Willful

Head swimming still...

I am on edge. I want to feel pain so much. I want to be humiliated. I need some walls broken down that are going up. I want to be stripped of all the layers down to that part buried deep inside. I am doubting myself today - doubting that I can give everything to just one person. The thought is scaring me a lot. I feel very willful today. I guess I am lucky Sir Nick is not around.

One of those days where I am going what do I want and what the hell am I doing with my life...

ugghhhh

peace,
danae