Spinning

Music: Batman Forever Soundtrack

Last night I got to talk to Nick and we had a good talk. He told me I worry to much. I do...but so far Nick has done everything right that makes me let go each time more and more. Where I put faith and trust in him more and more.....and let go. He is my Dominant and I want to please him. And Sir Nick does not expect anything but me to do my best. I can do that....:)

We had a good talk last night and I miss him. He is going out of town this week. And I will be out of town this weekend so it will be Tuesday probably before I get to chat with him.

This week I am very busy...I have something going on almost every night of the week.

www.myss.com is a site that I have been reading on and off for a couple of week.

There is a daily meditation plan that I read the other day and I believe I want to start doing.

I am posting it here to talk about it....

Your Daily Practice - Morning

Each day is a new beginning. Your task today is to learn the practice of consciously entering your body and your day. Begin by focusing attention on your entire day from morning to evening.

Review your plans for today:

Think about where you need to be and with whom you need to be.
Do you feel stressful about this day or do you feel comfortable?
Do you feel prepared for today's events?
Are you projecting fears and expectations into this day?

Your First Chakra
Allow the truth 'All is One' to penetrate your body
Drop your attention to the root of your spine.
Feel yourself magnetically connected to every part of life:
the fragrance of the earth
the oceans and rivers
the air
your family and friends
the planet
Identify your fears for today and pull them into your consciousness.
Acknowledge the strength of the energetic circuitry connecting you to all life.
Visualize that strength replacing your fears for today.
Standing tall.

Your Second Chakra
Allow the truth 'Honor One Another' to penetrate your body.
Move your attention gradually up your spine to your lower back, hips and genital area.
Feel the fire and vibrant energy of this area.
Focus that energy toward the key areas of this chakra:
Relationships: Who am I going to be with today?
Work: What am I going to do today?
Money: How do I feel about it today?
Creativity: What am I going to create today?

Your Third Chakra
Allow the truth 'Honor Yourself' to penetrate your body.
Breathe deeply as you shift your attention to your solar plexus and abdominal area.
Focus on your self-esteem and how you feel about yourself today:
Am I feeling strong? Frightened?
Do I need someone's approval today?
Will I need to be courageous?
Remind yourself of your boundaries, dignity, inherent honor, and integrity
Make a spiritual promise in terms of how you want to live your life today


Your Fourth Chakra
Allow the truth 'Love is Divine Power' to penetrate your body.
Raise your attention up to your heart, the center of love.
Welcome the people you're scheduled to meet today into your meditation:
Where you feel love for them, send more, boundless love.
For those you feel challenged to love, say the prayer , "Let me learn more about how to love them today."
Think about who you need to forgive today; release the rage, bitterness or hurt feelings from your heart.
Tell yourself "Forgiveness is not easy, but today I ask for one more step toward that goal."
Release the prayer that you want to look at today through your heart and not through your fears; that you want to feel gratitude for events that do or don't happen as they should.
Keep your attention on the right way to walk into this day, with a heart full of love.

Your Fifth Chakra
Allow the truth 'Surrender Personal Will to Divine Will' to penetrate your body.
Move your attention to your throat area.
Define your needs and desires for today and let go of doing the same for others.
Make the choice to love this day instead of fearing it.
Envision choices that result in positive attitudes, memories, and feelings about yourself.
Vow to express yourself honestly.

Your Sixth Chakra
Allow 'Seek Only Truth' to penetrate your body
Focus your attention upwards to your mind - the world behind your eyes.
Go beyond the limits of the rational mind and accept the Divine's Plan for you.
Prepare your mind to enter the day feeling good and not generating illusions, false truths or fears.
For today, release old grudges, beliefs, attitudes and patterns that no longer serve you.
Remember that everything in your life is there for a reason and to teach you truth.

Your Seventh Chakra
Allow the truth 'Live in the Present Moment' to penetrate your body.
Pull your attention up and out, and hold the idea 'live in present time.'
Let go of the past and do not anticipate the future.
During the day, practice the discipline of telling yourself, "This is all I have. This is all there is to my life right now."
Invoke this prayer:
I am committed to feeling a bond with each person I meet, to respecting my own integrity and honor, to living within the energy of love and compassion and returning to that energy when I don't feel it, to making wise and blessed choices with my will, to maintaining perceptions of wisdom and non-judgment, to release the need to know why things happen as they do, and not to project expectations over how I want this day to be and how I want others to be. And finally, my last prayer, 'to trust the Divine'. And with that I bless my day with gratitude and love.

I was talking to Kam tonight about how mental and emotional things work for me. The new age things such as stones and crystals don't I do not get comfort in them and if you don't believe in them they won't work anyway. I believe in mental things...such as I do an exercise (sometimes - not enough) where I picture a sphere around me - that protects me. And that mental exercise allows me to release a lot of baggage but also protects me from outside things that might hurt me and stress me. If someone handed me a crystal and said it will do the same thing. I am not really there enough to believe it. I am person that thinks and feels with my heart and soul so doing mental and emotional exercises work much better with me.

I got in a fight with Ray last night. I felt like he was telling me I was not submissive. What he was saying to me made me feel very bad about myself as a submissive. It is so strange because I was talking to a good friend today and she said she needed to let go of the doubts and the things he was saying was making me doubt myself. I was chatting with another friend at the time and ended up pretty much ignoring him and I felt very bad about that. I kept trying to just let what he was saying as him pushing to show me something but it felt like he was pushing to piss me off and put me down. So I finally could not take it any more and said "fuck...." and it did not go good from there.

We have discussed this many times...the issue and then he wants me to push through things but does not understand that some things are not good to push through when I don't have the support to deal with that here.

So it was an intense morning before I went to bed....

I then worked some today but it was kind of slow. I am hoping it picks up the rest of the week. I am wide awake right now and it is 12:25....ugghhh....

My mind is spinning on lots of things.....wish I was with Nick.

peace,
danae