StainD

Music: StainD

"It's Been Awhile" - StainD

It's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
Since I first saw you
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
Since I could call you
But everything I can't
remember as fucked up as it
all may seem the consequences
that I've rendered I've stretched
myself beyond my means

It's been awhile
Since I could say that I wasn't addicted
Since I could say I love myself as well
Since I've gone and fucked things
up just like I always do
But all that shit seems to
disappear when I'm with you
But everything I can't remember
as fucked up as it may seem
The consequences that I've rendered,
I've gone and fucked things up again.
Why must I feel this way
Just make this go away,
Just one more peaceful day

It's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
Since I said I'm sorry
Since I've seen the way
the candle lights your face
But I can still remember
just the way you taste
But everything I can't remember as
fucked up as it all may seem to be
I know it's me I cannot blame this on my
father he did the best he could for me

It's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
and it's been awhile since I said
I'm sorry

"Outside" - StainD

And you bring me to my knees, yeah
All this time that i could beg you please, yeah
All the times that i felt insecure, yeah
And i leave my burdens at the door

I'm on the outside
I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
'Cause Inside youre ugly
Ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you

All this time that I felt like this wont end
Was for you
And i taste what I could never have
It's from you
All those times that I tried
My intentions
Full of pride
And i waste more time than anyone

I'm on the outside
I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
Cause inside you're ugly
Ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you

All the times that I cried
All this wastin
It's all inside
And i feel all this pain
Stuffed it down
It's back again
And I lie here in bed
All alone
I cant help what I feel
Tomorrow will be okay

I'm on the outside
I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
Inside you're ugly
Ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you

These songs were on a blogger entry I read today. But I also related to them because of journal entry I am writing about attention. It is hard to write. It is me and it seems so deep inside.

peace,
danae