still reorganizing. Master's dining room is lined with cupboards. And so with the spare room in order now, I moved some art supplies and books I had in those cupboards to the spare room. I had unpacked a few crystal pieces and some more teapots (I collect them and have way to many - even got rid of some before I moved) while reorganizing the spare room so those got put in the cupboards. The cupboards have glass fronts so it puts them on display.

This weekend I want to get things finished up and also bake.

Well I need to send out pictures and a few other things online before we get to bed.

"We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience." -Pierre Teilhard de Chardin